Single Status Update
It's time to face the music. I'm a drunk and an addict and my life is falling apart. I care about my family too much to let this beat me.
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I stopped drinking just over five years ago, after several months of less successful attempts. There's a difference between knowing that you should stop, or that you need to stop, and actually wanting to stop, and I found that the former wasn't enough on its own. But once I got to a point where I knew I wanted to stop, it became doable - not easy, but doable. The hard part was not so much resisting booze - I just got into the habit - but reconciling myself to those things which prompted me to drink in the first place, which took some time. It does get easier though, after a while. And once the numerous physical and psychological benefits begin to manifest - no hangovers, steadier mood, sharper mind, less guilt/shame - sobriety starts to feel pretty good. It sounds like you're getting on the right track, and with solid support. You'll get there.
Thanks for the kind words, everyone. Unsurprisingly, I didn't sleep worth a damn and I feel like shit. I'm taking comfort in the fact that it will get better from here.
I haven't been more than 24 hours sober in months, so this still feels pretty weird at times, but for the most part I'm feeling quite wholesome. Talking about it is helping me much more than I thought, so I thank you all again for listening.