|Starting ADHD meds this week||April 21, 2015, 11:23 am|
Hi all, I am starting medication for ADHD this week, most likely Strattera. I have struggled all my life with severe anxiety, racing speech, racing thoughts, inability to focus or concentrate, outbursts of energy with accompanying weird/immature behaviour, etc etc.
Well now it's been given a label, and I'm glad of that, because it has helped me to make sense of a lot of things. Labels can be extremely helpful at times.
In the past I've been variously diagnosed with depression, dysthymia, general anxiety disorder, attachment disorder and so on. But none of it seemed realistic: I had no reason to be any of these things, and when I started treatment for them, they tended to clear up straight away (except for anxiety, which has been severe and lifelong).
My executive functioning (how my brain works) is impaired to a level normally seen in people with brain damage.
I've been told that ADHD medication will clear up much of my anxiety, make me feel comfortable in my own skin and massively improve my concentration, confidence, productivity and ability to hold down relationships. It could reduce my cognitive impairment by such a degree that I will no longer even be classed as impaired (quite an improvement from "brain damaged"). I've also been told the improvements usually start from day one.
Unfortunately, I am dreading the potential side effects. In fairness, people who abuse it, which I won't, tend to get the really bad ones. My therapist is convinced I won't have any, or they won't be severe. I guess this is anxiety's last throw of the dice, hoping to scare me off before I take a medication that will destroy its hold on me.
So on Thursday morning I will take my Strattera, and it will either help me to realise my dreams, or it won't.
Wish me luck.
|Blake Stone Planet Strike song resemblance to E2M8||April 16, 2015, 9:49 pm|
Plus an edit to it to be more..Doomish even tho Prince also composed Blake Stone's soundtrack as well so I say he got inspiration to make a longer version for Doom.
Original MIDI (originally IMF) rendered via OGG: http://www.mediafire.com/listen/i52..._Soundalike.ogg - Used Merlin Vienna soundfont through Synthfont
|Can anyone explain this to me?||April 13, 2015, 12:25 pm|
EDIT: Nevermind, I misunderstood it at first. I thought that when I add "6", it would add to array (or the sixth element of the array). Problem solved.
This is for an assignment. I'm not asking for the solution, but I'm a bit confused:
It seems to me that the example is wrong, shouldn't element 7 become 6? And what if the 100th element (99) is shifted to the right? They didn't say anything about the limits.
|Back from Frenchlandica||April 11, 2015, 10:05 pm|
So my studies took a rather unexpected diversion this semester.
See, I wanted to take this Fiction class for my last humanities credit. I also needed one more honors-section class to graduate with honors.
Imagine my happiness when I got the honors newsletter saying Fiction would run in an honors section in Spring 2015.
Cool. The letter came at beginning of the Fall 2014 semester, so I dropped my section of Fiction that semester so I could save it for Spring 2015, therefore avoiding a needless honors-section class solely to graduate with honors.
Then 3 weeks into Fall 2014, and 3 weeks after dropping the regular Fiction, I get the update to the newsletter: "Sorry, we changed honors Fiction from 2PM to 11AM." Wonderful, except I've got on-site training that day from 9AM-1PM.
Go through a bunch of hassle, come up with one solution: "Study Abroad."
So I ended up in Paris over spring break.
Got to see the cool stuff, got to see the ghetto stuff, got to be a Dumb American™, got to meet Julian again (nearly 10 years later), got to have real wine, got to eat real bread... (I have to say, France certainly has the French Toast market cornered.)
Got my humanities credit, got my honors credit.
All in all, we had a very French time.
|RIP "Pasta" My Pet Bearded Dragon||April 6, 2015, 7:18 am|
I’m saddened to say that this morning, my beloved pet bearded dragon “Pasta” has passed away. He was a wonderful friend who will be greatly missed. I've had Pasta since I was a little kid in 5th grade. I still remember how excited and happy I was when I got him on Christmas morning back in 2003. RIP Pasta, I love you and you will be forever missed. Circa 2003 – April 6th 2015
|Doom minitures||April 6, 2015, 5:29 am|
Looking for traders for doom minis
|Solving equations with e ^ x and x||April 1, 2015, 7:10 am|
Today, in my Calc II exam, I've came across the question of finding the derivative of an inverse function when x = 2. The function was as I remember:
f(x) = e ^ 2x + 4x + 1
I didn't know how to solve for x algebraically after I substituted f(x) with 2 (or using ln or exp functions). So I put automatically x = 0 as it will satisfy the equation and then I proceeded. Luckily, it was a multiple choice question, so the method of solving isn't important.
How do I solve this?
|A funny story involving a doom ringtone||March 29, 2015, 6:44 pm|
A couple of years ago a buddy of mine graduated from some kind of firefighter academy. He invited me to the ceremony, and as my oldest friend (eleven years and going strong), of course I went. There came a point during the ceremony where everyone was asked to bow their heads for a moment of silence to honor all of the fallen firefighters.
Thirty some odd seconds into the moment of silence...Doomguy's "second scream" on full volume broke the silence. Also, because it was a phone call, he just KEPT ON SCREAMING. "Bwahhhhhh! Bwahhhh! Bwahhhhhh!"
Everybody in the room looked right at me. I tried to get the phone out of the front pocket of my button down shirt, but I couldn't work the button quick enough. So I just started punching the hell out of my chest until I managed to hit the silent button.
I looked up at my buddy who was trying really hard to keep from laughing his ass off.
|Getting Review Copies||March 28, 2015, 3:46 am|
I've been reviewing games as a sort of closure for a long time. Over the years, I've got 500 reviews in a document. Some are lazy, others have bolstered 1,350 words.
Out of boredom I thought well I'm going to write game developers and get free games. It worked! Within an hour, I had 4 review copies granted out of 5 attempts. 2 of the 4 are awful games, but whatever. If anything its just someone to tell them where they're going wrong.
I'm just really shocked how easy it is to get a review copy. Even a game with a publisher gave me a review copy. I'm a nobody, unpaid, but my reviews are pretty damn detailed and even if I don't like a game I still give it a fair shake, which confuses a lot of people.
So wow this is easy, all I had to do was ask and cite 10 reviews, 6 good and 4 bad to show I'm capable of negative reviews. Maybe I can get $60 AAA titles for free.