SayWhatOneMoreTime

Everyone I know goes away in the end.

Let me ask you something, If you could start again far, far away would you? Or would you not? I know I would.

Still can't believe I'm grieving for someone who I was never close to, I don't know. 

You know how some people can make your life a living hell? And you feel anger towards them you're whole life but then the day they die you feel something, something bad. Like they hurt you but somehow you feel bad for some reason? I don't know what I'm trying to say but it's like when someone you knew dies it's like you can't believe it and somehow you still can't forgive or forget them?

How could you forgive a person who hit you as a little kid? How can you forgive someone who has hit your own mother? Or how that person lied and made everyone they ever knew hate them?

I don't know man it's like, damn.

I shouldn't be posting this on here but I just needed to get it off my chest or whatever.

I hate angled sprites. They are the worst thing's to ever exist.

Hell yeah! I just made my own custom glock 17 sprite

I think since I've started taking these antidepressants I've been a lot happier and somewhat calm and not wanting to destroy the inside of my mouth anymore.

Even though it sometimes keeps me up until 5am it helps.

I hate the feeling of being drunk but not being drunk.

Seagram's alcohol tastes like a cheap soda to be honest.  

Is this what you wanted? This is what you get.

I'm going to download gzdoom builder and maybe doom builder again and release a couple wads before the next week (Not this coming week) Whoever want's the WAD(s) let me know, but be warned that there are thing's you need to pay attention to in one of the WADs and if you can decode the message in it tell me. Once you're done decoding them message me and let me know what you think I should do.

Dear god, if you were alive you know you would kill me.

I don't want to wake, I don't want to breathe.

I wish that I could be a king then I would know that I am not alone.

I don't like opening up to people and I just did and I regret it.

Goodbye

To anyone who comes onto my profile and see's this:

I just wanted to give you some advice. Don't trust anyone because in the end that person you trusted will hurt you if you're not careful. My trust in anyone is now gone, I thought I could trust but no, not anymore.

Advice 2: Don't try to work on something and put time and effort into it because in the end it's just going to screw up and go away in the end like people, people. What is humanity?

Here's something I made for anyone wanting to go into the mind of someone who is insane and sometimes hears voices in their head:

I will update this every day or whenever I feel like it.

Also give a listen to this:

Also I'm sorry, I know doomworld isn't my personal journal or facebook.

Take 14x,

Slice

Then

Hang

If anyone has a midi for this song or know where one is, please let me know.

You know I need you more than ever but you're not here and I- I'm going to die soon.

I really do not like the new layout of this website.

I really need to get gzdoom installed again :/

I got an angel in the lobby he's waiting to put me in line. I won't ask forgiveness because my faith has run dry.

When I get that benz imma pull up in the rain and I'm gonna say "you wouldn't wait for me"