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I just got done trying out the multiplayer demo here at QuakeCon of Doom 3. There are no words to describe how unbelievably cool it was, but I'll try to find some.
So, it starts out with us walking into the same chamber that it was used at E3 (except, it has four like cubicles inside). Once there, we are told to configure our controlls and then told how to get into multiplayer (by Keven Cloud, none-the-less...who's hand I got to shake!) Then, the fun begins.
The level was definitly a military base on Phobos. Lots of grey-blue, but also some great reds, greens, browns, and other color (just the right balance, too). It was a very technological level. There were glass panes to shoot out, lights to shoot, and a special hellish-area with a hanging body to test out the amazing rag-doll physics that it has. In the center was this laser beam area, where every two minutes, well, you didn't want to be there. However, when it wasn't glowing red, you could go down the center, where huge semi-circles were rotating. At the bottom, you could pick up a berzerk powerup and then go through the teleporter.
That teleporter ride, btw, is AWESOME. It's like a fire/lava style wormhole with this hellish-human screem.
The berzerk pack was one of my favorite parts. The screen begins to wave and blur, similar to the effect used in Metal Gear Solid 1. You run around faster than normal, your fists held up, and just pummle opponents. Also, when you see someone with the powerup, their upper torso is this skeleton with red burning flames around them. über cool stuff.
The weapons on the map were fists, a pistol, shotgun, machine gun, plasma gun, and rocket launcher. All were standard, except for the plasma gun. This time, the bolts of plasma move just a tad bit slower. Oh, and the rockets aren't quite as powerful as the first game, but as Keven Cloud pointed out, they're working on weapon balance now. I never did get to find a rocket launcher, but tried the rest.
So, that's it for now. I'm sure I forgot to mention something.
Oh yeah. THIS GAME ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -
If I ruled the world, things would be fun and um...good.
1) Launch all nuclear waste into space. Hey, we don't need it!
2) Dismantle all nuclear weapons. They're too dangerous, IMO.
3) Since it'd be all one giant country, there would be no "my land, not yours!" disputes between countries.
4) Religious tolerance would be law.
5) TV and radio would be uncensored
6) Fuck allt that no cruel and unusual punishment shit. If you're found to be guilty of say...rape, you get fucking mauled to death by bears or some shit.
7) Tons of cash would be pumped into medical research
8) I would have the best stuff :-P
9) No more purchasing oil shit, oil would be shared globally
10) METRIC SYSTEM WORLDWIDE!!!!!!11 (I'd have to learn it though :-P)
11) I'd found a unified church that would be used for worship by all religions.
12) I'd protect all religious and historical land-marks.
13) I'd do my best to at least save some of the environment
14) Tons of cash would be devoted to helping starving areas
15) I'd try to make an assload of bridges that spanned across oceans (heh :-P)
16) I'd force Microsoft to release a Linux distro lOllOLololOL
17) Same sex marriages would be legal
18) Abortions would be legal
19) Gun ownership would be legal, but under strict control laws.
20) Persons of the same sex would be allowed to adopt children.
21) Weed would be legal, but you'd have to be 18 to buy it
22) Legal drinking age would be 18
23) Prostitution would be legal, but regulated
24) A "final days" prison for people serving life sentences. When they reach a certain age, they'd go to this new prison, which would still be max security, but much more "luxiorious" and able to handle old people
25) I'd toughen up on sex crimes and make the punishments worse!
26) Universal currency
27) Foreign languages would be taught early, like the 2nd year of a child's schooling.
What would YOU change if you ruled the freakin' world? -
Journey of 1000 Years
by KISS
I know just where you come from
Where all your yesterdays have gooone
And now you're done
But you've only just begun
Its time you opened up the doors
And now its all very clear
This Journey of 1000 Years
Can you feel it comin?
Can you hear the sound?
Can you feel it comin?
Or is it the roar of the crowd?
Can you feel it comin?
Can you hear it?
Or is it the roar of the crowd?
Did you sleep without dreams?
Did you fly without wings?
Did you touch without feel?
Where nothing is real?
Did you feel it comin?
