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    2. Gothic
    3. tourniquet


      danny devito is it u?

    4. MrGlide


      I only have 25 likes a day, I have to ration them wisely.

  2. Benzydamine, this cute little chemical, has a very short history and is basically widely unknown, because it still hasn't gathered enough data since its registration as OTC anti-inflamatory pain reducing drug. It's known here as Tantum Verde and has some potential benefits, like supposed local aneasthethic effect for throat inflamtions. It is still limited in every drug form to be merely locally active, nothing notable gets to your system. Even if it did, concentrations are still very low (+-3 mg), and on top of that, it's a bad molecule for absorbtion from the gut. However, one specific drug form has a whopping 500mg. Yeah, you guessed it, it's vaginal cleansing granulate. Still only locally active - it's negligibly absorbed there, if at all.

    Let's get juicier. What happerns when we take more of it? Like, for example, 1 gram?
    You trip. You trip so fucking hard. And why is that? Nobody knows, not a single published experiment. We don't know its effective concentration for tripping (1 gram of it peroral may mean 20 miligrams in bloodstream). We don't know which receptors it binds to, we don't even know how it works in all of those OTC products. It may seem atypical to have a drug in drugstores we don't know jackshit about, but to be fair, nobody even knows how paracetamol works. Junkies speculate it's anticholinergic due to similar tertiary nitrogen substituent, but I beg to differ. Sure, it certainly binds to histamine receptors, but I doubt it's their primary affinity. Antihistamine highs like diphenhydramine (Benadryl) are usually raw and cut deep. After all, it's a full blown anticholinergic deliriant with its structure based on scopolamine (Jimson weed). Nonetheless, today is benzydamine recognized as both deliriant and psychostimulant in "high" dose, but based only on subjetive experiences.

    The content of one granulate may be 500mg of the active substance, but it doesn't end there. A single package of granulates is whopping 10 grams. Looking at inactive substances, there is also natrii chloridum and hexadecyltrimethylammonium tosilas included in package. The maximum concentration of hexadecyltrimethylammonium is low, because it's a powerful antiseptic so dosage of it is negligible. We're left with natrii chloridum, aka kitchen salt. There's over 9 grams of it in each package... it needs to go. The primary solvent for the whole package is water, so let's change that. Figuring out solubilities turned out to be fruitful, as kitchen salt doesn't dissolve in non-polar solvents, yet benzydamine does. I picked 85% ethanole as the first one to try out. I tested out solubility of pure kitchen salt (1g) at first. White trail of unsolubilised salt crystals was a sign of success, barely any of them poofed into the solution. So let's do it for real now. 2 packages of benzydamine should be more than enough. I poured the content into a glass cup and added plenty ethanole, stirred the hell out of it and then filtrated it through a strainer. There was a tremendous mountain of salt caught, so much that I got a little worried if it actually worked on benzydamine as it should have. The filtrated ethanole solution was crystal clear white liquid, but it's still highly concentrated ethanole, I'm not drinking it. Not after my experience with a sip of 96% one that fried my taste buds for over 3 days. Fortunately, it evaporates quickly even in room temperature, because it doesn't have strong H-bonds like water. After complete evaporation I found some salt crystals residue at the sides of a cup and weirdly interconnected white cracked stuff at the bottom of the cup. So, it should be soluble in water. Too bad it's glued to the bottom of the cup and ignores even its favorable solubilisator. I helped it by digging it out with a knife. Eventually water turned white and there was nothing left scuba diving at the bottom. There's only one thing left to do - time for a sip!

    Now before we get onwards, I should note it's not the first time I got it into my bloodstream. Always try the molecule before squeezing a load of anything new into yourself. Alergy, hypersensitivity, metabolising enzyme deficiencies, all of that will manifest itself even at much lower doses than the "high" one and all of them are exponentially worse long-term (cuz you die). The first time I just poured granulate into water so I obviously tasted the saltiness. It was undrinkably disgusting, cough syrup is a paradise in comparision. I endured just few sips and then got rid of it. I got no alergies from it, but neither anything else.

