MTF Sergeant

Truthfully I'm not really good at telling you what you want to hear, and these feelings you have for this person are probably going to last a long time. But i am a married man and Doomkid is right. Nothing is a bigger waste of time and energy than being in a relationship with someone who is interested in someone else. I cant imagine that the guy who proposed will be very happy knowing that the love of his was secretly dating you for all that time.

We don't really know enough about the details to give you the best advice but trying to love someone who doesn't love you back is an endless and heart aching pursuit, and very few happy-ending love stories follow that path. You have a long life to live and if you keep looking, you'll find someone who loves you and only you and that will be the happy relationship you're really looking for.

Dude... Didn't you say you were 14?? Your GF can't be much older, and she's proposing to someone? It's very weird.

Ya, like many other people have said just forget about her. Maybe take a break with loving for a while and get things sorted out with your life. If you really are 14 a relationship shouldn't be your biggest worry.

Take the time to enjoy your younger years and not to worry about things like this, believe me, its over to fast.