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Grandfather's Passing May 8, 2016, 3:53 am
I was working on my DOOM 64 EX map around 10 PM tonight when I got a call from my Mother. I had a sinking feeling in my stomach - she always texted me to ask me to give her a call when she wanted to talk. She never called without warning. As soon as I picked up the phone I heard it in her voice that something was really wrong, and she told me it was grandpa, that his heart had stopped and they couldn't do anything for him and get it to start again. Somehow I just knew it had to be that one of my only two grandparents had passed away, I just didn't know which to expect. My grandmother has always had impeccable health but is only 5'0" and very much overweight.

My grandfather has struggled since he had a combination of a heart attack and stroke a few years back, even having a blood clot removed this last Fall that could've done him in, otherwise. The worst part is being in Houston, when my family are all up in Missouri and not having the means to go see them at the moment. I'm hoping the funeral or services are during the weekend so my partner and I can go see my family and be there with them for a time, but either way I need to go see them.

What is probably most bizarre is my sudden interest and love of DOOM mapping again in the last two days. The context in which this fact applies is that my grandfather was the one who got me started nearly 17 years ago. It was my grandfather that had found a map editor on an internet bulletin board and put it onto a floppy disk. When I was little I wanted to make my own Sonic levels because I loved the classic Sonic games as a kid and I spent a lot of time drawing these ridiculous sketchy levels across multiple pieces of printer paper before stapling them together. At some point my grandfather introduced me to Heretic and Duke Nukem 3D, then eventually DOOM and DOOM 2. It was a long step up from Commander Keen and Kingdom of Kroz on the old monochrome IBM he had given me.

DOOM 2 mapping lead to Quake 3 Arena, attempting to help with what I could for the original DOOM 64 TC, then later DOOM 3 and an ever expanding interest to try my hand at everything from Starcraft to Portal 2, before beginning a brand new project in Unity and now being friends with several devs in the game industry. My grandfather supported me in any way he could, along with working his ass to the bone and giving his all for his loved ones and their needs. So it is bizarre that, after losing sight of mapping and not having truly touched DOOM mapping since 2006 that I suddenly felt this urge and fervor for mapping again in the last two days. Two days that I've spent doing nothing in my free time other than working on a new map in DOOM 64 EX, jotting down ideas for a map series, that I'm now going to dedicate to his memory.

RIP Richard Bozworth, I'll cherish my memories with you, always.

Magic: the Gathering, Other Random Crap June 27, 2013, 3:17 pm
Living in Houston now instead of Missouri. It's a nice change, even if the politicians are full of shit. But hey, that's America in general.

Still playing Magic: the Gathering. Been playing a lot with the boyfriend and getting set up for a big competitive event.

Speaking of Magic, Duels of the Planeswalkers 2014 is released, now. It's pretty fun, and I'll probably order it tonight. The Steam, Android and iPad version comes with a promo code for a card I really need. So hey, actually, if anyone else gets it for those devices and doesn't need the actual cards, shoot me a PM with the promo code.

Working on my Doomsday project, "The Exiled", that I started years ago.
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Unethical Business Practices, Potentially Illegal January 10, 2013, 9:25 am
I'll preface this with a short back story: Because of things with my old roommate exploding due to his irresponsibility and negligence of important things, I had to find a place to stay ASAP. I found an ad on Craigslist for a live in job at a hotel describing an offer wherein for work at the hotel room, you would be compensated with a place to stay. I've been living here about three and a half weeks, now.

So, since I started this job I've seen various things that were questionable, but until yesterday it did not yet occur to me that there may be a lot of illegal activity going on at this hotel on the owner's part. The hotel is owned and run by a family from India (Patels, of course), and between them they have several corporations that make up their hotel chain within the region.

A couple weeks ago, the owner and head of their "household" (I guess that's what you call it), asked me to take a legal document titled "SPECIAL WARRANTY DEED" and directly type a copy of the papers into a new OpenOffice document. After this, he proceeded to help me change all instances of names, companies and dates to suit his current aims. The papers were originally from the state of Missouri when he was purchasing a hotel back in 2007, and had me replace them with a more current date and the name of his corporation and that of the one he has set up for his son. So, while these look like official documents, they're essentially hack jobs he had me do on a computer at the front desk.

Now, yesterday, he had me forge another part of this 28 page document, doing the same thing. While talking with my friend/the maintenance guy whose patience is running as short with the Manager's as mine is, I made the comment that I had to get back to working on fixing more documents that the Manager was too "busy" to fix himself, and said friend laughed and made the comment "you mean too busy to do the legal way", which made me start thinking about all of this.

The papers aren't the only things that are bothersome in this hotel and the business practices here. On an every-other-day basis he has been instructing me to use fake e-mails to book hotel stays at his various locations using his AMEX credit card by fake people whom he has previous made various GMail or Hotmail accounts for, followed by forging reviews for the hotel. These reviews are all over his hotels on Expedia, Booking, Travelocity, Google+ and others. What's even further disturbing, is that his instructions are specifically to copy/paste reviews from other hotels in random cities and tweak them to match descriptions of the hotel here. So not only is he falsely talking up his hotel, he's also forging reviews from other hotels.

Probably the most disturbing thing so far, is that when we went to a different hotel about an hour and a half away to set up security cameras, an employee revealed something to me that she had been told to keep to herself: The fire alarm kept beeping/going off every few nights, so the Manager told her to silence the fire alarm (as he was too cheap to have it looked at). Because the fire alarm was silenced, the elevator no longer worked, but obviously that's the least of the issue here. She couldn't stand up to him, because like almost all of his employees, we we're compensated for our work with a roof over our heads and if we make him angry, then he kicks us out.