Or was it the roar of the crowd?-
Phucking Phreak
Velvet Acid Christ
Murder the feelings all left aside
From all those days that you try to hide
You lift out the anger and cut it dry
You soak your tears away, now you can fry
Your mind melts away, you go with the flow
You hold it down, but you can't let go
You try to speak but you hear no sound
Lying on the ground, expressed into sanity
Where you will never be
'cause we're all dead, 'cause you're all dead
'cause we're all dead, 'cause you're all dead
'cause we're all dead, 'cause you're all dead
'cause we're all dead, 'cause you're all dead
We walk into the night
We cut off the right
We won't feel a thing
We're so insane
Disturbed thoughts distort your mind
You're penetrated, obliterated
We all fake it, we all try to hide
The unrelying, the lie
The feelings, the how, the when, the why
We always lie, we always lie
We always cry, we always die
Push away the feelings left so far away
We walked into the sun
And left our hopes astray
We hope to live another day
But when you break it all down
There's really nothing left to say
There's really nothing left to say
There's really nothing left to say
So babble away, so babble away
Bright Eyes
Lover I don't have to love
I picked you out
Of a crowd and talked to you.
Said I liked your shoes,
You said, "Thanks, Can I follow you?"
So it's up the stairs,
And out of view. No prying eyes.
I poured some wine.
I asked your name;
You asked the time.
Now it's two o'clock.
The club is closed,
We are up the block.
Your hands are on me,
Pressing hard against your jeans,
Your tongue in my mouth,
Trying to keep the words from coming out,
You didn't care to know
Who else may have been you before.
I want a lover I don't have to love,
I want a girl who's too sad to give a fuck.
Where's the kid with the chemicals?
I thought he said to meet him here,
But I'm not sure.
I've got the money
If you've got the time.
He said, "It feels good."
I said "I'll give it a try."
Then my mind went dark,
We both forgot where your car was parked.
Let's just take the train.
I'll meet up with the band in the morning
Bad actors, with bad habits...
Some sad singers, they just play tragic.
And the phone is ringing,
And the van is leaving
Let's just keep touching,
Let's just keep...keep singing
I want a lover I don't have to love,
I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk.
Where's the kid with the chemicals?
I got a hunger and I can't seem to get full.
I need some meaning I can memorize.
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind.
But you, but you...
You write such pretty words,
But life's no storybook.
Love's an excuse to get hurt.
And to hurt.
Do you like to hurt?
I do, I do.
Then hurt me,
Then hurt me,
Then hurt me...
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Oh No! I'm an Imp! -
Journey of 1000 Years
by KISS
I know just where you come from
Where all your yesterdays have gooone
And now you're done
But you've only just begun
Its time you opened up the doors
And now its all very clear
This Journey of 1000 Years
Can you feel it comin?
Can you hear the sound?
Can you feel it comin?
Or is it the roar of the crowd?
Can you feel it comin?
Can you hear it?
Or is it the roar of the crowd?
Did you sleep without dreams?
Did you fly without wings?
Did you touch without feel?
Where nothing is real?
Did you feel it comin?
Or was it the roar of the crowd? -
"Happiness is not having what you want, but wanting what you
have."
"Be what you is, not what you ain't,
'cause when you is what you ain't,
then you ain't what you is."
Be careful from whom you get your advice.
Make sure they are where you want to go
or at least headed there.
For sooner or later, their advice will take you
where they are.-
different kind of quotes on bash
<Reverend> IRC is just multiplayer notepad.
<wolf> 1. Save every Free Credit Card Offer you get, Put it in pile A
<wolf> 2. Save every Free Coupon You get, put that in pile B
<wolf> 3. Now open the credit card mail from pile A and find the Business Reply Mail Envelope.
<wolf> 4. Take the coupons from pile B and stuff them in the envelope you hold in your hand.
<wolf> 5. Drop the stuffed to the brim envelopes in your mail and walk away whistling.
<wolf> I have now received two phone calls from the credit card companies telling me that they received a stuffed envelope with coupons rather then my application. They informed me that it they are not pleased that they footed the bill for the crap I sent them. I reply with "It says Business Reply Mail" I'm suggesting coupons to you to ensure that your business is more successful. They promptly hang up on me.
