Single Status Update
*just imagine some dramatic orchestral music*
ENTRY #1 - END OF 1st DAY OF THE GRIND
The summary of the today can be described with two words: Total. Failure.
The electronic tablet which had been used til' day for studies have decided to rebel and perform a malfunction. As this log is being written, the electronical information unit is being taken care of, and while the diagnosis might not yet be complete, I have assumed that it's power storage had either reached it's peak, or there is a problem with the power transfer from the charger to the battery unit or from the battery unit to the core. Either way, it is plugged in to charge, altough at remarkably slow speed, while it expends tenfold as quick.
This unavoidable occurance has forced me to transfer my center of information onto my PC, and while the performance is quite poor and the enviroment isn't as productive, I am assured that the PC would function until the end of the Grind times properly, and 99% sure it would function a long time after the Grind times.
However, this new COI imposes several fundamental problems:
1) Due to my elders' remarkably poor judgement and perception, any sort of action being performed onto the PC by myself is considered a waste of time by them. Therefore, my "play-time" is drastically severed by potentially 80%.
2) The PC isn't as flexible in manners of information transfer, reception, and processing as the tablet was, so all further progress is estimated to slow down half of the usual speed of work. Not to even mention the connectivity issues.
I am still considering to use a diffrent approach during the Grind, and use a old-fashioned paper strategy to formulate my thoughts and use in my studies, and to find a way to minimize work on the PC. However, my paper assignment is entirely dependant on the electronic format of writing and editing, due to not A TYPING MACHINE to use.
Even if this day was lost, what makes it worse that tommorow will be a lost day aswell. I am going to have to visit along with my parents some relatives in some far-away town, leaving me little-to-no time to operate. Even if I dedicated all my free time tommorow to studies, progress could be measured with a small ruler so to speak.
- PERSONAL SHIT IN THE SPOILER BELOW - BEWARE - CRINGE AHEAD -Spoiler
This whole situation is making me desperate. My morale is drastically low, and I have little willpower to even consider my next course of action.
In other words: hlap me pls :,( dunno wat 2 do X(((((((((((
Knowing I already lost two days to nothing, leaving me with 29-30 days of the Grind, I feel small and doomed D:
Today I was supposed to work on my paper! I was just finishing up one page when the damn thing malfunctioned! Yeah yeah, I am not taking care of it right. NOTHING IS WORKING. EVERYTHING I TOUCH DIES.
I WOULDN'T BE SUPRISED IF I MANAGE TO COMPLETELY FUCK UP THIS PC AS WELL.
me swearing below: (sadly, I have learned to converge my emotions through written words)Spoiler
FUCKING FUCKING SHIT
SHITS FOR FUCKS
FUCKINGSTANGLE FUCKODOODLE FUCKALOOO
FUCKING FUDGINGLY FUCKED UP BEYOND ANY FUCKING FUCK WAY FUCK
GO SUCK A HUGE FUCKING DODONGO
FUCKING DICKS FUCKING DODONGOS
I'm angery and saddery at the same time D:<
(o 'n' o )
There's your music:
Well, I guess it is like having no cells for the BFG. In this case, you have to go with the Rocket launcher and hope that it turns out ok.
You need some motivation:Spoiler
But seriously, I also have that feeling of not doing much after a whole day. And it makes me a whole lot nervous whenever I think about it. I would suggest listening to some music before writing and if the computer can be used reliably, then use it to its full extent. Having half of the work you could do ready is not great, though compared to having done no work at all, it is better. And if it is possible, when you can't write, just plan ahead of time for what you will do. I use this in a way for school: whenever I am bored to do exercises, I revise the theory, so the time is not wasted.
Anyways, hope this goes well for you. :)