Single Status Update
Yesterday when I came home (my girlfriend couldn't reach me) she told me that our baby had been removed because he was dead. ;(
She was 5 months into the pregnancy.
We don't know what was wrong or for how long he had been dead. My girlfriend couldn't feel any signs of life the night before she went to the doctor.
This comes as a big shock to me. I was about to go from being a normal weird nerdy guy to being a dad. I had started to try to feel in myself how it would be to become a dad. I can't explain how I feel right now. Tonight we told our parents what has happened. I know that probably not many of you either know or care about this. The due time was around the 10th July. My girlfriend got pregnant naturally in a birth control break - that was a miracle because she has PCOS. She had the pills to start everything going, so that she would be able to get pregnant for when we would try in the future with the help of a clinic. But it happened naturally - we were told it was a risky pregnancy. We have talked about trying again in half to a whole year's time. But it is a hard thing to think about - in 4 months I could have been a dad. Today I stayed home to try and get control over the issue - it is not the easiest thing to do. I am going to stay home tomorrow too, so we have the vacation to get over this and moving.