|Wait, what?||October 10, 2012, 11:40 am|
I can't believe it's been over five years since I joined this forum. Obviously, my posting frequency has decreased to nearly zero over the past couple of years (much to everyone's delight, surely) but I still browse the forums from time to time and I'm still interested in what the community has to offer.
When I first found Doomworld, I was just a kid (no, really, I was 14) who thought he was cool for liking a game that was, you know, totally old, man. My first thread should tell you a lot about the mindset I had coming into this forum (which, unsurprisingly, was the first forum I'd ever posted on). "Wow! Wait until I show all my friends that I play DOOM instead of Call of Duty!" Apparently, my first post shorted some circuit in my fragile Internet psyche, and I decided the best way to gain acceptance here was to frantically post as many replies and threads as possible, which, in hindsight, may not have been the best idea! I didn't realize it at the time, but looking back on my posts from 2007 makes it painfully obvious that I was just a dumb kid who thought he was fooling everyone. Eventually, this caught up with me (trips to Losers, not-so-nice custom titles), and I felt way more upset than I had any right to be. "How could these people not appreciate my unique style of posting?!" young YMB asked himself, fuming over the response from his peers.
As time passed, Doom became less of an interest for me, I found other forums to post to, and my real life became interesting enough to distract me from the Internet in general. In the time since I "stopped" posting here, I graduated from high school and started college as a math major (where I am now a Sophomore). It seems silly, but I do think that my time on Doomworld taught me a lot about intelligent discourse not only online, but in the real world as well. Knowing when not to say something is just as valuable as saying the right thing.
While I'd like to think that I've left the old YMB far behind, I'm sure my posts are just as shitty as they've ever been, and I fully expect to end up with a big red title again before my days are through. For the time being, however, I'm looking ahead.
|Reflections||March 9, 2011, 9:01 pm|
Greetings, my fellow community members. I've been away for a while. Perhaps it's for the better. I've learned a lot since I first joined Doomworld way back in July of 2007, one bored summer day when I was looking for a way to play Doom on my modern computer. Immediately, I tried to immerse myself in the community, perhaps jumping into the deep end when I should have started in the kiddie pool. Needless to say, my first impression on the community was less than perfect. In fact, I would hazard a guess that I was at some points one of the least liked members of Doomworld. I didn't realize this at first- obliviously, I thought the solution would just be to POST MORE POST MORE POST MORE. Only once I saw that people were actually going out of their way to chastise me for my bad posting (followed by a stint in Losers) did I see where I'd gone wrong. I was only 14, probably not mature enough to partake in intelligent discourse of any kind, let alone on the internet. Have I gotten any better? Probably not, depending on what standards you want to use for "better." At least I know when to shut up now.
So, why am I bothering to "return" to Doomworld to post this thread? Well, in one day and a few hours, I turn eighteen years old, so I'm feeling particularly reflective. Although I'd like to believe that the significance applied to that age is all arbitrary, something about this birthday really does feel different. It's a new stage of my life. In less than 6 months, I'll be living away from home for the first time in my life. I now have to take responsibility for all of my actions, being what society deems an "adult." I've taken a lot away from my experiences in the Doom community. The feeling of belonging in a community/group (which eventually happened thanks to the great people in Jetsons) is something I haven't gotten to feel very often in real life, so it means a bit more to me. I never thought I'd actually make acquaintances, let alone friends, from an online community about a 17-year-old video game, but some of the people I've met over these past 3.5 years I would definitely consider my friends (I can only hope they'd consider me theirs). There's so many things I will never forget from my time in this community- playing SpaceDM5 Map20 on Halloween Night 2007, fun with chatbots, Skulltag community apocalypses, fabricated clan rivalries, every failed attempt at finishing a map, participating in a 32in24, and way more things that I can't remember at this time.
I know I haven't always been very popular around these parts, but I just wanted to say thanks to everyone here at Doomworld, on IRC, and elsewhere- even those who tried to get me banned or losered- for putting up with me all these years. It can't have been easy. Hopefully the next couple go down a little easier.
|heh||April 22, 2008, 8:28 pm|
BLAZE OF GLORY
|Return From the Brink of Insanity||October 17, 2007, 2:44 pm|
Where should I begin? 10 days without the internet is no picnic. I thought I was seriously going to kill someone.
There was some sort of undescribable issue that ended with me LOSING MY CABLE. I finally broke down and got Verizon's amazing little wonder, FiOS. As the advertisments go, it's "Blazing Fast." My life is complete.
|Graduation: Kanye West vs. YMB||September 17, 2007, 7:39 pm|
|Well, I picked up Kanye's 3rd album on Thursday, and I thought I'd go through the 3 most memorable tracks. 1.Good Morning: A perfect opening track. Kanye says it best: "Homie, this shit is basic/Welcome to graduation." 2.Champion: Clocking in at under 3 minutes, it's one of Kanye's better "I-Am-Very-Excellent" tracks. 7.Barry Bonds: A great guest verse from Lil' Wayne makes this my instant favorite on the album. "I'm so fucking good," Wayne raps, and he's right. Overall: 5/5, easily.|