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Reading December 1, 2015, 10:39 am
As a quiet misanthropic person I always found it kinda peculiar that I never really took into reading books as some people with similar traits do. It seems like the type of things most people like me get into, but many of my experiences with books often ended pretty quickly with the author writing too heavily into detail about seemingly innocuous things without really developing the plot. Or if the plot was developing, it must have been going over my head. For that reason, I find it kinda weird that novelists are celebrated so much as I get much more entertainment value from short stories and poetry. Maybe it's just a great accomplishment, but for what its worth, I feel a similar and more effective way of telling stories can be accomplished in less paper.

Still yet, I've never really picked up many books. While I really like the idea of having shelves loaded with books and an endless supply of reading material, Books always seem like commitments. Like TV series, sometimes a show can grab you with a colorful plot and interesting characters, then towards the later seasons, the plots don't seem to be going anywhere and there are filler episodes to take up time before the next set of events occurs. I don't want to feel like my time is wasted.

However, my time spent in my college classes helped me to discover a newfound love for writing -- more specifically, taking notes. I managed to find some effective tips at taking notes and outlining your notes in a neat legible format. I've used this as an opportunity to learn and have recently become engrossed in watching documentaries with a composition book and pencil in hand, and jotting down things I found interesting as if I were studying it for a quiz. In the end, the writing helps me retain the information better, even without any intention of reading and studying the notes later. It just helps me feel more worldly and understanding of different viewpoints about controversial issues and history and science that I didn't understand before. Youtube has been a surprisingly thorough and bountiful resource for this. Tomorrow I'll be buying a fat stack of composition books and a pack of freshly sharpened Ticonderoga pencils from the dollar store to fill with notes from all the documentaries I recently added to my list.

I believe this somehow fueled my interest in reading lately. A recent epiphany reminded me that with the internet, you can pretty much learn anything in the world as long as you know what questions to ask (and can identify a biased source when you see it!). Now I've been dedicating a couple hours each day to actively fill my brain with things I didn't know the day before, and spending other time throughout the day listening around for things I don't understand, and embracing the fact that I really don't have a thorough understanding of it and that I should educate myself about it. Recently I've thoroughly studied how the economy is powered, the biography of Donald Trump so I can have a better understanding of whether or not he would be a good president other than looking like a moron, how a car engine works so I can understand what the fuck is going on under the hood of my car that makes it go, statistics related to climate change over the last century and natural disasters that might await us in the future, etc.

The thing about the internet is that it can sometimes be hard to find reputable sources of information. But if you're a writer and you can get your book published, then you're probably more credible than the average blogger. Websites like is loaded with digital texts from political figures, scientists, and other reputable writers. And for fictional stories with strong ethical and moral messages involved, has many thorough chapter summaries to breeze through and understand the underlying message being communicated. And if I really like a book, I might purchase it, or better yet, listen to the audiobook on Youtube or Audible while playing Doom.

Listening to audiobooks is hardly reading, but I've found that turning off the sound and music in Doom along with the focused actions of dodging fireballs and killing monsters has a really strong symbiotic relationship with listening and retaining information from an audiobook than I would if I were to sit in a chair and listen to the audiobook alone. So now I'm subconsciously learning things while doing what I love to do. I've also embraced some pretty noble writers such as Dickens, Frost, Vonnegut and Orwell, as the stories they tell through their writing provides a lot to learn about the types of people you might meet in real life.

Anyway, for anyone who has always been a reader, good on you. You probably know a lot more than I do. And for those who don't, I'd recommend it :)

Am birthday November 30, 2015, 6:00 am

To be honest I'm probably at the point where the yearly incrementation of this number means so little that I feel no older on these occasions, despite the everpresent sense of time's inexorable forward passage, and the lingering dread of my life force ebbing away molecule by molecule every day.

Yay mortality! :D Let's eat cake and stuff.

Idiots replaced the door so now nobody can get inside... November 27, 2015, 8:12 am
Where I live people need to access the front/outside door before they can get inside and get to their apartments. But yesterday it was replaced with a new one. That's all fine and all since the old door was a piece of crap, except they did not bother giving anyone the new keys to the door so now everybody is having problems getting in. How about these morons give people the keys first and THEN replace the stupid door?????

So pissed because this has messed up my weekends plans since now can't really go anywhere for too long until this issue is resolved.

