NuMetalManiak

Looks like my move is successful. This apartment is shared with several other individuals who all work at the same company I work for. Haven't tested anything Doom-related on this laptop I own right now though.

Serious talk:

A friend of mine posted online that he plans on committing suicide in 5 days or less. I really want to convince him it's not the answer to his problems and that he shouldn't feel too depressed about things that happen. The last few times I talked to him he barely responded (or if he did, all he ever does is say a simple "thanks" which doesn't seem to answer anything). If anyone here really knows how to help please do, I care about him and don't want to hear any terrible news. And yes, I am aware of the suicide prevention hotline and mental help, but I want to try to convince him on my own first.

why did you change your profile pic to this I thought @plums came back. :( :( :(

Fucking hell. I can never understand the weather here in Norfolk.

fcount <- read.csv("file.csv", header=TRUE, sep=",")
attach(fcount)
data <- fcount[order(friends)]
plot(data)
lines(data)

Doing some R thing

trying to sort a csv file with username as x-axis and friend count as y-axis, graph looks like tangled rope, I need it to be a curved line that exponentially grows. How do I sort this so username with lowest friend count is furthest left?

*installs python 3 and package specifically for 3*

version is 2.7

WHAT

guess i'll fail

I wonder who Mr. or Mrs. "Scam Likely" from Fairfax, VA is, and why they are so desperately trying to call my cell phone. Will "Scam Likely" die if I don't answer the phone?

I guess you can say I'm Down with the Sickness again for Christmas this year. Now if I am to survive the infection must die.

huh, so i did reach Forum Staple status after all this time...is it really a bad thing?

enjoying music on this site right now. jump in to chat if you want.

https://www.dubtrack.fm/join/mosh-pit

Does anyone on this site use Dubtrack? It's this chatroom where you can also queue music and chat with people and I go there sometimes.

I had to say it about myself eventually, but here it is, because I needed to vent:

I quit my job

I pretty much had to. The people at the hotel were working me to death over there. My main duty was to empty out vacated rooms of trash and dirty laundry, and take them down to the laundry room. Simple? Yes. Am I fast and efficient. Oh hell yeah dawg. And the overall pay of it was great too. Heck, I was even good with the guests, who were actually the least of my worries.

So what made me quit? Well, the main reason I can think of would be the annoying coworkers. The other housekeepers there won't stop complaining about their job all the time. And they get at me for some dumb reasons like I'm not stripping their rooms fast enough and what not. Hey newsflash I'm on another floor! I've got a whole slew of rooms to empty out most of the time and these impatient housekeepers really drive my patience. Especially considering how I'm the fastest worker there overall and I actually have to wait until the others are finished, so depending on how fast things go, I wait about six hours for them to finish up. Yes, I actually have to wait for the slower housekeepers before I clock out; sometimes I directly help them out on their last few floors if necessary. Another reason I quit? Most of the people I actually liked on the job either got fired quickly or decided to just stop showing up altogether. The fact they ended up being uncooperative makes my work days even longer, cause assigned slots get moved around and things just move slower. And one more thing! Barely any fucking AC. I find this to be a big one considering its hot as hell outside and everything. So overall, this job would've nearly killed me if I stayed a little longer than I currently had. I just can't work with a team of people who complain a lot and frequently never show up. If I'm working with a team, give me one that's competent and doesn't complain or skip work frequently.

Looks like Doomwiki is down again...

All these people have such good reputations, and I'm just sitting here...wait a minute, where am I exactly?

Utterly devastated to hear that Matt Holt of Nothingface had passed away at 39. Of the many nu metal bands I've known, Nothingface was among the best ever music-wise, and all my hopes for a reunion are gone. Never hated a single song and always liked Matt's vocals.

No one's seen my profile aside from myself in literally a week. I am invisible!

Why is it that I always get that one professor that never answers their email when I have urgent questions, urgh.

Hey did you know the South Park kids were in Deus Vult II? Currently documenting the wad's secrets on wiki, as well as suicide exits.

