Peter Heinemann Posted February 20, 2002 Ok, maybe this will touch your heart, maybe it will just amuse you and make you laughing about me (I don´t know myself if its ridiculous to post something like this here). Maybe its forbidden to post such stuff, then the mods will have to choose the right penalty for me). It has nothing to do with Doom, politics or computers. If you think that your heart can take some sadness, read on, otherwise move. In December 1994, I bought a copy of US Playboy at my newsstand (US Playboy is banned banned in Germany and only for sale from „under the table“). The girl on the special folding page called "Centerfold" was Elisa Bridges. A real cutie, very beautiful - she looked like a dream and she was my dream. Now we could discuss if Playboy is sexistic or poor, but please let me continue... I pinned her Centerfold (a very mild nudity, not offensive) on a wall at my home and that piece of paper remained through the years on that wall (actually the wall is cleaner on the where the Centerfold covered it). Whenever I felt sad or alone, I looked on that girl and most time my mood changed. So she helped me. If you ask me if its possible to develop feelings for someone you have only on a sheet of paper and you most certainly will never see in reality - well, it works - especially if you are pretty alone and have no girl friend (but even if I had one then she would have touched me). All her pictures were very nice and def. not pornographic, indeed you could show them to 5 years old kids without being worried about, just a beautiful girl. Two days ago, I searched on the net for some more pictures of her (I have 600 so far) and found a message, that she passed away last Thursday at the age of 28. No detailed cause of death was given. I cannot describe how sad I feel, actually I cried. I do not cry often. Not that you pity me - but please look at the picture I have linked to (its just a portrait, so its also OK for the great majority of minors here). She will be buried in Westwood Memorial Park in Los Angeles. (GPS Coordinates: Latitude: 34.0583, Longitude: -118.4397) Maybe I make myself totally ridiculous now, (since you are neither related to her nor you did know her), but if someone here believes in god (I do not), could you pray for her? Or if you live there, in L.A., could someone bring her some flowers from me? Could be some flowers from the nature... no need to buy roses... and tell some nice words from me. Despite I think than country boarders do not exist anymore for her. That´s so sad, 28 years... :( If you are looking for some pictures of a very beautiful girl, search for pictures of her, they are a good choice. No nasty porn, just a lovely girl. And think of her, because she will never come back :( http://photos.yahoo.com/bc/peter_heinemann/vwp?.dir=/&.dnm=ElisaBridges38.jpg&.src=ph&.view=t&.hires=t http://y42.briefcase.yahoo.com/bc/peter_heinemann/lst?.dir=/&.src=bc&.done=http%3a//y42.briefcase.yahoo.com/bc/peter_heinemann/lst%3f.dir=/Doom%26.src=bc%26.view=l&.view=l (Ling, please give me some more days to think about the message, thanks! I will mail you on weekend.) I am too tired to set up a homepage so quickly, maybe the yahoo briefcase cannot handle too much access, if so, just come back one day later. 0 Share this post Link to post
Naked Snake Posted February 20, 2002 Pete, that sucks dude, that your fav model is gone :( 0 Share this post Link to post
zxcvbnm Posted February 20, 2002 sorry, peter. it is always bad when someone you love dies. even if you dont know them. i felt kind of like that when kurt cobain died. heh. almost. best wishes, -xooz98 0 Share this post Link to post
Vegeta Posted February 20, 2002 Oh, man... What can I say? It's sad. For her, her relatives... But may be it is better for you, It is not a good idea worship a girl in a paper, try be more sociable with your friends, do some sport, forget this. Try be yourself, that is the base to be happy. 0 Share this post Link to post
Ralphis` Posted February 20, 2002 except kurt kobain was a piece of trash 0 Share this post Link to post
zxcvbnm Posted February 20, 2002 kurt cobain was a piece of trash what you say!!! kurt cobain was a genius, man. -xooz98 0 Share this post Link to post
fodders Posted February 20, 2002 Think of the fun the morticians had, bet her nose was running when they buried her 0 Share this post Link to post
the-widow-maker Posted February 20, 2002 kurt cobain was a piece of trash what you say!!! kurt cobain was a genius, man. -xooz98 only because he was clever enough to realise no one liked him so blew his brains out. 0 Share this post Link to post
the-widow-maker Posted February 20, 2002 Think of the fun the morticians had, bet her nose was running when they buried her Thats not just tasteless Hannibal, its disturbing. 0 Share this post Link to post
Vominus Posted February 20, 2002 Cobain wrote good poetry but his music was simple. It fit the words perfectly though and some of it was damn catchy. I don't know if he was a genious, but he certainly wasn't trash. 0 Share this post Link to post
fodders Posted February 20, 2002 Thats not just tasteless Hannibal, its disturbing.It's called perks of the job 0 Share this post Link to post
Peter Heinemann Posted February 20, 2002 I mean: That life can be so unfair, that a good person (I believe she was one because the look of her eyes) has to die at this early age of 28 years. Why her? What has she done? But that´s something we all know: The best are taken away from us way too early. What I have to learn again is: Than from the moment someone is dead, there is no way to bring him back (except in the game "Blood"). Damn, how can I make jokes yet? Just for the case that there is a heaven, light a candle for her. This I mean seriously :o 0 Share this post Link to post
