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  1. This isn't really meant to be some sort of grandoise announcement that the one-and-only Marnetmar is leaving, I'm making this thread moreso because:

    1. Free maps!
    2. For people who end up wondering “Hey, I wonder where that guy who shitposted and never finished his projects went”.

    I'll be taking a bit of a hiatus. I've decided that in my 6 years on Doomworld I haven't contributed much, if anything, that has been worthwhile. In addition, I've got things going on in my life at the moment and DW probably isn't the most healthy of things for me to be doing. I'll probably lurk from time to time, but people probably won't be hearing much from me for a while.

    I don't want to leave on too much of a somber note, however, so here's a few map scraps. Few of them resemble anything playable, but I figured that it'd be a better idea to put them up for others to take a look at and make use of in their own projects if they wanted:

    I used to have a lot more than this, but lots of stuff has been deleted in escapades of folder deletions. Oh well.


    1. 40oz
    2. HavoX


      You'll be back. They always come back.

  2. Oh fuck me, I forgot about this dishonest, cringeworthy abomination. I don't know what I was thinking here, I was 14 and for some reason wanted undeserved attention. I don't know what to say, I feel horrible about this.
  3. And that's three more posters added to my ignore list, all in one thread.
  4. It never occurred to me that people born in 2000 are in their mid-teens until just now. Fuck, time flies.
  5. Excuse any weird formatting, I actually posted this exact same thing on an ADHD subreddit to vent and seek some advice. This is just to vent because this is a community that I enjoy.

    I'm 19 years old. Throughout my entire life, focusing on a single task for more than a few minutes has been incredibly difficult. Sitting down to write this post in an complete and well-thought-out way is a struggle. (edit: Thinking about it, this could explain my often less-than-contributional posting) My mind has a constant fog over it at nearly all times, and my thoughts are mindless, jumping from one random idea to another, very rarely linear and coherent. Getting through High School was a miracle for me, I had to take online classes to make up failed credits. I'm now in College with an extremely easy schedule and I'm still not doing very well due to my forgetfulness and lack of mindfulness.

    Once in a blue moon, the veil is lifted and I am able to focus on a task such as studying -- and when it happens it's not a matter of "just do it even though it sucks" -- the task of sitting down and working is one of the greatest feelings in the world.

    Because of this, important tasks that I need to get done, and want to get done, sit and pile up in the background while I sit, not doing something that I'd rather be doing, but doing "nothing in particular". Not only are necessary tasks affected, so are things that I enjoy. I can't sit and watch a documentary or read a book, even an interesting one, without my thoughts wandering. If I manage to finish doing either one, I come out not with a store of new knowledge, but an assortment of random facts I just happened to absorb that are of little to no actual use to me.

    My self-esteem is often times through the floor because the way my life has consistently folded out, with my promises to myself every other week to "get my life together for real this time" never following through, something that hurts not just myself but others as well -- something that compounds even further since I tend to sugar coat things avoid talking to people at all when things aren't going as planned.

    I never considered that it might be something that goes beyond pure self-discipline and willpower until recently when I began to gather some bits of information on ADD.

    I'm going to be visiting a doctor friday to see if my symptoms match up with a diagnosis. Friday can't come soon enough. Hopefully it will set me on the path to "getting my life together for real this time". I firmly believe that I am capable of doing good things with my life, but there's an invisible barrier that must be broken down first, and it's become abundantly clear over the years that it's not a barrier I can break down on my own.

    1. Breezeep


      Seems unfortunate that you were going through all this. I tend to have trouble focusing myself, even when it comes to working on a certain map and then not finishing it ever. I wish you best of luck on your recovery.

    2. ChekaAgent


      Holy shit, you got a schizophrenia, dude, you should be put into asylum.

      Jokes aside, I often have problems with focusing on things myself (especially focusing on studies, probably because I hate studying), but not all the damn time.. I can imagine how hard it is to live, when you can't focus on anything..

    3. dg93


      I have problems focusing on things that I have little to no interest in. I hope everything turned out ok for you Marnetmar.

    4. Marnetmar


      I ended up filling out some paperwork and am now waiting for a response back from the doc.

      I'm assuming that once I get a response I'll be referred to a psychiatrist.

  6. Do you plan on using the alpha shotgun for this?
  7. Skeletons
  8. To remind loved ones that death is, in the grand scheme of things, one of many inevitabilities of our existence. This life, for all we know, is the only one we have, so we ought to make the most of it.
  9. I strongly doubt it. If that was the case you'd get a cease and desist order instead. Plus, id/bethesda/zenimax has literally nothing that they can gain or lose from this.
  10. Nobody's going to cause any problems. The guy who PMed you was probably just one of those types who always seeks to put themselves on a moral pedestal.
  12. This is actually strangely fitting.
  13. Deliculous?
  14. I don't feel so good.