Status Updates posted by bzzrak
Hi, so I slept 10 hours last night but I still feel kinda tired, like my body isn't tired but my brain is. Like I'm acting super dumb and super slow, as I usually do when I'm sleepy. (when I'm not, I'm just plain dumb and slow AS YOU MIGHT HAVE GUESSED)
My sleep schedule is normally kinda insufficient but fairly consistent and I put effort into keeping it that way. (2230 plus minus half an hour till 0645, last night I went to sleep at 2105 though)
I don't have insomnia or anything, I usually fall asleep immediately after going to bed.
What to do, should I sleep more? Less??? Drink more water or something? Fall asleep to rain sounds?????? What do you recommend?
So apparently the weebs have come up with an extension to the "Spooktober" thing and apparently it's a challenge where you have to draw a different gore-related anime art every day?????
Damn weebs should be exterminated.
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Ok I'll stop now
I think drawing gore and looking at it can be a good therapeutic experience sometimes. I've noticed for example that animal corpses found on the street used to disturb me, but now they almost give me a peaceful feeling. By getting closer to the darker sides of this world and gradually accepting them as a natural part of it I find myself worrying less about trifle things, and even about tragedies. It's just easier to live if you expose yourself to unpleasant things instead of hiding from them in fear.
My laptop's drive HDD so I had it replaced, also had Windows 10 installed on it since the OS had to be reinstalled anyway.
It's surprisingly neat af, so far literally like Win7 but better!
Has the night light dimming thing built in, YO HOW COOL IS THAT! Required some minor messing around in the Device Manager though.
So yeah Win10 is nice
Ah yes, other than the fact that you can't prevent it from downloading updates and I'm on a USB modem
Also there's both a "Settings" and a "Control Panel". Which is confusing, because you never know which one you need.
Just updated my 6-year old version of VLC player and I can max the volume only up to 125%, not to 200% as I used to be able to??????
Never update your software!!! Now I need to search the blessed version 2.0.5 again!!!
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Well guess what. Silly me thought he could trust the internet. The heretical crippling of VLC happened a version before, 2.1.0. I learned this the hard way. So I hopped between 4 different versions, deleted my settings in the process and now my journey peacefully ended at 2.0.8.
Gucci Gang is loud again. Very loud.
Don't update your software yo!
Gah! That music... it tears my auricles apart into tiny giblets!
Biggest problem with later versions of VLC: speeding up used to have that funny chipmunk effect, but now it just makes the playback faster without changing the pitch. :(((
OK now I'm kinda seriously getting into XXXTentacion's stuff. This guy is... strange.
It seems that this dude has at least one song of literally every genre and sound ever made. People seem to think that he's a mumble rapper like Lil Pump or whatever, but in fact this guy is... I have no idea what this guy is. I can't classify him.
He's got songs that are like CAN'T KEEP MY DICK IN MY PANTS AYY, but also real-ass heavy metal stuff filled with screams of pure goddamn anger, then really soothing rambles about depression and stuff, also strong songs about love and feelings... anything.
The depressive stuff of his is indeed very... moving and touching, but I'm probably still too merry-go-round to fully embrace it (thank god eh?). You can really feel his emotions through his music.
But at the same time he's got some songs that are so cheerful and positive that you simply can't form a coherent impression of him. It's almost a shock how much do his songs differ, even on one album.
XXXTentacion was a special, one-of-a-kind guy, from what I can see. Probably more troubled inside than I can even comprehend, but also so optimistic and willing to commit to something bigger, I guess, at the same time.
Ugh folks, I don't know, he had so much in front of him, and he had an undoubtedly enormous talent. In any case, I recommend everyone here to give him a shot. Especially if you've been dismissing him because "you don't like rap" or whatever. I'm sure many of you here would empathise.
I definitely should've discovered you earlier.
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Ugh, I don't know.
bOtH aRe eQuaLLy LeGeNdArY
So apparently his gf has forgiven him for the beating part, still loves him and was also devastated by his death regardless of what happened? TBH if she's OK with it, I don't see a reason to be particularly salty about it myself.
As for the gay dude, apparently he beat him because he was staring at him naked? All in all, I don't think he was homophobic, just angered by the behaviour of one specific gay guy.
I mean if a woman beat up a straight guy for staring at her, it would suddenly be a-ok and completely justified, right? This is the same situation.
What would you do if you were him?
And besides, does all this really matter if the music is good??? Yeah he may have done some bad things in the past, but when you sum up his deeds, you end up with a positive IMO.
He may not be a good guy, but you can't deny his lasting impact on modern rap. We shouldn't ignore the fact that his music had a lot of positive impact to it's listeners, even if his actual character can't live up to his musical legacy.