    Well, without any salt in the concoction, it should taste better. It doesn't. It's still disgusting. On the scale of disgust ranked from one to ten it got better by exactly one point. I kept adding water to dilute it to more drinkable levels until it got bearable. The turpentine soap taste remained for hours. It's supposed to take around 30 minutes until it gets absorbed, so I decided to use up that time. I was hungry and wasted all the bottled water I had for diluting. Up to this point I hadn't eaten anything to maximize benzydamine absorption, but I just had to insert some junk food from a nearby cantina into me because of the aftertaste. Getting there was uneventful, but upon leaving there were first signs. I got very mildly light headed and felt everything getting tiny little bit brighter, especially white colours. I'm definitely intoxicated. I still had to buy water from nearby supermarket, so I kept going on while concentrating on every change in perception. Walking over there felt different than when coming over. I felt lighter, like walking around with naked feet. Lightheadedness kept progressing while waiting in the line. Moving around outside was difficult, my muscles felt incredibly light. It's like each step was a tiny plane taking off. I noticed my distance perception was also altered while trying to get to the other side of the road. I doubt anybody had a clue I'm smoked, but it got to the point I no longer wanted to be in public. Before the entrance to my apartment I noticed I'm barely feeling cold temperature of chilly winter gust outside, it got me really intrigued so I pried out a few arm hair. I couldn't feel a thing. I mean, I could point to where my hair was pulled out of even blindfolded, but minus the pain. I went further, tried touching various points on my skin, when suddenly an itch kicked in on my hand. Scratching it did nothing. My skin just didn't register a damn, so it kept itching. The last obstacle in my way are bunch of stairs. Not paying much attention to them, I kept going my normal speed on the way, but after around 3-4 steps up I realised I'm getting rapidly nauseated with each step I take on stairs. It was almost like a diving sickness, except in the air. Vestibulary apparatus probably wasn't in perfect condition either. The only good that came out of it - I've decided to go up to my room by an elevator.

    Waiting for it to come down, I focused on my sight. The brightness still seemed to increase. All 4 corners of my vision now had a notable white shade wherever I looked. The view itself had a new layer with huge moving black and white lines slowly going upwards, but they were barely noticable without focusing. Sometimes my view randomly switched to double vision, but in about a second it was back to "normal". Closing my eyes revealed a mixture of fading white in my whole view along with a shade of black. Finally in front of my apartment, unlocking was quite a sight to behold. My distance perception is gone at this point and I'm lightheaded to the point of instantly falling asleep wherever I'd lie down. After 2 minutes of just stabbing random spots on my door with keys, I hit the jackpot.

    I sat on a chair and just stared blankly, unaware of possible upcoming surprises. I stared around my room. The first thing was an awkward orange shape of light from afternoon sun. The colour of it was definitely off, almost like bright carrot-orange, not a setting sun colour. All shadows were blurry at their edges and seemed to pulsate in brightness once they weren't in the center of my view. Tilting my head fast was difficult and felt heavy, but I noticed something strange. If you spin your head fast enough from point A to point B, your memory will contain only the last look at point A before rotating and point B after rotating, but you can't notice the blur while rotating. Well, at least not under normal circumstances, because I was noticing a few bits and pieces, lines and shapes from the blur when rotating fast enough. I powered on my laptop to add a bit of light to my slowly darkening room. Reading a wall-text article was impossible, my short term memory has abandoned me for now. I forgot what a beginning of sentence was about by the time I've read it entirely. The black colour of those words on white background was far more entertaining, because it seemed like there are 2 shades of black (one brighter black and one darker black) and they were attributed to words completely randomly and redistributed if I looked away and back. Looking away from the screen revealed another oddity - my light accomodation had a delay. It was an Internet Explorer kind of delay, every 1-2 seconds it keeps gradually increasing or decreasing in brightness for roughly 10 seconds (depending on whether I look at or away from light source). It was comparable to increasing gamma correction in doom, just keep clicking that button at least 2 seconds apart. I was basicaly seeing darker parts of room get gradually brighter and laptop getting darker. Listening to music felt like there's more depth perception to each song, because previously ignored background sounds and instruments seem more noticable. Watching a trippy music video, however, was a crappy idea, because it upset my stomach. I had to puke almost in a instant. That junk food was obviously a bad idea, I was aware of that while eating, though it was worth it to reduce the persisting aftertaste. I wish it at least tasted better, so I wouldn't mind the taste one more time. Benzydamine still wasn't done just yet. Actually, there's still a main course ahead.