SE7EN November 25, 2015, 9:33 pm
So I just watched SE7EN which is a psychological thriller/crime film starring Brad Pitt and Morgan Freeman. The theme of the movie is based on the Seven Deadly Sins from the epic poem written by John Milton called Paradise Lost. I'm not going to give away the plot of the movie, but if you like spoilers go read the Wikipedia article.

I looked into the meaning behind each of them and it's basically pin-pointing the basic flaws of human nature. These flaws in excess (such as extreme pride "hubris") can make a person's life pretty miserable.

1) Lust: An intense and uncontrolled desire. Some desires are gambling, money, power, food, sex etc..

2) Gluttony: Overindulgence to the point of waste. Typically seen with people who eat a lot and more than they need. Americans tend to have this problem and it's pretty pathetic. There are 6 ways of committing gluttony; Praepropere (eating too soon), Laute (eating too expensively), Nimis (eating too much), Ardenter (eating too eagerly), Studiose (eating too daintily), & Forente (eating wildly)

3) Greed: This goes hand and hand with lust and gluttony. According to Catholicism, it is an excessive or rapacious desire and pursuit of material possessions.

4) Sloth: Plain laziness. At a religious perspective, it means one who doesn't live by the grace of God. At a non-religious perspective, it's a person who refuses to better themselves, a person who wishes to not be a productive member of society, or a person who wishes for others to tend for their needs while they continue their nonproductive lifestyle.

5) Wrath: Excessive anger, hatred, or acts of hostility. American History X is an example of a film that shows how wrath destroyed the protagonist's life.

6) Envy: Similar to greed and lust. It's jealousy with the yearn to posses.

7) Pride: Hubris. By far the most serious of the 7 deadly sins. Unsatisfactory boasting. Many people who have excess pride are unhappy and most often boast about themselves to cover up their insecurities. This sense of over pride can lead to negative outcomes when one must prove themselves to be Alpha.

Fortunately, there is the Seven Virtues which counter these sins.

[From Wikipedia]

1) Chastity: Discretion of sexual conduct according to one's state in life; the practice of courtly love. Cleanliness through cultivated good health and hygiene, and maintained by refraining from intoxicants. To be honest with oneself, one's family, one's friends, and to all of humanity. Embracing of moral wholesomeness and achieving purity of thought-through education and betterment. The ability to refrain from being distracted and influenced by hostility, temptation or corruption

2) Temperance: Restraint, temperance, justice. Constant mindfulness of others and one's surroundings; practicing self-control, abstinence, moderation and deferred gratification. Prudence to judge between actions with regard to appropriate actions at a given time. Proper moderation between self-interest, versus public-interest, and against the rights and needs of others.

3) Charity: Generosity, self-sacrifice, love, in the sense of an unlimited loving kindness towards all others, is held to be the ultimate perfection of the human spirit, because it is said to both glorify and reflect the nature of God. Such love is self-sacrificial.

4) Diligence: A zealous and careful nature in one's actions and work; decisive work ethic, steadfastness in belief, fortitude, and the capability of not giving up. Budgeting one's time; monitoring one's own activities to guard against laziness. Upholding one's convictions at all times, especially when no one else is watching (integrity).

5) Patience: (This is actually one of the most important virtues in my opinion) Forbearance and endurance through moderation. Enduring the seemingly unbearable with patience and dignity. Resolving conflicts and injustice peacefully, as opposed to resorting to violence. Accepting the grace to forgive; to show mercy to sinners. Creating a sense of peaceful stability and community rather than suffering, hostility, and antagonism.

6) Kindness: Charity, compassion and friendship for its own sake. Empathy and trust without prejudice or resentment. Unselfish love and voluntary kindness without bias or spite. Having positive outlooks and cheerful demeanor; to inspire kindness in others.

7) Humility: Modest behavior, selflessness, and the giving of respect. Humility is not thinking less of yourself, it is thinking of yourself less. It is a spirit of self-examination; a hermeneutic of suspicion toward yourself and charity toward people you disagree with. The courage of the heart necessary to undertake tasks which are difficult, tedious or unglamorous, and to graciously accept the sacrifices involved. Reverence for those who have wisdom and those who selflessly teach in love. Giving credit where credit is due; not unfairly glorifying one's own self. Being faithful to promises, no matter how big or small they may be. Refraining from despair. The ability to confront fear and uncertainty, or intimidation.

