|TTFN||April 19, 2016, 3:26 am|
This isn't really meant to be some sort of grandoise announcement that the one-and-only Marnetmar is leaving, I'm making this thread moreso because:
1. Free maps!
2. For people who end up wondering “Hey, I wonder where that guy who shitposted and never finished his projects went”.
I'll be taking a bit of a hiatus. I've decided that in my 6 years on Doomworld I haven't contributed much, if anything, that has been worthwhile. In addition, I've got things going on in my life at the moment and DW probably isn't the most healthy of things for me to be doing. I'll probably lurk from time to time, but people probably won't be hearing much from me for a while.
I don't want to leave on too much of a somber note, however, so here's a few map scraps. Few of them resemble anything playable, but I figured that it'd be a better idea to put them up for others to take a look at and make use of in their own projects if they wanted:
I used to have a lot more than this, but lots of stuff has been deleted in escapades of folder deletions. Oh well.
|Visiting the Doctor Friday.||April 11, 2016, 8:43 pm|
Excuse any weird formatting, I actually posted this exact same thing on an ADHD subreddit to vent and seek some advice. This is just to vent because this is a community that I enjoy.
I'm 19 years old. Throughout my entire life, focusing on a single task for more than a few minutes has been incredibly difficult. Sitting down to write this post in an complete and well-thought-out way is a struggle. (edit: Thinking about it, this could explain my often less-than-contributional posting) My mind has a constant fog over it at nearly all times, and my thoughts are mindless, jumping from one random idea to another, very rarely linear and coherent. Getting through High School was a miracle for me, I had to take online classes to make up failed credits. I'm now in College with an extremely easy schedule and I'm still not doing very well due to my forgetfulness and lack of mindfulness.
Once in a blue moon, the veil is lifted and I am able to focus on a task such as studying -- and when it happens it's not a matter of "just do it even though it sucks" -- the task of sitting down and working is one of the greatest feelings in the world.
Because of this, important tasks that I need to get done, and want to get done, sit and pile up in the background while I sit, not doing something that I'd rather be doing, but doing "nothing in particular". Not only are necessary tasks affected, so are things that I enjoy. I can't sit and watch a documentary or read a book, even an interesting one, without my thoughts wandering. If I manage to finish doing either one, I come out not with a store of new knowledge, but an assortment of random facts I just happened to absorb that are of little to no actual use to me.
My self-esteem is often times through the floor because the way my life has consistently folded out, with my promises to myself every other week to "get my life together for real this time" never following through, something that hurts not just myself but others as well -- something that compounds even further since I tend to sugar coat things avoid talking to people at all when things aren't going as planned.
I never considered that it might be something that goes beyond pure self-discipline and willpower until recently when I began to gather some bits of information on ADD.
I'm going to be visiting a doctor friday to see if my symptoms match up with a diagnosis. Friday can't come soon enough. Hopefully it will set me on the path to "getting my life together for real this time". I firmly believe that I am capable of doing good things with my life, but there's an invisible barrier that must be broken down first, and it's become abundantly clear over the years that it's not a barrier I can break down on my own.
|Midterms||February 22, 2016, 5:42 am|
|Kill. Me. Now.|
|Just stumbled across the first WAD I ever made||December 13, 2015, 7:41 pm|
I know nobody will really care, but I thought I'd share this just because it brings back some really good memories :)
|Fall-Winter Depression has Officially Hit||October 29, 2015, 5:58 pm|
|With that said, fuck everything.|
|Best Birthday Ever||October 16, 2015, 7:16 pm|
Ask friend to hang out, get blown off, then get a happy birthday call from my mother while she's high as a kite.
|Slobby Roommates||October 6, 2015, 12:08 am|
|I share an apartment with six other dudes and there are only two of us who actually bother to clean up after ourselves. Everyone else likes to leave their food and whatnot laying around, and I'm getting pretty tired of it. I'm afraid I'll bring a date home and find the place totally trashed.|
|College||August 29, 2015, 10:30 pm|
I have been awarded my FAFSA money but have yet to receive the remainder that hasn't been used for classes because I'm a ward of the state which requires a bunch of extra paperwork for no apparent reason, and the job market here is nill. As a result I have been paying for food, textbooks and housing out of my pocket and savings account, which has gone from around $1200 to $30. I'm currently living on ~$100 which must go to my apartment manager in the coming days while my free trial for an $80 online textbook runs out on the first of September.
This is bad. This is really, really bad. What do?
|Moving Out. Headed off to College.||August 14, 2015, 7:27 pm|
Anyone have some advice?
|I think my bottom four front teeth are about to fall out||August 3, 2015, 4:06 pm|
|Don't mess up on a clap pushup.|