Chopkinsca

Saying goodbye is never easy. Not because of a death, but out of choice.

This is going here because I have nowhere else to go with it.

I had a friend from a few years back. We rarely talked, with weeks or months between messages. Two years ago I decided to push and we started to message each other every day. I started to grow feelings for her. She is local, but we have only met up twice because of stupid anxiety issues. Last year I told her I had strong feelings for her, but she didn't feel the same way. I felt so horrible but we remained friends, because why throw away a great friendship over my stupid heart and feelings. It was going okay. My feelings for her were still there. I'd get stupid ideas that maybe she would change her mind and my mind would take messages the wrong way. I guess things got to a tipping point lately. Within the last hour I sent a short message saying goodbye. I unfriended her in every place we were friends and here I am. She was my closest and really, the only friend I had.