These are great virtues to live by regardless if one is religious or not. My flaws tend to be gluttony (particularly with desserts, though i'm not fat lol), sloth (occasional laziness), and finally wrath (I get aggravated over stupid things, politics, people). The first step to living by these virtues is to identity your own flaws. Once you identify the flaws, you can look to correcting them which can make your life a little more enjoyable.

My SCP drafts! Your help is needed! November 25, 2015, 10:39 am
Most of you probably won't understand or like what I'm about to show you.

So far not much has been made BUT two are complete drafts.
I hope you can give some tips on how to improve any of them until it can finally be considered official, but I need everyones help.

I hope you enjoy!
And if you liked it, read the Series 1 Series 2 and Series 3 SCPs.

SCP stands for Special Containment Procedures, and the motto "Secure. Contain. Protect".
The Foundation is, in fiction, a secret organization with the purpose of protecting mankind from unknown anomalies present, by containing them and shielding them from the public.
In reality, the Foundation is a writing community, kind of like FanFiction but more scientific, and all members can create any SCP documents/SCP-related Tales/Canons.
Before publishing, it has to be approved worthy to feature on the site. That's where you come in.

If you are interested in reading more, then you should these:
- SCP-173
- SCP-106
- SCP-093
- SCP-231
- Stitches
- Love Hate
If you think they are boring, then read the Featured Tales... and search for this if you're interested:
"Dr.Gears Storytime Entries".

Anyway, hope you think they are on the right track (my drafts that is)!

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So I bought some rum. November 24, 2015, 2:33 am
I found $115 I had hidden away without any message to remind myself why, I wasn't so sure what to do with it at first but I eventually decided that I would buy some rum since I've never tried it before.

Naturally I had no idea which one to get for a first timer such as myself so I asked the worker there for recommendations, I eventually ended up getting Captain Morgan spiced rum mixed with coke, it was only $20.

I will be trying it later.

I have a blog, which is mine! November 21, 2015, 1:25 pm
So I only ever made only one blog post, and really I think I would end up with more insightful discussion in the comments if I posted it on 9gag. In your defence, I was in an extreme hurry during writing it, so I just posted this rought draft (because I had nowhere to save it) and decided to edit it / clear up any confusion in subsequent comments when I get home. But I didn't get to.

Due to said hurry it ended up sounding less coherent. By the way I am quite appaled by people who are unable to percieve incoherence as a fascinating riddle, but well, i kinda had to deal with this to function in life.

Any way, I consierded the possibility of a negetive reaction, but not exactly that. The response instead was as follows:

1. A reaction image.
2. Plaintext proud exclamation of cluelessness.
3. Reaction image again.
4. Reaction Video.
5. Either an attempt to mock me or a genuine hope that a prolific forum member you shooed away might've bothered to make a new account here.
6. A bot-helling if I ever saw one. Admittedly, my thraed itself didn't have LOTS of merit, and so it's definitely not impossible that it was a real moderator this time. But still.

Anyway, none of this is what I wanted to say here! What I meant to say here is that I now got myself a much more fun blogging platform, and while I already managed to got one blog of mine get removed from there too, there's much more freedom of objectively 100% harmless posts to post there.

Ladies, gentlemen and hipsters, I am plaesed to present you! With insights, EEoEEEE the id-tech1 game updates and new posts every day until and since late December.

Disclaimer: At no point i am complaining. I am merely posting trivia. While being deeply avare & acceptant of the world's inherent unforgivingness & such.

Afocal Photography at the Moon November 20, 2015, 6:43 pm
I did some Afocal Photography with an iPhone 5S.

Telescope: Celestron PowerSeeker 60AZ

I rotated the photos for a less vertical feeling.


The video is kinda crappy. Actually getting a steady focus require hands of boron as far as I know.

So I made a strange decision today... November 19, 2015, 10:21 pm
Today I woke up and said "You know what? I'm disappointed with my PS4. Everything that I really get into I can play on my PC anyway.."

From there, I told a few people and decided.. I'm selling it and buying a Wii U.

The thing that makes me feel a bit NOT crazy is the fact that I have a 2 1\2 year old daughter that is in the same room as me all the time and all I really have on it is games like MKX, Wolfenstein, Bloodborne, The Last Of Us, etc. Now my PC is out of her sight for the most part and is where I prefer to do my real gaming anyway, so I figured the Wii U would be the living room machine. And the ol' lady is quite the Mario Kart player and I'm sure she'd like to play the new one as much as I would..

.....Am I crazy?