|A particularly vivid memory...||May 4, 2013, 6:19 pm|
So I went on a field trip with a rather large group of classmates, mostly people I went to high school with. There were several other classes going, but I didn't know anyone from them and they were on completely different buses anyways. The first thing I remember is stepping off the bus after our arrival. What immediately caught my attention was that we were in a giant redwood forest... or at least I believed so. I had never actually seen one in person, but the trees were so wide, and so tall, I don't think I could be mistaken. Anyways, it was in the middle of the afternoon, and just enough sunlight made it through the canopy above to make it not seem otherwise.
It was a very creepy and surreal place. We were parked in a large clearing in the middle of a dirt road that looped around and back through the forest. One road, from which we came, and the other, which we would soon be walking down. Other than the wind rustling through the giant branches above, there were no sounds to be heard at all, except those of my excited classmates. This place was dead, and our living presence here disturbed me greatly.
I don't recall the details of this trip, or exactly where we were or what we were there to see, but it was a very isolated place. I remember seeing several dilapidated buildings on the way, and from what I could gather were the remnants of some archaeological expedition. Lots of storage containers, crates, abandoned trucks and jeeps. I wondered what they were doing, and how long ago it was.
We began making the hike down the dirt road. Everyone seemed so excited. I was not. The further down the road we walked, the darker things started to get, which was not because of the passage of time, but rather because the trees were seemingly closing in on us. Eventually we were traveling through near-darkness, with splotches of light seeping through the canopy illuminating the dirt road.
We finally arrived at the cable car that would take us on our ascent through the canopy and give us a better insight as to what we were here for. Supposedly this was one of the highlights of our trip, but I was pretty uneasy, as I have a decent case of altophobia. I could tell from the expressions on my classmates' faces that they were experiencing the same thoughts.
Several trams waited for us, with the "tour guide" standing beside them, waiting patiently for us to approach. His face was expressionless. We divided into groups and slowly boarded each tram, one by one. Each person stepping aboard made that car sink downwards more and more, with the entire compartment shaking and rattling. It made me wonder how such a thin cable could support the weight of all these compartments.
After each tram was loaded, and the doors sealed shut, the guide moved to the corner of our tram and engaged the pulley system that would pull all of our trams upwards into the trees.
Instead of a slow ascent like I expected, we traveled away from the dirt road that led us here and immediately floated over a steep cliff. The view below us was unsettling.... I vastly underestimated the height of all the trees, which stretched down just as far as they stretched upwards. Instead of ground below us, however, it was just empty darkness, with the trunks of the massive trees fading into the black void. The area around us was well lit, and you could even see the sun setting far ahead, into the distance. But that darkness below us felt like the gaping maw of hell. I was perfectly fine dangling way up here.
I thought to myself, if this cable were to snap, it would be all over for me... for us all. Interestingly enough, as soon as I thought this, some of the girls with us made this vocally clear. But nah, I held my faith in this rickety machine and those thin, worn cables. The chances of a failure were impossible, I assured myself.
We sailed through the branches of the giant redwoods, passing several of the cable car support towers along the way. In the darkness below, you could barely make out the tops of various buildings. This made me feel a little bit better about our ride, knowing there was actually ground not far below that shroud of darkness.
The tour guide then spoke for the first time, instructing us to look to our right. "In a moment, you can see the highest point of the temple." Everyone moved to the right side of the car and was peering out, looking downward towards the ground. You could feel the entire tram swaying to their movements.
I stared alongside them, but to no avail. We started climbing higher and higher, but still nothing was to be seen. What exactly were we looking for again? Then, as we breached the lower layer of the canopy, right in front of us, merely several feet away from the car was the top of this crumbling rectangular tower. It was made of smooth, rounded cobblestone, with moss and vines crawling all over it. You could see the interior from a great opening in the top, which was well-lit from all the holes in the sides of the tower. The abundance of trees around this so-called "temple" was astounding. No wonder we couldn't see it from a distance.
We passed the tower, and once again the tram suffered a great deal of shaking and swaying as everyone resumed their original positions. A fellow student made note of this, and just as I was about to negate her worries, the tram suddenly jolted to a dead stop. With eyes wide open, I glanced around the car. Everyone donned the same expression.
Then all was silent. And then all was black.
I come to and find myself surrounded in darkness. I look to my left and to my right. Nothing but black void surrounds me.
I happen to look up, and it's as if a revelation has struck me. A web of tree trunks extend almost infinitely upwards, lit with the familiar, yet eerie shade of dusk. I know where I am...
