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My dog owns me November 14, 2014, 4:28 am
I can't remember if I've mentioned this before, but I've never really been a dog person until I met my wife. I've grown up with cats for most of my life and she's infatuated with puppies, so when we moved in together I became part owner of her dog. Until I've gotten more accustomed to her dog, I was always bothered by the way dogs bark and shout and jump all over you the instant you walk into a dog owners home. I'e grown to be more accepting of it as time passes, and to my surprise most people who've owned dogs or are best friends with a dog owner are too. But sometimes it makes guests uncomfortable.

Speaking of making people uncomfortable, my dog tends to make excessive eye contact as a way of getting attention. Naturally she follows me anywhere in the house I go. I think in part due to her separation anxiety, she needs to constantly be informed where I am at all times. I've kinda just adapted to it, but lately I'm beginning to suspect that she is learning that this is a tactic she can use to get what she wants.

I walk my dog every morning at 5:30am. It's the first thing I do when I wake up besides put on pants and shoes. It chills her out for most of the day and keeps her from doing things like peeing in the house or digging in the trash when my wife and I are out of the house. At 5:30am, It's dark and quiet and free from distractions and beats the neighbors who walk their dogs in the morning too, so my dog doesn't get all riled up and start yanking on the leash and trying to pull me around. I don't have any tolerance for that shit so I usually shorten the length of her walks if she starts acting up to keep her in line. After about the usual 45 minutes of walking her, I get home and take a shower, get dressed, then drive my wife to work, then I drive to my college classes. That's my morning routine almost every morning.

One morning I didn't have to go to school or work and chose to sleep in. At the time I woke up, around 9:00am or so, I went downstairs to watch some TV. As I was laying on the couch my dog, simply walking around in circles around the house as she usually does sits right in front of me on the couch and just looks at me. Unsure, I started petting her head, scratching her back, playing with one of her toys, but these only seem to distract her for a minute and the instant I stop she's back to sitting 6 inches away from my face staring at me with her big ol eyes wide open, occasionally making a quiet drone or moaning sound or something. This is annoying evil cat behavior except with the way my dog is, I find her exhibiting this kinda behavior to be much more noticeable and awkward. I think because cats have a way of acting where sometimes you're not even sure they are aware you exist, while my dog is always constantly alert of my whereabouts and responds to everything I do. I can't focus on the TV show and she continues making me uncomfortable, so against my will I take her outside for a walk in the afternoon in the hopes it would calm her down.

It works and she chills out for most of the day. At least until the next morning. I guess in excitement for going on these morning walks, she's awake earlier than I am. Sometimes I will wake up before my alarm goes off with my dog apparently staring directly into my eyes while I'm sleeping. Only inches away from my face, occasionally making that stupid moan noise, I accept the fact that with my dog's eyes fixated on me the entire time, and sitting invasively in my personal space, close enough that I can almost feel her breath when she exhales from her nostrils, that I'm not going to feel anymore refreshed trying to sleep during the remaining hour before my alarm goes off than if I just wake up now. This is becoming a daily affair and I'm beginning to suspect she's learning to do this conciously as a way to make me nervous and uncomfortable and give in to any of her demands.

Today I woke up at 3:30am. What do?

I have an album out! November 13, 2014, 5:57 pm
Hey everyone, for anyone who doesn't know me I contributed a bunch of music tracks to Speed of Doom, Resurgence, and a few to several other wads (btsx e1/e2, pl2, cc4, reverie, interception, etc.)
Well, I've been at work on a (non-doom related) album for a few months now, and I finally released it. It's mostly orchestral, in a kind of mix between classical and new age styles. Give it a listen! :)

What's with all the MLP hate? November 10, 2014, 1:38 pm
It appears every time I mention MLP anywhere at doomworld I get into a little fight for mentioning them.

What's so bad in MLP that breaks your nerves? The fandom? The big eyes?

Not to mention my threads that get immediate hatered, and get PH'd right away.

Why she never called back November 8, 2014, 11:12 am
Someone else's ditched after 4 dates story reminded me of my own story from 8 years ago. Rather than derail his thread, I'm posting my own.

8 years ago, I dated a woman for 10 days and I think we had 8 dates. Maybe it was 6 dates over 8 days. I met her friends, she met mine, really quick. We went to movies, bowling, mini golfing, dinners, a night cruise to see fireworks, and so on. I took her to parties, she took me to foggy beaches at midnight. She panicked in the darkness of walking through the woods. I panicked when she took me on a giant Ferris wheel and I had an issue with heights back then. I calmed her, she calmed me. I met her daughter.

Then before the ninth date, she randomly she said she was sick. I was directly outside of her house in the driveway to pick her up. She didn't care. Usually sick = I've lost interest. I tried talking to her the next four days.

She never talked to me ever again. I was really shocked. To help me get over it and not harass her, I deleted her number off my phone.