<wolf> Now, I did this for about a month before it got boring, so I got an added idea! I added exactly 33 cents worth of pennies to the envelope so they paid EXTRA due to the weight. I got a call informing me about the money, I said it was a mistake and I demanded my change back. After yelling at the clerk and then to the supervisor they agreed to my demands and cut me a check for the money. I hold in my hand at this very moment a check from GTE Visa for exactly 33 cents.
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http://www.0100101110101101.org/
found that site by complete accident once while searching for something else
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Since I want to Blog tonight but at the same time have no idea what the fuck about, I know bring you more chatlogs for your entertainment! And I guarantee they aren't about being depressed or some shit like that! Shock and be amazed! As I only post logs with people who're important to me!
Session Start (MSN - marcasitenexus@hotmail.com:Tyler): Tue Apr 22 21:27:36 2003
<Melfice Darkmage>: Wow I used alot of various smilies in my reply to your post ;)
Tyler: whoa
Tyler: isn't that the maximum image count? lol
<Melfice Darkmage>: lol
<Melfice Darkmage>: Just get to typing and I get carried away with those smilies sometimes :P
Tyler: haha
<Melfice Darkmage>: whew, like 4 minutes after I posted that suddenly I noticed Phoebus was in Rants&Raves...he just now left...that might mean that my thread will stay open for a little while longer
Tyler: bah mull
<Melfice Darkmage>: lol
<Melfice Darkmage>: So, whats up :P
Tyler: talking to people online
<Melfice Darkmage>: ah lol
Tyler: trying to get money for a warlock
<Melfice Darkmage>: :)
Tyler: I could actually buy one right now
Tyler: I found a music store around here that carries them
Tyler: and there is a super cheap one
Tyler: but it's white :(
<Melfice Darkmage>: OH
<Melfice Darkmage>: I haven't seen a white one, but white can't possibly look good :P ugh
Tyler: haha
<Melfice Darkmage>: especially a white Bronze Warlock
Tyler: unless I'm going for the anti-goth look
<Melfice Darkmage>: pffft
Tyler: lol
Tyler: that was something I did a long time ago in "habbo hotel"
Tyler: I used to hang out in the goth room
Tyler: and one day I decided to go completely white and name myself the anti-goth
<Melfice Darkmage>: lmao
Tyler: it would actually be pretty unique, you never really see people dressed in only white
Tyler: but NAAAAAAAAH
Tyler: gotta be black
<Melfice Darkmage>: Yeah, lol
<Melfice Darkmage>: White...it's just not right
<Melfice Darkmage>: as a matter of fact...it's wrong
<Melfice Darkmage>: lol
Tyler: I saw an awesome warlock on ebay
Tyler: has black fading into blue
<Melfice Darkmage>: sweet
Tyler: but of course I can't afford anything yet
Tyler: I need to get into action with some fake fundraisers ;)
<Melfice Darkmage>: hehehe
Tyler: my friends are sick of me saying "damn I need money for a warlock"
<Melfice Darkmage>: lol
<Melfice Darkmage>: Yep, I've done that with things in the past
<Melfice Darkmage>: Heh, my current want is a Digital Camcorder. I got alot of stuff in mind for it :P
Tyler: I'm sure you do ;) just kidding
<Melfice Darkmage>: lol
<Melfice Darkmage>: ack Phoebus is back
Tyler: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
<Melfice Darkmage>: lol
<Melfice Darkmage>: (>'.')>
ph33r the Kirby :P
<Melfice Darkmage>: lol me and DarkWolf are spying on the Who's Online section contantly
Tyler: melfice
<Melfice Darkmage>: hmm?
Tyler: how do I cheer someone up who is depressed and feels like they're going to have a nervous breakdown
Tyler: ---------->
Tyler: see that window?
Tyler: it needs your urgent attention!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
<Melfice Darkmage>: O_o
Tyler: quick there is no time to waste
<Melfice Darkmage>: What window?!?!?!
Tyler: THAT ONE
Tyler: !!!! ! ! ! !!!!!!!!
<Melfice Darkmage>: O_O
Tyler: haha
<Melfice Darkmage>: AaaahhH!!!