    There's an old wrinkly yellow-coloured wall in the WC of my apartment. Looks as if it was constantly bashed on since its creation. After removing all the junk from inside of me, I noticed some spots on the wall were in motion. Tiny tips of wrinkles on the completely yellow coloured wall seemed to be of weak red shade in chaotic circular movement. Everything disappeared as I leaned closer to it and again reappeared as I got distant enough. I realised it's the ant hallucination, common first hallucination to emerge after psychotic outbreaks or drug intoxications. I was so thrilled! Just as I was about to get back to my room, something else caught my eye - my puke calmly swimming around. It was very clear, the blurry vision of objects I had just some moments ago is gone. Within a few seconds of staring contest, a chunk of that filthy slime seemed to transform. Edges of certain portions seemed to create imaginary boundaries and basically shaped itself as long as I kept staring at it without blinking. Eventually, even more complex shapes created themselves to the point of distinguishability. Most of those I could distinguish were static distorted faces of monsters from old games, Wolfgang A. Mozart or a skull. Whatever object appeared, it had nothing to do with my thoughts and I couldn't really alter anything other than just keeping on looking. So I had a staring contest with my puke for 10 minutes. I checked out mirror view next, but that was quite uneventful, I even looked sober. The only thing that seemed off was my eye colour, which looked realy nice, like sea-water clean blue.

    I sit back in my visibly less illuminated room. This phase can be called a virtual reality phase - whatever I look on, chances are I can make it do something that only my glitched brain currently percepts. All lights were completely unstable, flashes of random light and darkness appear out of nowhere, shadows change shapes. As sunlight was still coming in from the outside while slowly losing intensity, it was really awkwardly bending some shadows - they weren't slowly fading away, instead I percepted it as if the uppermost part of shadow was a bunch of cubes that were disappearing one by one, sometimes even not disappearing at all, distorting the leftover shape even more. Wooden wardrobe in front of me made of two shades of brown was randomly interchanging its colours while animated edges of indistinguishable gibberish was projecting onto it in pink/purple colour shade. Sometimes I recognized some shapes like disney characters or satan, but focusing on it didn't make it any clearer. Objects around me, while not blurry, were percepted falsely. Everything was in constant motion, including empty bottles around me, the cup I intoxicated myself with, laptop... everything, as long as it was on the edges of my view, was in back and forth perpetual pulsating motion even without my focus. Even if there was something in the center of my view, I could get it to move around by touching one my eyelid with finger and gently pushing. Looking at the back of my hand I noticed formication, but didn't interpret it as such. It was like my hand was made of gelatine and strangely, it was noticable at almost any distance, I could make it stop only by dragging my hand right in front of my eyes. This had me slightly scared, because I was realising my high blood pressure and thought I'm actually not hallucinating, explaining this instead as a result of vessels pumping blood at a fast enough rate to create these wobbly bumps. Staring at my fingers while slowly pushing them to less illuminated area, I could create 2 E.T. faces on the skin over both joints. My arm hair looked like grey, hazy mush that's constantly dancing around. I still barely feel any pain on the skin. My yellow lamp shaped into a green-tinted picture of Abraham Lincoln. Focusing on the upper black corner of my room yields even more interesting stuff, like 3D statues forming themselves and disppearing in a blink or moving upwards through the roof if they fall directly into the center of my view. A hole in the window net seemed like it's moving on its own all over the window and randomly shaped into faces, including one lost soul sighting. One of my slippers took on a form of some cyclops head thing and stared angrily at me. I noticed no significant difference of closed eye visions compared to sober state, except for a brief moment when something around 2x3 millimetres wide appeared around the center of my vision that was fully coloured rather than white/black, but too small to distinguish (seemed like TV screen with some sitcom broadcasting). My shadow behind me was dancing around back and forth while the upper part of it started to shrink and transform into a single tiny black line. At one point while looking at the screen with music on, it seemed like the door to my room, situated conveniently to be at the rightmost end of my view, was opening, while other time a lamp on the leftmost part of my view was pulsating shining sparkles. All of this happenning with random flashes of light, shadows devouring themselves and powerful wind outside. I'm not sure if I had any auditory hallucination, because there's a lot of sounds coming from everywhere, but one particular sound, namely the one that you hear when Mario hits a question mark box and a coin comes out... well, I heard it loudly out of nowhere along with some more gibberish that I wasn't paying much attention to. The screen of laptop was strangely uneventful while staring at it. The only changing of shapes happenning was of a dirt left on screen, but drawing some MS paint shapes didn't yield anything other than my keyboard buttons shining from left to right in the motion of mexican waves.