The redwoods are not far from me, but I cannot see the base of any of these trees. I rose to my feet and started walking around. It was a very unusual experience, surrounded in such darkness with the only illuminated objects far above me. It was hard to navigate, but eventually my eyes adjusted to this strange, unnatural darkness. I don't know what happened, or why I ended up all the way down here without a scratch. I also don't know why I am suddenly alone, stumbling through this awkward scene. But I do know that I am afraid and very "alone".
There were no signs of any life down here. Not even the remains of the cable car I was once in. Upon gazing upward, the canopy was so oversaturated with light, that I could not reliably discern any details about what happened. I could not see any cables, no other cars, nothing. It was a blurry mess of tree branches and white light.
I could now see something in the distance. It's base is darker than black, but just as the trees, the darkness only covers the bottom. It's surrounded by a thicket of trees. I know this is the place I saw not... long ago? My perception of time at that point was off, at best. I have no idea how much time had passed since I blacked out.
Anyways, I proceed to the what appears to be the temple I had seen earlier. As I approach it, it becomes clear that my guess was correct. Far up, I can see the same tower, but at a different perspective. It was truly amazing how large this structure was, despite most of it obscured by those gigantic trees.
I looked around the empty corridors, and was shocked at their appearance. I was expecting some "forgotten-Aztec-temple" appearance. This was not the case. Each room was definitely modern in appearance, although just as run-down and dust-filled as those buildings I saw during my entrance into this forest. One room had tables and chairs, a meeting place of sorts. A projector on a desk, and a chalkboard with one of those pull-down projector screens. Maps hanging on the walls. Crates and boxes piled up in the corner. It definitely fit in with the archaeological "theme" here.
And then I woke up.
|FSB/RAM pairing questions... yay!||April 22, 2012, 6:30 pm|
I know you guys know this shit more than I do, so I'll poll the audience again to get some quick answers. I swear, no matter how much research I do, I cannot find a straight answer.
Really though, I find it neat that even though this is a Doom-related site, there are still lots of tech-savy people here. Need your fucking toaster fixed? Doomworld can help!
Anyways, I revived my dead PC by transplanting a new motherboard. The mobo is refurbished, but unlike others I've tried, it looks professionally done and it basically works perfectly. It's one of the few boards that are still floating around out there with all the components that I need. Anyways, the transplant was a success, but now I have confirmed some dead memory.
CPU is a Pentium D 915 2.8GHz with 800MHz FSB. New mobo supports a FSB of 1066/800/533, with two DIMM slots that accept DDR2 [up to?] 667MHz. Well this is the part I don't quite understand.
I'm running some cheap DDR2 400MHz, and without manually tweaking it, it was running at 266MHz, which doesn't sit right with me. Note that this was observed before the death of the other module.
So I have to buy new RAM anyways, but I'm unsure of what to actually get here... I hear all this shit about pairing up the RAM with the FSB, but how exactly does one determine this? I've read up about it, seemingly countless times, but I think I need someone to temporarily dumb it down for me... because hey, here I am asking someone about it again!
I'd appreciate that much at least. :s
Do I need to deviate from my DDR2 400, or was I fine with it and just needed to manually set the frequency back to 400MHz?
Thx for halp. :3
|Time for an upgrade...||December 19, 2011, 11:02 pm|
tl;dr version: I need a motherboard with an AGP slot.
A couple weeks ago my PC gave me my first BSOD in nearly a decade. "Machine Check Exception", so it said, and after some research this was most certainly caused by a hardware failure. Cracked the machine open, cleaned out a brick of dust, and started it up. Same deal. Ran a battery of diagnostics and stress tests on the CPU, memory, and hard drives, but nothing so far. Resorted to removing each component one-by-one, stripping out everything except the bare essentials... still nothing, except the BSOD had now turned into a system lockup.
A friend came online and I happened to mention the problem to him, and within several minutes he goes "Did you check the motherboard for any blown capacitors?" I sorta paused for a moment, then I reached over to my flashlight and examined the exposed guts of my PC.
Fuck. Silly how I missed it, but a capacitor near the power connector was oozing crusty stuff, and three more nearby looked like they were ready to explode. Okay, so I need a new motherboard...
I'm a pretty poor person so I can't afford to replace too much, and I'm not especially handy with a soldering iron, so fixing the board is out of the question as well...
I already know half the people that will read this will probably know more about this shit than I do, so I'll beg for some advice.