Just want to say I'm documenting how to get every secret in Ancient Aliens on Doomwiki. Currently on MAP31.

my landline is apparently a magnet for phone calls since the past month. lately, I've been getting a lot of calls on my home phone. usually, I end up with no message on the phone, most likely due to some dummy getting the wrong number. this is fine, mistakes happen. but what I've also been frequently getting is something even more interesting, and rather catastrophic to think about had I answered the phone that time. that's right, I'm talking about phone scams, the ones where someone is demanding money over the phone from my paycheck, or something among those lines. and I seem to get them once or twice a week that it's getting ridiculous.

the most recent one happened just yesterday. around the morning time where I live, I got a message, apparently from New York of all places. so I played the message and I was quite shocked at what I was hearing. someone had called my number, claiming to be from the IRS and saying some shit about having a lawsuit filed against me and an arrest warrant. I figured it was a scam since I really don't do anything wrong (plus I had already payed for my taxes last weekend). I had a gut feeling that the IRS doesn't directly call random peoples' phone numbers. I decided to Google this particular scam, and I found out that it seems to be targeting others in the states as well. so I showed this to my father and he called the police about the message we got. my dad knows when something's a scam anyways, since all these people want to do is take money out of our pockets.

I fucking wonder how these crooks could come up with this sort of sophisticated scheme of masquerading as IRS agents and I hope I'm not the only one who is ending up receiving these messages. I also am wondering if I should disconnect my landline, given how I am so tired of people constantly calling my home phone number.

today I celebrated a rather tranquil birthday today. that's nice, I don't need fancy parties and stupid surprises. this morning I finished a game with Doom in the title that I started about two weeks ago (any guesses?). then I had to do a presentation in humanities (I picked my birthday for the due date because that's a day I can actually remember) before actually inviting my parents to a dinner. at least I'm no longer in my teens so that's cool. definitely had a better birthday than my last one where I was severely depressed and I pissed off my mother so much she left home in spite. tomorrow I'll celebrate my friend's birthday in which he is going to be 18, so that's important for him.

so far so good I guess. no fucked-up thoughts at the moment. I've been thinking about where the heck I'll end up in the next few years, hopefully going to a full 4-year uni that supports CSC classes well. and then try to find the right job for the computer majors.

also I found out that Huy Pham shares my birth date, so happy birthday to him too.

I've had probably the most eventful spring days that I've ever had in my entire life. finals are done, finally, and now I can start on my ACTUAL curriculum classes, in the fall though. I've breezed through pre-calc without a goddamn sweat while others struggled, and my final English composition paper was written at a restaurant (no seriously, the final class was held at a restaurant).

most importantly though, I've finally got a summer job after a fucking year and a half of searching. granted, it's only housekeeping stuff at some theme park, but at least I got one. can't believe the amount of shit I had to fill out just to get SOMETHING that pays, and hopefully my parents will stop bitchin' and breathing down my throat about it.

my parents will be vacationing to Las Vegas in June. I'm staying home, cuz I generally hate the big U.S. corporate cities and the populace that dwells in them. also because of my new occupation.

other new stuff that's been happening, my dad cleaned my computer of crap, and I finally got a good gaming mouse. hopefully all this new stuff won't be too much a burden. wish me luck.

You know that mapset I was working on called tracks.wad? The one I released a six-map demo for? Yeah, I really haven't been able to work on it ever since, I'm not getting any more ideas for it. But hopefully I will in the next year. Mapper's block sucks.

What's worse is everything in my personal life is fucking me up right now. I've been focused on getting hired for an entry-level job ever since leaving high school, and no one has the balls to hire me. At the same time I'm trying to keep my college grades up. My mother has become so hell-bent on getting me a job before the Christmas season because she worries too much that I will not have any money left. Then again, when not at work, she's the one sitting somewhere with her iPhone games all day, so I'm really not understanding this shit at all.

I've been having a lot of conflicts in my immediate family (mother and father only) and they have been getting more frequent day by day. Most of the time, the arguments are usually about me and getting a job. Yes I'm fucking applying for shit, why don't you two realize that it takes a lot of time and effort and oftentimes I don't get called for an interview? It doesn't matter if I'm involved, when they're yelling at anyone, I'm always uncomfortable. This whole month there was some argument with them every other day, and I've been getting more depressed because of it. I've almost wanted to take my own life just so they could realize how much they're fucking my life up. I didn't for one reason.

Because now today is my birthday, and due to all the shit that's been argued about, I feel like they fucking ruined my 19th. In that morning I told them to never argue about anything for at least an entire fucking day. I just hope this day doesn't become a war of words between everyone. So I did get some presents from other friends and relatives, money, gift cards (for shit I don't use), and maybe the occasional weird gift. My parents gave me some cards telling me they love me and are sorry for stuff, yeah I've heard it before, it's appreciation, but they should have not pressured me to the fucking brink on something I'm trying to do myself. They should allow me to have some free time as well, maybe I can cure that mapper's block I'm currently having.

EDIT: geo, this is what I meant by tracks.wad.

Uh yeah, the storm was a dud.

Although I will say when I registered here I didn't even know there was a tropical storm out there, and that it would hit my area as well.