    When the amount of visual mumbojumbo started to decrease, I put the lights on and went directly to my laptop to write down everything I can remember. Strangely, I remember quite a lot, which would be an unlikely case with anticholinergics, as people usually wake up after a trip with only minimal recollections that usually have to be filled in by witnesses. From the effects, I can conclude that it didn't work quite like anticholinergics because of no noticed salivary glands suppresion and short term memory wasn't anywhere near as impaired after comedown. The nature of the trip was probably 50:50 deliriant / hallucinogen combo, with supposed stimulation that gets negligible influence during the peak, but definitely does work, because I've written this in one sitting. The pain reduction may be from certain anaesthetic properties, maybe even similar to local anaesthetics which are known to boost blood pressure quite a bit when penetrated into the bloodstream, maybe even contribute to the bizzaro trip. The comedown is tolerable, with occasional delusion at the rightmost or leftmost points of view that disappear instantly after tilting and also light blinks or dark shapes projecting onto the wall. Premature sleeping is unlikely, this thing will keep you awake for quite a while. Overall, a fascinating brain glitch simulator.

    So, how was your Saturday?

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    2. Hellbent


      Where's the td:lr version?

    3. j4rio
    4. NinjaLiquidator


      Cool stuff :D I bet you even cook meth and after taking it, you record your demos

  3. code:


    Time to start practising body language.

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    2. deadwolves


      Doominator2 said:

      Wheres the sex?!

      Prison sex?

    3. Doomkid


      Ukraine? Really interesting photos.

      glenzinho said:

      Hunting Pokemon sure takes people to the strangest places


    4. j4rio


      ReFracture said:


      Indeed. Also Chernobyl, Zalesya, Kopachi, Duga-3 and the Sarcophagus.

      Doominator2 said:

      Wheres the sex?!

      Off screen, of course.

      glenzinho said:

      Hunting Pokemon sure takes people to the strangest places

      Well, there were a few hotspots. None included pokemons though. Nor wi-fi.

  4. Any tips, hints, ideas or recommended literature?

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    2. Cupboard


      Mein Hut, der hat drei Ecken,
      Drei Ecken hat mein Hut,
      Und hätt er nicht drei Ecken,
      So wär es nicht mein Hut.

      learn them children's songs and read children's picture books. Seriously, every day in 2nd year German we read a different picture book and practiced the vocabulary we learned. It's a long road to learn another language when you start in adolescence or post-adolescence..

    3. Krispy


      You could also say this three times fast:
      Blaukraut bleibt Blaukraut und Brautkleid bleibt Brautkleid.

    4. Maes


      Speaking as Greek here, other than the umlauted vowels and a distinction between soft "h" and hard "ch" sound, the pronounciation is relatively easy, and the spelling is much more regular than in English or even French.

      Grammar wise, I was surprised to find that it has a lot of similarities with (ancient) Greek, in the way the case system works and the way many phrases and expressions are constructed. I wouldn't be surprised if it was harder for a native English speaker to pick up on it, simply because the grammar must feel so alien.