2 years later, I had a date with someone that said she felt like she knew me or had met me someplace else. It was a one date sort of thing. It was a dull date. Two guys tried hitting on her. She was a stripper. Two weeks later, she sent me a text, she knew why I felt so familiar. Its because her cousin dated me for a week.

Once she told me who the cousin was, I asked why the cousin never talked to me again. She explained that the cousin liked me way too much and it made her ex / baby daddy angry. Why does that matter? He's a loan shark that threatened to start fucking with my life, so she opted to not have me in her life to spare me the drama.

The date told me the cousin only dated me for a week but still talked about me up to 2 years later. She said that the cousin said I was a vacation from life's drama. I guess at the time of dating her, she did mention how rich her ex was and she got caught up in the money and didn't realize what a horrible person he was. A lot of people emphasize how awful exes were. I assume it was one of those things.

She wanted to give me her cousin's number saying 'you two should give it another shot, her ex is in prison now, because she testified against him for having someone murdered.' Nah, two years had gone by. I'd rather have a fantastic memory of 10 days than risk anything going wrong. Plus she could have just been fucking with me, but she knew a lot of details.

Now that its 8 years later, I saw her in line with her now adult kid waiting for a haunted house. It looked as if she had gained 100 lbs. If not more. It was like her face and hair were exactly the same, just with a really overweight body. Her accent really sticks out from the typical Chicago accent to really confirm its her without asking. Her kid looked the same, even now as an adult. Another way to confirm its her without asking.

Oblivious 8/10 black girl blows me off on 4th(ish) date November 7, 2014, 12:37 pm
I started dating this 8/10 black girl (22 y/o) about a month ago. We slept together 3 times and it was pretty great. I work regular hours and she works retail, so our schedules don't match that often.

Anyway, Thursday was her day off, so she asks me Wednesday if I want to do something Thursday night. I say sure. Thursday afternoon she texts saying that her phone is dying and she wants to know where to meet I'm case she can't contact me. I text back 715 at my apartment building and she says ok.

I wait at the front doors at 710. Eventually 8pm comes and there's no sign of her and no text. I bail back to my apartment. I'm pretty ticked off, but I'm thinking that maybe her phone is dead and she forgot where I live. Still, who has an entire day off and yet can't charge their phone?

Here is the series of texts that took place.

7:41 No?
8:08 Not OK

Her 8:57 Sorry I can't make it
8:59 What is not okey
9:13 You decided to text me just now letting me know? I could have done other things

Her 9:53 Is okey if I come after 30 muny
9:53 My sister gave me the night off (sidenote: her story is that she has to sleep in the same bed with her sister every night because her sister's husband is in another city looking for a job and her sister doesn't want to sleep alone)
Her 9:53 Is up u
Her 9:53 I am sorry I had a lot to do (She calls twice, I just let it ring)
Her 10:04 I am outside pick up the phone (sidenote: apparently she showed up thinking she could get a booty call)

I'm at work
Her 11:10 Hi are mad me
Her 11:10 Can I see u before I star work (sidenote: we work at the same mall. That's how we met.)
Her 11:12 How many time I have apology
Her 11:12 I told my phone was dead

Needless to say this biotch is dead to me. It just floors me that anyone can be so immature and oblivious to think that blowing off a date and disrespecting someone's time like that is in any way OK. It's like this behavior is completely normal to her and no guy has called her on this bullshit behavior.

So yeah, I plan on going NC and ignoring all contact from her. Maybe girls can get away with disrespecting other dudes like that, but not me. I'm curious to see what her future attempts to contact me entail, and if there are any I'll post them here.

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Styles aren't applied to the text. Why?


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I'm 18 today... November 6, 2014, 1:04 pm
... And I have spent most of the day using Doombuilder.

What is wrong with me?

Shouldn't I be having a party or something?

All the wads in my "wads" folder got removed October 31, 2014, 2:01 pm
It all happened in a second, without me knowing, it just left this wad :
Russel must hate me or something, or one of his fans.

A list of precious losses :
-Doom0.wad (good thing I have the beta on MediaFire, but it doesn't have MAP15 and MAP29 which are giant maps)
-Some un\finished one level maps by me, meaning "Lost Maps again" will be delayed
-T.N.T, a map for "TNT : Project Greyon"

Disconnect from DropBox? October 30, 2014, 6:03 pm
At my old job, I was connected to drop box which downloads all the files from work and syncs them on my computer. I've since left the job but I'm still synced to the dropbox which is still taking up space on my computer. My boss, for some reason, wasn't interested in helping me disconnect from drop box. I want to safely disconnect from dropbox and delete all the files from my computer that it synced from work without deleting any files from any of the computers connected to the dropbox at my old job. (it's over 100 gigs). Any advice on how to do this?

Happy birthday to me October 21, 2014, 5:35 pm
And I turned 21 yesterday, spent the latter half of the day with friends. So of course, I drank some vodka with some Sprite in it, what else is a sodaholic supposed to do?