Here's my current specs:
Board: PC Chips P23G v3.0
Yes, it's a cheap piece-o-shit mobo. I'm already aware.
I'm almost 100% certain my RAM modules are fine. The video card I intend to keep (enough said). The CPU I am not as sure about, although all tests indicate that it is working properly. Nothing in my machine is overheating (100% positive).
So the only major consideration is that the new mobo supports AGP, which as we all know is a dying breed. I am open to PCI-E, but I have no reason to throw away such a fine card after owning it for less than a year. The CPU and motherboard on the other hand are the two oldest components in the whole machine, so I don't mind buying a new processor if upgrading the motherboard requires so.
I was doing some research on boards with both AGP and PCIE, but it seems most of those don't have real AGP support, meaning my card would take a hit in performance. Some exceptions to this were the following boards:
These are "budget boards", and I think I'm okay with that, but I didn't see any alternatives other than buying a higher quality mobo with just AGP. They also require getting a hold of an AMD processor, which I'm quite unfamiliar with.
I'm not really sure what to do. Should I get a board with both and get a new CPU, or should I merely find a replacement for my leaky mobo? If the former, what processor should I go with that is also affordable and comparible to the one I have? Are there other options that don't involve tossing my Radeon?
|What is your initial response to this wad idea?||October 24, 2011, 1:38 am|
A survival-horror dungeon crawl.
- Emphasis on authentic horror.
- Absence of weapons or defense.
- Slower player movement.
- Randomly-generated dungeons.
- Death by starvation.
- Situational dynamic music.
- Multiplayer compatible.
Quite different from your average project, but I've already devoted myself to finishing it. All aspects are already functional, with the target port being ZDaemon and Skulltag. Just wondering what sort of attention this may generate and what concerns people might have about the project. Feel free to inquire about anything in particular.
|Migraines||December 9, 2010, 11:36 pm|
I've been suffering from them for most of my life, although thankfully they aren't very common for me. People who don't experience them usually don't understand just how extremely debilitating they can be. In the past when I was unfamiliar with the symptoms, I would very easily get freaked out by what I was going through. Migraines are much more than just headaches.
Today one struck around 3:00 PM while I was at work. Almost always I will know one is coming because I experience a visual "aura" 30-60 minutes before a headache kicks in. I was legally blind by 3:30 and had to have a co-worker drive me home. It's really hard to explain to somewhat exactly why you suddenly "can't see". Some people describe it as flashes of light or zigzag patterns blocking your vision, but for me, it's a lot more like I have a blind spot in the center of my field of vision. I pretty much have to rely on my peripheral vision to navigate around or tell who someone is by looking at them. I could stare at my co-worker two feet in front of me, and the only discernible feature of her face was her left eye.
As if going blind isn't shitty enough, the actually headache (if it happens) is just as bad. Not only that, but light hurts, sound hurts, moving hurts, the room spins like you're drunk, one side of your body goes completely numb, and sometimes it feels as if you're having a stroke.
Speaking of that last part, it only happened to me once, but once was enough. It's quite horrifying really, when you can't form words or even bring certain words to thought. When I was experiencing this "mental cloudiness" during my last episode (not the one I had today), I tried calling my friend so he could provide some sort of comfort, and everything that came out of my mouth was slurred and incoherent. He thought I was stoned. I thought I was having a fucking stroke.
To put things into perspective, I couldn't think of the word "stroke", even though I clearly wanted to communicate that word to him. Hopefully I don't experience anything like that again.
As I am typing this, I'm coming down from my migraine. My head still has a dull pain to it, and probably will for several more days. At the moment, I'm sorta experiencing the "best" part of this migraine: euphoria. I've heard about different symptoms, but this is one I always wondered about until now. I feel as though I just smoked a huge fucking bowl of reefer, even though I haven't touched the stuff in months.
Head still aches. Vision's still wonky. Room still doesn't stand stationary. But hey, at least I'm high as a kite.
So anyways, what's your story? Surely someone can relate.
|Chicken?||December 23, 2003, 7:43 pm|
|Salutations!||December 11, 2003, 4:27 pm|
Obviously since you are reading this, you want to know more about me, right? Too bad. You probably won't conclude any further details about me than if you hadn't have come here in the first place.
I play Doom. I make levels for Doom. I live for Doom.
You can find all my pretty Doom levels at my Doomvault:
And just so I can draw your attention, here are some screenshots:
The Sewers of Death v7.0
Thanks for perusing!