  5. So I decided to try food fasting for a week, because why not. Currently sixth day without any meal intake, just regularly drinking mineral water and vitamin pills once a day. Lost like 6 kilograms already, although roughly 3 will be back almost immediately after fasting is over - biochemistry is a bitch. Surprisingly, no hunger feeling whatsoever since lasting through first day. I was expecting at least 2 or 3 days to be rough on willpower. Generally just feeling dizzy for a little while after changing positions like getting up from chair and it's easy to get physically exhausted (after 7 km walk I was completely drained out). Uh, that's about it.

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    2. j4rio


      Mr. Freeze said:

      When you go for long periods of fasting, your metabolism slows. When your metabolism slows, it takes longer to process food. Meaning when you do eat again, you'll burn calories slower, and have less energy- two things that are important to losing weight. You might have *temporary* weight loss, but you'll earn it back and have no real progress to show.

      Metabolism doesn't slow down. It changes, sure, but if it actually slowed down, you would most likely go extinct. Brain needs to be permanently fully energetic, otherwise bodily functions will fail. Allow me to put my point of view on the matter.

      The term energy itself is on a chemical level an ATP molecule, which is in simpified terms what makes possible every single process in human body could happen. Metabolism is what makes ATP out of stuff you eat. What we usually eat can be summed up as three things - proteins, sacharides, fat. All three can be used as a source of energy, or in other words an ATP molecule can be synthetized from them. There is one problem, however, that brain cells are dependant on glucose (sacharide) even after engaging starvation (to make ATP). You can make it through with glucose level in blood roughly through one day of fasting, however not more. Another problem is that body can't synthesize glucose from fat, only from proteins. Liver starts to sythesize glucose from aminoacids of proteins in your muscles after first day of fasting, therefore for a little while your muscles will reduce, but since your muscles are the most important part of body when getting to the actual food, it would be a suicidal to go on fasting if there wasn't something more to it. The something more to it is that your liver start to produce ketones from products of metabolism of fat (acetyl-coa) which get released to blood. By the time of third to fourth day of fasting, brain adapts to this by synthesis of suitable enzymes to use ketones as a source of energy. The upside of this from diet point of view is that ketones are a BAD source of energy, because it completely replaces ATP for something less effective and therefore there needs to be many of them to keep brain fully energetic. In other words, you lose fat rather rapidly, but you feel weak. That's why it's the amount of fat that is the main factor in keeping you alive during starvation. There are also diets (called ketosis diets) that allow you to eat, but you have to strictly minimize fat and sacharide intake to allow ketose synthesis to happen. I've heard of fat people being on diets utilizing ketones from fat for a period of whole year.

      When you get back to casual day rhythm from fasting, your reserve of glycogen (a storable form of glucose in liver) will be slowly built back along with some proteins that were used up before ketosis, which would roughly equal to 2-3 kgs in my case, but I currently lost 7. If somebody says you gain it all back, it's a lie. Everything else depends on how you maintain yourself afterwards, for example certain bit of movement to get rid of excess energy daily.

      Also, I ended with the fasting today so I'm curious how will things turn out it upcoming days.

    3. TimeOfDeath


      You really wanna look good for bikini season, huh. :)

    4. j4rio


      I've always been looking good. Actually, all bikini I had at home are suddenly too wide for me. :<

  6. So, I've just yesterday found out my cousin studying in Czech Republic for the past 5 years has joined a small team Keen Software House this May and is one of around 8 people behind internationally praised game Space Engineers. I was pretty surprised, to say at least.

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    2. geo


      I have a friend that made some spacy video game atmospheric track. Could I persuade you to take a listen and maybe send it to your cousin?

    3. j4rio


      He is not in charge of sound effects or music, he is just behind the core gameplay. If your friend really wants to have his spacy track in that videogame, the best bet would be to try messaging the team leader of Keen Software.

    4. geo


      That's cool, thanks. I thought while he had a spacy sound I'd try here. Sorry for the solicitation.

  7. Look at that beauty. Free 10% discount if you're at least forum regular at doomworld.com.

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    2. geo


      Looks like the OC logo. This is a joke right? Nothing screams to me DOOM or Doomworld or Community chest? Why not replace the black of the CC with 2 cacos like red CCs. That's probably taking this too serious.

