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1 hour ago, LiT_gam3r said:

Do people actually enjoy Death Metal? This is a serious question, I'm not being sarcastic at all. It just sounds so strange to me. 

Back when I first got into metal as a youngster, I really hated death metal and thought it was crap, until the day I got into black metal and started to get used to harsh vocals and stuff. Once I got into Death (band), this is when I began to really enjoy some death metal. However, to this day, it is still the metal genre that I find the less attractive to me with some exceptions of course. I still don't like a lot of death metal bands and probably will never like them. The music needs to have something special that makes it unique, a lot of these bands just took the train and made some generic shit and all went to the same studio to sound alike. Most of these had like one good record and then went to shit real fast. I enjoy the authentic feeling to some of the music, but a lot of em is just trash.

Posting this at 0:00 (midnight) how cool is that. woke up at 6 PM, schedule totally fucked up.

It's 4:32 am, I am wondering why the fuck am I still up.

2 hours ago, seed said:

 

Thanks guys :>. Yeah, I'm hoping it does help me at least with my stress issues, the other problems I already mostly know where the fundamental issue lies, so unless that changes, I'm not sure how much will that help out. But hey, at least I'll be able to vent my problems and frustration elsewhere, not just DW :p.

 

Since it was brought up, I actually do know a lot about myself, which people don't seem to do anymore these days, and most of their knowledge about themselves comes from conditioning more than anything. Of course, there's always something more to know, but all I'm saying is that I'm pretty aware of myself.

I would like to think the same thing about myself, but i've never been entirely sure if I really knew myself properly. To me, it seems harder to get your things together in your own head than analyzing other people move and actions, seeing how they acts.

2 hours ago, seed said:

With all the stress and frustration and now newly developed issues, I have decided to see a psychologist in two weeks.

 

I wonder how that will go, I'm honestly quite pessimistic that it will help fixing anything, especially since I know the root of all this nonsense, and unless that changes - aka me moving out - it will probably do exactly jack shit. Damned life but what can you do, damned if you do, damned if you don't.

I saw a few psychologists a couple of years ago and it definitely did absolutely nothing in regards to my case back then. However, I still wish that it does something for you anyways. I guess that will count as a random fact.

1:49

Will Smith is sick

His shows invoke

More televisions

2:24

Necromancer.

Dirty Fucker.

1:06

A BBQ.

0:59

EATTTTT A PIZZAAAAAA

9 hours ago, dragon's influence said:

i got a HEAVY obsession for dragons! "and video-games too..."

Oh really? Definitely not expected from someone with dragon's influence as username.

Anyway as a fact I suppose, I hate my job but still carry on it. I guess I enjoy self-torture?

My mom stopped buying me cloths when I started getting band shirts by my own, she thought it looked outrageous and still do nowadays even if I have nearly 200 of them as of today. She still gets me jeans or socks and shit like that because I absolutely hate shopping cloths (except for band shirts of course).

What I wear everyday at these times:

Band shirt

My 9 years old perfecto model leather jacket

Jeans or pants (I used to wear only cargo pants back few years ago).

Reebok white high tops (my Nike air forces are totally destroyed after only one year of wearing them). Used to wear doc martens boots with my cargos.

He's possessed by evil and his master sitting on a throne of blood

Possessing!

I went to hospital today and wait 9 hours to see a fucking doctor. I'm tired of having health issues and them being related to all the same thing. This is really not my year, to say the least. (And no it is not related to covid-19).

18 hours ago, Lokatzis 007 CJ said:

Dizziness (Swe) - Midnight Lover

I found this awesome piece and I can't stop listening to it. The solo at the 3:58 and the incredible arpeggios shortly afterwards are simply amazing. What an uknown masterpiece. I would really want to ping midi composers here like Jimmy to check it out... But I'll resist the urge. Probably just gonna bother people

Yeah that shit is awesome, glad to see other people that dig this sort of underground stuff like me.