When he interviews people, he either hires them on the spot or tells them to go home. Other than the generic application, no other papers are signed and that's that. It seemed a bit odd to me, but I was too worried about having a roof over my head to really think about it. But truthfully, now that I'm thinking about how illegal a lot of things he does are... that may be the least of my problems, since he's instructing me to be an accomplice in all these unethical business practices. He doesn't even run heating in public areas of the hotel and has 5 space heaters in the front desk/office area to make the thermometer read above 68 degrees (which I guess is the number the hotel temperature has to stay above).

So now I wonder what I should do. If someone gets pissed, can they sue him? Hell can I sue him? I'm not one of those sue happy people, but the question had come into my head. Should I report him to some sort of agency? I have all this to consider on top of the fact that this is the only place I have to stay, and since I don't actually get paid, I'm pretty much stuck here until I can convince a friend to let me move in with them so I can get a job (Omaha is not a friendly city to people that do not have a car; I work 9-5 and the latest bus runs at 6, and walking somewhere from my location for work isn't very viable - I do feel really stuck here).

Someone did a Let's Play of my Doom map... January 14, 2012, 6:33 pm
And hilarity at his frustration ensued (not to mention he was using the wrong version of Doomsday for it).


I decided to upload a proper video of the map in response.


Random drawings and photos October 7, 2011, 11:04 pm
I have no idea why I don't draw this shit on paper instead of the whiteboard that I share with my roommate. Oh well.


Random photo I took on a walk one day

SNES collection is growing

Being 25 and looking 18-19 is both a gift and a curse

Banner I made for a different forum

Photoshop project from scratch

More PC Problems (Oh Joy) August 22, 2011, 9:10 pm
Wake up this morning and go into the living room, and see my desktop never finished shutting down after I went to bed (was exhausted, hit shut down, went to bed assuming it'd shut down). So I power it off, and go to turn it back on. Case lights come on, fans are starting up, then it goes right back off not even as soon as I release the power button.

I give it a bit, try starting it up a few more times, and finally get it to start loading aaaand it freezes while loading Win7. Restart it again, this time it starts up asking me if I want to do a start up recovery so I hit yes. It goes through it's thing, restarts and freezes as soon as it enters windows. Great.

Restarted it again, now it freezes on the MOBO logo screen (I guess you'd call that while it's loading BIOS), and some times not getting a video signal at all. Now, when it'll power up all the way (it still often times does the original not-powering-on-properly thing), I'm met with the sound of fans running at max and no video signal.

I have no idea wtf is wrong with it now. During all this I tried resetting the BIOS. I got out my Win7 disc because it's priority was set to boot from CD, but now I can't get a video signal or anything anyway. Normally after it starts and gets going when it's working, the fans quiet down, but now all the fans are just blasting at full speed with no video signal until I turn it off again. Also no power is going to my USB mouse that has some LED lights in it, because normally after it gets going the mouse lights come on.

FYI I'm running Win7 64-bit, a Radeon HD5770 video card, ASUS P5N-T MoBo, and a 750w ATX Power Supply, and an Intel QuadCore CPU (the model escapes me atm.

edit: Well a friend suggested I try to reseat the processor and video card. Now it's getting a video signal, but automatically shutting down once it enters BIOS.

Music for Doom project July 23, 2011, 11:17 am
Track for a Doomsday project I've been working on casually for a while. Probably one of the darker tracks I've done in ages. Much of what I've done since I first started kinda sounds like it might fit into a game score/soundtrack, but you couldn't really say it fit a genre. For this I decided to try to go with Sci-Fi Horror soundscape. Dying machinery in a derelict space station orbiting a distant star. Or something. Of course after I uploaded it I decided to make it a lot longer and tweak a lot of it heh.


Moving, Drawings, Etc. June 24, 2011, 4:45 pm
After growing up and going through school in this shit hole town, going to Chicago and coming back and all the bullshit since then, I'm finally moving tomorrow. It feels kind of sad to be the last of my friends to get out of this town, but you know... my friends that made it out of this town aren't doing much better than they were when they were here. Either way, I'm really looking forward to the city life and all the life changes that'll come with it. I'm leaning towards the idea of trying to get a career in game soundtrack ideas eventually as I feel I've improved a lot over the years and that the music I'm writing now is decent quality so who knows. I'll be collaborating with a close friend of mine I've known for 8 years that I'm sharing an apartment with. New friends, new place, new life. For the first time in ages I feel like life is worth living.

Also finally got a haircut, so I don't feel the need to hide under my fedora when I take photos.

And I'm sad I have to leave the kitten behind, because this is my impression of what'll become of it being left with my family, via drawing

Actually, here's my gallery. Knock yourself out. http://daoloth.imgur.com/

Finally, my response to a wiki article someone linked me when I said I never heard of the new FPS they were playing ("Brink" apparently):

*Cave Johnson voice* Man. Classes in FPS games. Back in my day you were a lone space marine trapped on a distant planet battling your way through hell! LITERALLY! Didn't have none of these new fangled health regenning, allies, objectives or cut scenes. If you kept some of your limbs and made it to the exit, mission accomplished! Up hill both ways snowed in no shoes and only a pistol because you probably DIED.