<Melfice Darkmage>: lol
Tyler: damn I really don't know what to tell him though
<Melfice Darkmage>: Hmm, that's what I spent the whole time talking to Black trying to make him feel better :P I've done that with so many friends trying to make them feel better you'd think I'd beable to give you a suggestion or something
Tyler: yeah well I was trained for doing this
Tyler: and I disagreed with the training
<Melfice Darkmage>: It's that whole thing about making them feel like a small helpless child, the way you're supposed to talk to them, isn't it?
Tyler: exactly
<Melfice Darkmage>: Yeah, that just makes them feel worse IMO
<Melfice Darkmage>: Well, usually when I try to make someone feel better, I just try and talk about something cool they've done recently that went well, and I pretty muchly go with the flow and try to talk as normal as possible. Most the time I dont' even know where to start, I just try and jump in and try to talk fast but not too fast, to try and get them to feel better ASAP. I don't know that helps much, but I do know that it's a really good idea to try and not think about the fact that you're actually trying, not just talking normally like you usually would.
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<Melfice Darkmage>: Well, usually when I try to make someone feel better, I just try and talk about something cool they've done recently that went well, and I pretty muchly go with the flow and try to talk as normal as possible. Most the time I dont' even know where to start, I just try and jump in and try to talk fast but not too fast, to try and get them to feel better ASAP.
<Melfice Darkmage>: I don't know that helps much, but I do know that it's a really good idea to try and not think about the fact that you're actually trying, not just talking normally like you usually would.
Tyler: my approach is this:
Tyler: tell them to play ddr
<Melfice Darkmage>: hehehe, get their mind off the problems eh ;)
Tyler: that's as far as I got
Tyler: ;)
<Melfice Darkmage>: get their groove on
<Melfice Darkmage>: lol
Tyler: nah I think I can deal with him now
<Melfice Darkmage>: cool :)
Tyler: it's someone I know in real life
Session Close (Tyler): Tue Apr 22 22:18:14 2003
Session Start (MSN - marcasitenexus@hotmail.com:Lance): Sun Apr 27 14:56:15 2003
Lance: holy crap are you still asleep?
<<Melfice>>-On a Snooze Cruise: no lol
<<Melfice>>-On a Snooze Cruise: I forgot to change my name
Lance: o ok
Lance: hey check out this poem I wrote
Lance: Through My Eyes
By Lance Wilson
Ultimate irony’s built upon the gates of a paradise
Infest my mind with a thousand thoughts of freedom
No one escapes this hypocrisy
We all flee the sadistic hands of ones once loved
Only a flag reminds us of what we once had
All that is heard is bullets hitting innocents
And the cries of children reaching for a chance to love
This was not how it was meant to be
Th
Lance: This was our mistake
This was our paradise
We were supposed to be free
Look at life now just once through my eyes
And realize now that all of it was lies
Lance: well i tg sorry seeya
<<Melfice>>-On a Snooze Cruise: ok
Session Close (Lance): Sun Apr 27 14:58:02 2003
ession Start (MSN - marcasitenexus@hotmail.com:Lance): Sun Apr 27 22:12:31 2003
<<Melfice>> The Deimos Anomaly: Just now realized you were on :P
Lance: only 1 more hour till they post scourge stuff on mtg.com
<<Melfice>> The Deimos Anomaly: yup hehe
<<Melfice>> The Deimos Anomaly: I'm building my W/U deck right now
Lance: cool I built my tog deck and beat lee badly
<<Melfice>> The Deimos Anomaly: hahaha good
Lance: he thought he could kill me but I FOW it and he freaked out
Lance: then he played moments peace and I FOW it and he like had a shit fit
<<Melfice>> The Deimos Anomaly: lol
<<Melfice>> The Deimos Anomaly: faggot thats what he gets for makin a damage prevention deck
Lance: yeah i know
Lance: At the end of the game I said man you deck worked great it did exactly what its supposed to 'stall'
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Lance: 22 people fucking^^^^^^^^
Lance: *2
Lance: lmao
<<Melfice>> The Deimos Anomaly: lmao
Session Close (Lance): Sun Apr 27 22:55:56 2003
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this is going to take forever to write so i might just edit this a couple of times to finish everything i have to say... its kind of related to teamkills blog that he made today but it pertains to guys instead of women. i would just for once like to understand how your minds work. i met this guy and he is the sweetest person ever. but he is over possesive and we dont even go out. i told him i was going to the movies today with some female friends and he totally flipped out on me. he said he didnt want me going out or talking to people unless they are family or him... but yet he is talking to another girl. I know you guys are like oh god not one of these stories (girls complaining)but yea it is. that kind of stuff just pisses me off so much... not to mention that this whole MONTH has been awful for me. i have been home all day whenever i am not at work due to the fact that everytime i step out of my house other than to go to work something bad happens to me. it hasnt failed once yet this month. do you guys beleive in witchcraft and what not? i have been so stressed lately i cant even think. and whats worse is that i am having a bad week or whatever and when he calls he is in a bad mood or something and his feelins and thoughts are so negative that they start to bring me down even more :S I usually write my emotions in a notebook i have but i have written pages upon pages today and its been of no use so i am hoping that this might be of some use.
