|20 as of today||November 19, 2014, 7:23 pm|
today I celebrated a rather tranquil birthday today. that's nice, I don't need fancy parties and stupid surprises. this morning I finished a game with Doom in the title that I started about two weeks ago (any guesses?). then I had to do a presentation in humanities (I picked my birthday for the due date because that's a day I can actually remember) before actually inviting my parents to a dinner. at least I'm no longer in my teens so that's cool. definitely had a better birthday than my last one where I was severely depressed and I pissed off my mother so much she left home in spite. tomorrow I'll celebrate my friend's birthday in which he is going to be 18, so that's important for him.
so far so good I guess. no fucked-up thoughts at the moment. I've been thinking about where the heck I'll end up in the next few years, hopefully going to a full 4-year uni that supports CSC classes well. and then try to find the right job for the computer majors.
also I found out that Huy Pham shares my birth date, so happy birthday to him too.
|new dawg, new tricks.||May 10, 2014, 8:37 pm|
I've had probably the most eventful spring days that I've ever had in my entire life. finals are done, finally, and now I can start on my ACTUAL curriculum classes, in the fall though. I've breezed through pre-calc without a goddamn sweat while others struggled, and my final English composition paper was written at a restaurant (no seriously, the final class was held at a restaurant).
most importantly though, I've finally got a summer job after a fucking year and a half of searching. granted, it's only housekeeping stuff at some theme park, but at least I got one. can't believe the amount of shit I had to fill out just to get SOMETHING that pays, and hopefully my parents will stop bitchin' and breathing down my throat about it.
my parents will be vacationing to Las Vegas in June. I'm staying home, cuz I generally hate the big U.S. corporate cities and the populace that dwells in them. also because of my new occupation.
other new stuff that's been happening, my dad cleaned my computer of crap, and I finally got a good gaming mouse. hopefully all this new stuff won't be too much a burden. wish me luck.
|Mapper's block, depression, and my birthday.||November 19, 2013, 8:10 am|
You know that mapset I was working on called tracks.wad? The one I released a six-map demo for? Yeah, I really haven't been able to work on it ever since, I'm not getting any more ideas for it. But hopefully I will in the next year. Mapper's block sucks.
What's worse is everything in my personal life is fucking me up right now. I've been focused on getting hired for an entry-level job ever since leaving high school, and no one has the balls to hire me. At the same time I'm trying to keep my college grades up. My mother has become so hell-bent on getting me a job before the Christmas season because she worries too much that I will not have any money left. Then again, when not at work, she's the one sitting somewhere with her iPhone games all day, so I'm really not understanding this shit at all.
I've been having a lot of conflicts in my immediate family (mother and father only) and they have been getting more frequent day by day. Most of the time, the arguments are usually about me and getting a job. Yes I'm fucking applying for shit, why don't you two realize that it takes a lot of time and effort and oftentimes I don't get called for an interview? It doesn't matter if I'm involved, when they're yelling at anyone, I'm always uncomfortable. This whole month there was some argument with them every other day, and I've been getting more depressed because of it. I've almost wanted to take my own life just so they could realize how much they're fucking my life up. I didn't for one reason.
Because now today is my birthday, and due to all the shit that's been argued about, I feel like they fucking ruined my 19th. In that morning I told them to never argue about anything for at least an entire fucking day. I just hope this day doesn't become a war of words between everyone. So I did get some presents from other friends and relatives, money, gift cards (for shit I don't use), and maybe the occasional weird gift. My parents gave me some cards telling me they love me and are sorry for stuff, yeah I've heard it before, it's appreciation, but they should have not pressured me to the fucking brink on something I'm trying to do myself. They should allow me to have some free time as well, maybe I can cure that mapper's block I'm currently having.
EDIT: geo, this is what I meant by tracks.wad.
|Tropical Storm Andrea Summary||June 7, 2013, 9:00 pm|
Uh yeah, the storm was a dud.
Although I will say when I registered here I didn't even know there was a tropical storm out there, and that it would hit my area as well.