      If I wanted to go all out, I'd do a limited eition chest box with a CD inside and a CD soundtrack. Probably a T-shirt too and some caco demon pendant. All for the low price of $75

    3. j4rio
    4. Acid


      geo said:

      Looks like the OC logo. This is a joke right? Nothing screams to me DOOM or Doomworld or Community chest? Why not replace the black of the CC with 2 cacos like red CCs. That's probably taking this too serious.

      If I wanted to go all out, I'd do a limited eition chest box with a CD inside and a CD soundtrack. Probably a T-shirt too and some caco demon pendant. All for the low price of $75


  8. Nah just kidding. Have some random pics I took during a walk in Bratislava instead.

    [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7] [8] [9] [10] [11] [12] [13] [14] [15] [16] [17] [18] [19] [20] [21] [22] [23] [24] [25] [26] [27] [28] [29] [30] [31] [32] [33] [34] [35] [36] [37]

    It's basically a way from my student apartment to center of the city, which took me roughly three hours by foot iirc. Pictures capped with my potato calculator.

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    2. Obsidian


      j4rio said:

      my nude pixx


      Jodwin said:


    3. j4rio


      Memfis said:

      filesmelt seems to be down...

      Yeah, filesmelt has its ups and downs.

    4. cannonball


      3 hours, that's a large city. I remember when I was in Southampton it took about half an hour from my house to the city centre. On the other hand if I was living in london it would probably take longer.

  9. Do you know any tricks how to force your memory to remember any sort of utter nonsense with the least effort possible put to actual remembering process?

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    2. 40oz


      Memfis said:

      what if you decide to wear another pair of shoes

      do you have a different place to put every pair of shoes?

      printz said:

      What if you squash them? I prefer putting important objects in my backpack, early.

      It doesn't have to be deep inside your shoes. It can stick out to a point where it would be obviously uncomfortable to put your foot in it. I don't think my suggestion was so bizarre that it merit being refuted this much. And I know a thing or two about saying controversial things.


    3. j4rio


      cannonball said:

      for science, writing it down repeatedly helps, especially with equations. Damn physics.

      Funnily enough, I had exactly that exam yesterday. I can remember equations pretty much instantly, but detailed descriptions of them is just a memory torture. And our national wiki is full of shit so I have to translate that junk from englesch as a bonus.

    4. Mechadon


      I have pretty terrible short-term memory. So I tend to write just about everything down (and then if it's something really important, I'll tape it to my keyboard so I'm forced to read it).

  10. So I was in an 8 hour long train ride and I was, like, playing doom. Then a steward came by. I didn't notice him at first, but when I turned at him, he was, like, "That game still exists"? I was like, "Yep". Then we both laughed.

    The End.

    And then Gez was a zombie.

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    2. 40oz


      Eris Falling said:

      Yep same

      "The graphics are terrible"
      "You're playing a 20 year old game.."

      Does it really? I've mentioned to Doom to quite a few new work friends recently and they appeared to be pretty receptive to it. I'm pretty sure we're well beyond the "LOL THOSE GRAFECKS ARE BAD" times. Either that or your friends are like 8 years out of style.

    3. DoomUK


      40oz said:

      Does it really? I've mentioned to Doom to quite a few new work friends recently and they appeared to be pretty receptive to it. I'm pretty sure we're well beyond the "LOL THOSE GRAFECKS ARE BAD" times. Either that or your friends are like 8 years out of style.

      Are you the guy who successfully coaxed his formerly non-Dooming girlfriend into not only playing Doom, but enjoying it - enough to make her come up with some cool ideas for maps?

      You have a curious, almost messianic influence on those around you.

    4. Eris Falling

      Eris Falling

      40oz said:

      Does it really? I've mentioned to Doom to quite a few new work friends recently and they appeared to be pretty receptive to it. I'm pretty sure we're well beyond the "LOL THOSE GRAFECKS ARE BAD" times. Either that or your friends are like 8 years out of style.

      Me and my friends are younger than Doom. I just have good taste in games.