|attention problems||August 26, 2013, 5:27 pm|
Absorbing information and retaining it is something I wish I could do. But, try as I might, I just can't do it. I can remember a few things here and there, but for the most part, I can't remember jack shit. I've always had problems with reading and remembering what I've read, but it seems to have gotten even worse as I get older. I'm only 24, but I'm pretty sure my studying was much more effective when I was 17. Still, my studying was never truly effective. Dry and scholarly readings especially pose a problem, but I even have problems with standard layperson readings as well. My attention is like a bad electrical connection, going in and out, mostly out. If I was reading something, and someone asked me what I just read, I could honestly answer, "I don't know."
On our trip to Washington D.C., at all the museums, you might as well be piping in a recording of some guy speaking inane gibberish into my consciousness, because there's no way I'm making sense of the information overload present in these places. I remember seeing the exhibits, but there's no way in hell I'm remembering the text accompanying those exhibits.
I don't know. It's not like there's much I can do about this damning problem. Shakespeare is impossible to understand.
Much to my dismay, the problem even extends into listening to normal speech. I think I've always had issues with this as well, but it's gotten substantially worse. My attention cuts in and out while someone is talking to me about something. I feel like an idiot. I don't remember what they just said to me. Sometimes I do remember. But many times, I do not. My memory is the foggiest of things, and often I can only barely remember information. I especially have a problem with movies. Often enough, for some stupid reason, I fail to grasp what the characters are saying. And I also sometimes have difficulty understanding someone who is speaking plain English.