Sharessa Posted February 20, 2002 Widow-maker, you godless couchfuck, don't be such a heartless bastard. 0 Share this post Link to post
Kaiser Posted February 20, 2002 Widow-maker, you godless couchfuck, don't be such a heartless bastard. and yet, I am amazed he's not banT yet. 0 Share this post Link to post
Sharessa Posted February 20, 2002 Whats even more amazing is that he's been registered longer than me. Thats kind of a long time, if you think about it. And he's been like this since day one. 0 Share this post Link to post
Squashfoot Posted February 20, 2002 When was dayone any way? oh, and i'll light a candle next time i go to church, which won't be more than a couple of weeks. And i pray, so i'll mention her. 0 Share this post Link to post
Linguica Posted February 20, 2002 Or if you live there, in L.A., could someone bring her some flowers from me? Could be some flowers from the nature... no need to buy roses... and tell some nice words from me. Despite I think than country boarders do not exist anymore for her.I live *literally* across the street from that cemetery. You can email me if you want me to give her a specific message or something. 0 Share this post Link to post
Tobester Posted February 20, 2002 That sucks. I can understand how you feel, in a way. If neve campbell ever died, I'd probably commit suicide. I cried the first time I saw wild things when her death was faked. 0 Share this post Link to post
Sharessa Posted February 20, 2002 Why do I have the feeling that this is going to become a human interest story on the morning news? 0 Share this post Link to post
Dark-tenshi Posted February 20, 2002 this kinda amaze me Pete.she is just a girl whom you don't really know,but can make one man cry... too bad,you gotta move on it.hope you getting better. 0 Share this post Link to post
Kid Airbag Posted February 20, 2002 Widow-maker, you godless couchfuck, don't be such a heartless bastard. and yet, I am amazed he's not banT yet.Even better, Lüt's finally found a way to use the flashing MORON! 0 Share this post Link to post
fen boi Posted February 20, 2002 I don't get it, your sad because some chick from a porno mag is dead?. Death is an everyday occurance, and yes some of those people have great tits. You've really got to put this in it's proper perspective. 0 Share this post Link to post
Crendowing Posted February 20, 2002 except kurt kobain was a piece of trashYou wanna die now? Nah, at least you didn't say *CENSORED* was a piece of trash. If you did, I'd REALLY have to tell you. Oh, and Peter, that is sad, especially at a young age. 0 Share this post Link to post
mmnpsrsoskl Posted February 20, 2002 Peter...I feel sory for you. I know this is different but I lost a family member (my grandma) last november. It really does suck to see someone in your life pass away. Damm, some people here are knobs... 0 Share this post Link to post
Crendowing Posted February 20, 2002 I don't get it, your sad because some chick from a porno mag is dead?.Apparently you didn't read his post. Playboy is not a "porn" mag. It's entertainment for men. The pictorials only take up about 30% of each issue. Now Hustler, on the other hand, is mindless "porn". It's not tasteful, like Playboy. Penthouse, I can't describe, it's kind of a combination of both Playboy and Hustler.only because he was clever enough to realise no one liked him so blew his brains out.Actually, he blew his brains out BECAUSE he was famous, but he didn't want that. He just wanted to write music, and he ended up having a hectic life that he didn't want. So, KABLAM! 0 Share this post Link to post
Doom_Dude Posted February 20, 2002 Peter, sorry to hear what has happened and it's sad that she died so young. You'll get over it though and perhaps if there is a heaven, then she must know that she helped you and that you care. I hope she does. Your a good guy and ignore the knobs who know not how to say anything good. I'll light a candle for her now. Cheers to Linguica for offering to go to the cemetary and do this thing for you. 0 Share this post Link to post
pritch Posted February 20, 2002 Firstly, Pete: sympathy. I know this girl I feel the same way for, if something happened to her I'd be distraught. To appreciate beauty, just for it existing, and to feel empty and unable to move on when beauty dies is to simply be human, Pete, don't worry about it. And don't listen to thewidowmaker, a seriously mentally-challenged fucktard who will die alone and unhappy. Fodders, I'm surprised by your comment, man, I found it disrespectful and inappropriate, and that's like the first time I've ever had to say that :( Pete, take Ling up on his offer. I'd type some more now but I'm just off thinking about shit now, I need a break... :( 0 Share this post Link to post
nxn Posted February 20, 2002 only because he was clever enough to realise no one liked him so blew his brains out. maybe you'll do the same thing. 0 Share this post Link to post
Liam Posted February 20, 2002 Window Mater reminds me of this kid from school. He's really fat and he's practically bald to boot. He's supposedly some genius überprodigy and he likes to make an idiot of himself while he flaunts it. "So, are you the smartest one here?" "Yes, you are quite correct. My intellect far surpasses the peons who go to this school." And he refuses to talk to girls or popular people because he's a "higher species". 0 Share this post Link to post