inkoalawetrust

I've been feeling absolutely miserable for the past week with no forseeable end in sight. Here is a full Twitter thread I wrote about that since it would be too much to put here.
 

I've been working on 2 maps at once for the last 2-3 weeks or so randomly swapping my efforts between the too.

At least know how to make proper doors and walls now so that's good.

Since yesterday night i've began work on a big sandbox city map. In fact it's so big that when i deleted some of the linedefs for a road it causes the rest of the road sector to have a weird glitchy line effect in visual mode and also the music eventually broke for no reason and doesn't play and there is weird light effect in a large chunk of the map where if you look at that chunk from certain angles in freelook it appears much darker than the rest of the map.

But most importantly the map is so big that when i open in in GZDB Bugfix it causes my old office PC to lag because the editor needs to use so much memory.

Yesterday I uploaded a video showcasing a nuclear missile launcher I made using ZScript for GZDoom.
The sprites are from the nuke launcher from Realm667.

After looking at screenshots of other peoples' maps and the progress they've made on them and so on i've come to realize that everybody and their grandma is better at mapping than me and that if i sucked any more at mapping i wouldn't even know how to open my editor.

Ever since i made that previous message my motivation and interest has diminished quite a lot but im still randomly spending several hours worth of time working on maps.

I've pretty much finished the map and am at the stage of placing enemies but that has lead me to getting sick of my own map because of how many times i've played it over and over and over and over again.

Oh and also it seems that pretty much everybody has been doing this for over 5 years while i practically might as well have started yestrday in comparison.

Why this weird name change ?