Melfice

Melfice Darkmage: This will sound just as ridiculous as it doesn't, but do you think we'd beable to get more shit done if we didn't have the internet and our computers all the time? I don't know about you but I swear if I didn't have the option to sit here in front of this thing all evening long half the shit that I've wanted to do would be getting done by now, because I never watch tv or play games anymore
Wilderness Lofts: I think it would make a difference
Wilderness Lofts: we see it as an outlet
Wilderness Lofts: and we use it
Wilderness Lofts: depend upon it
Wilderness Lofts: when you have nothing to do
Wilderness Lofts: you sit on your ass on the comp
Wilderness Lofts: and then although you still have nothing to do
Melfice Darkmage: But what I just said is an example of what I said before. I know what it's doing and how its messing shit up, but I'm so used to this and obsessed with doing the same routine over and over now that even though I'm saying all this it probably won't make a difference
Wilderness Lofts: you're reassured by the fact that you can atleast pretend to do something
Wilderness Lofts: you never even go out and do anything else
Wilderness Lofts: yeah I know
Wilderness Lofts: but me for example...b4 we had the net I was outside being active like..almost 24 7...I only came in to sleep
Wilderness Lofts: then we got the net
Wilderness Lofts: and I went out less and less
Wilderness Lofts: now I only go out to do chores and come back in
Melfice Darkmage: Fuckin'eh dude, these fucking computers are a problem. That realization just hit me. Shit. I gotta come up with someway to avoid this thing.
Wilderness Lofts: but I love it outside
Melfice Darkmage: Its like, bam, right in the face. It becomes an obsession. These fucking things really are the devil.
Wilderness Lofts: yeah but think of it this way
Wilderness Lofts: you'll try to pull away
Wilderness Lofts: and then think of all you're missing
Wilderness Lofts: and get sucked right back in
Melfice Darkmage: But the thing is, is that I'm not missing that much
Wilderness Lofts: exactly
Melfice Darkmage: We fool ourselves into thinking that
Wilderness Lofts: but it feels like it doesn't it?
Wilderness Lofts: wow...what do we do? surf a few sites we go to everyday
Melfice Darkmage: We feel like we're missing that much because of the obsession, its all tied to the obsession
Wilderness Lofts: talk to a few people
Wilderness Lofts: and mainly sit there and stare blankly
Melfice Darkmage: Yeah
Melfice Darkmage: going back to sites over and over again
Melfice Darkmage: nothing's new
Melfice Darkmage: we know it won't be
Melfice Darkmage: but we do
Wilderness Lofts: it's like..I'll sit there and open and close my messenger just to see if anyone else has signed on
Wilderness Lofts: when I know they haven't
Melfice Darkmage: Yup, same here.
Wilderness Lofts: cuz a box will pop up
Melfice Darkmage: Or just looking for someone to talk to when there's only a select few on your list you talk to anyway
Wilderness Lofts: I think it's the pure and simple reassurance of a false belief in being busy
Wilderness Lofts: yes
Melfice Darkmage: fuck
Melfice Darkmage: We gotta do something man or we're screwed, me and you both know unless we do something this isn't gonna end, its gonna keep going on and on, and screw us over royally in the end.
Wilderness Lofts: I would suggest that we put timers on our computers that only let us on so long
Wilderness Lofts: but eventually we'd complain because it's not long enough
Melfice Darkmage: everytime we'd be like "a few more minutes" a few minutes would turn to an hour, maybe more
Wilderness Lofts: eventually no timer at all
Melfice Darkmage: yup
Melfice Darkmage: back to normal
Wilderness Lofts: but it's like...this is me...I'm on the net...I don't even play any of my comp games...it's just the net
Wilderness Lofts: and if someone gets on
Melfice Darkmage: yup same here
Wilderness Lofts: I don't go do something
Wilderness Lofts: I watch TV and wait
Wilderness Lofts: and as soon as they are off
Wilderness Lofts: I'm back on
Melfice Darkmage: I don't edit levels or anything. I don't play games. I surf 3 websites, and chat. That's it
Wilderness Lofts: my favorites list is full of sites I go to once or twice and never check again
Wilderness Lofts: but have them there anyway