@bzzrak, there's no reason to justify his use of violence. Unless you're in a self-defense position, violence will not solve anything and will hurt the people you attack both physically and mentally. People will continue to be hurt by that act even after they say they forgive you.
Eyyo! I know whatchya sayin' dear fellow Team Edgy member, 'coz for a long time I'd been thinkin' about how things go 'round in life the same way as this late XXXTentacion dude had. I mean the, err, perception behind how I could had afford myself the audacity to treat people like, ehm... *excrement* (sorry Ling :D ) just b'coz I could produce AWSUM MUZAK n' stuff.
But I have to side w/ the fellow lads at this point. Mind the perfect past tense above - being an artist (or sportsman, politician, whatever high-respected member of our society) doesn't make all - or, in particular, any - misdeeds you've committed legitimate, neither suddenly, nor via time passing by. It's an epidemic core infection of perception that these popular people love to believe and act accordingly, and common citizens also have a huge tendency to think so.
I know that you mean right, and also know the rule "praise the dead or leave them alone". But remember, not all influential people are known for solely their virtues.
"Hey, who's this XXXTentacion guy? Yo I've heard the name before, seems familiar. OK I'll check this song out."
"Huh I'm starting to like this XXXTentacion guy. I'll start downloading his latest album, go for a walk and hopefully it will have finished by the time I get back."
"Hey mr waiter dude, what's the WiFi password? Thanks!"
"WTF, he has just died?"
RIP XXXTentacion 1998-2018
I got into your stuff a lot later than I probably should have
PSA: I'm finishing high school in 2 days
TBH I'm goddamn terrified of what will come next
How y'all doing folks?
Doing fine. :)
Don't worry that much. Have you written the final exams? If so, it is a waiting game, until you get the grades and if you go to college and stuff, the only thing that is kinda scary is the lack of order. It can get really easy to slack off the whole day, because you can spend your time any way you want.
But if you have a good schedule and study regularly (you don't have to study for hours like in high school - 1 hour each day is definitely good and even a bit less than that is OK - plus, you can do small revisions at weekends on what you learned for the week).
Also, being present in every lecture in college (or whatever the lessons there are called in English) and taking good clean notes is really helpful (if you write slowly or you are not that good with taking notes, take photos of others' notes - they won't mind if you ask them).
Anyways, good luck and have courage!
One little personal announcement: I've passed my CPE exam that I made a status update about many moons ago. So my English level as of now is C2.
219/230 points = Grade B, also one goddamn point short of an A.
Regardless, I'm cool with this. :]
I didn't get the real badass official CERTIFICATE yet, though. I'm not sure when am I supposed to get it.
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^ you get used to the constant misspellings after a while. Even when your username is 6 letters long. :]
I had one guy on ZDaemon repeatedly call me Spyke. I ended up not correcting him because it took me too long to even realize he was trying to spell my name.
Colloquial Greeting Commonly Used In Informal Occasions WHAT'S Risen Above The Horizon?
Pronoun Referring To The Speaker AM BACK IN CASE YOU HAVEN'T Become Aware
HAVE YOU State Of Feeling Absence ME?
Happy 8 March to all the gals here,
aLL fIvE oF tHeM
Amazing bit of English language knowledge discovered during preparations for my exam: "Incidentally" = "By the way".
Vocabulary broadened by 20%.
Incidentally, before learning the word's actual meaning, I would always mix it up with "coincidentally", which has a completely different meaning.
Yo, where have you been?
Taking the Cambridge Proficiency Exam (that's C2 level) on the 10th of March. The speaking part of it is on the 11th -- my birthday!
If I do pass it, I'll have a certificate that will allow me to teach English or something, and that's apparently gonna be a handy source of income when I go to uni. Nice birthday present eh???
Anyway, this exam comprises things that are actually quite difficult (but definitely possible).
E.g. you have to KNOW and be able to use all those obscure and uncommon English constructions. I'm having quite a struggle with the inverted stuff a-la "Little did I know" in particular. I mean ffs who speaks like that??? aah damn!
Also, punctuation. Sweet Jesus Christ almighty. That's what I get for neglecting it in my internet posting, someone might say (and he'd be right ayy lmao), but English doesn't seem to have very definite rules for this kind of stuff. Words like "which" can be used in constructions that both include a comma and do not, for instance.
Moreover, the various forms of essays (e.g. proposal, review, report OH MY GOD) are damn hard as well. There's a particular structure of your work that should be honoured (Introduction --> point 1 --> point 2 --> conclusion, that kind of stuff), also stylistic things such as vocabulary, and that's tedious to remember. Don't forget to memorise all the linking words as well!
TAKING ALL OF THE AFOREMENTIONED INTO CONSIDERATION wish me luck, right??? This is gonna be so fun!!