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this is going to take forever to write so i might just edit this a couple of times to finish everything i have to say... its kind of related to teamkills blog that he made today but it pertains to guys instead of women. i would just for once like to understand how your minds work. i met this guy and he is the sweetest person ever. but he is over possesive and we dont even go out. i told him i was going to the movies today with some female friends and he totally flipped out on me. he said he didnt want me going out or talking to people unless they are family or him... but yet he is talking to another girl. I know you guys are like oh god not one of these stories (girls complaining)but yea it is. that kind of stuff just pisses me off so much... not to mention that this whole MONTH has been awful for me. i have been home all day whenever i am not at work due to the fact that everytime i step out of my house other than to go to work something bad happens to me. it hasnt failed once yet this month. do you guys beleive in witchcraft and what not? i have been so stressed lately i cant even think. and whats worse is that i am having a bad week or whatever and when he calls he is in a bad mood or something and his feelins and thoughts are so negative that they start to bring me down even more :S I usually write my emotions in a notebook i have but i have written pages upon pages today and its been of no use so i am hoping that this might be of some use.
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this is going to take forever to write so i might just edit this a couple of times to finish everything i have to say... its kind of related to teamkills blog that he made today but it pertains to guys instead of women. i would just for once like to understand how your minds work. i met this guy and he is the sweetest person ever. but he is over possesive and we dont even go out. i told him i was going to the movies today with some female friends and he totally flipped out on me. he said he didnt want me going out or talking to people unless they are family or him... but yet he is talking to another girl. I know you guys are like oh god not one of these stories (girls complaining)but yea it is. that kind of stuff just pisses me off so much... not to mention that this whole MONTH has been awful for me. i have been home all day whenever i am not at work due to the fact that everytime i step out of my house other than to go to work something bad happens to me. it hasnt failed once yet this month. do you guys beleive in witchcraft and what not? i have been so stressed lately i cant even think. and whats worse is that i am having a bad week or whatever and when he calls he is in a bad mood or something and his feelins and thoughts are so negative that they start to bring me down even more :S I usually write my emotions in a notebook i have but i have written pages upon pages today and its been of no use so i am hoping that this might be of some use.
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Anyone know how to get rid of that damned blue block in your personal blog?
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Weed happened. 3 bowls at Danny's, 2 at "The Glen" and half at Dave's.
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I wrote an old friend, who ironicly use to be my arch-rival in life, to see how they where doing. Well i didn't think anything would come of it. but turns out to be a pandora's box of wierd shit and spring snakes.
she then calls, nothing wrong with that. Except its 3:00 in the morning!!!! screaming about being in the hospital and such. this pissed my mom off cause i was not home and did i mention it was 3:00 in the morning. so I get bitched at when i get home in the morning, was at my dad's that night.
she then emails me and such, all emails seem normal but u know they are covering over something sinister, wierd and freaking twisted. she also tells me she is getting married, or is, i forget and dont really care. and gives me a name that sounds, well ah unreal or not right. so i am like WTF is going on and WTF did i just get my ass into.
anyways she talks to me online with alot of questions and typical funky text, oviously what she is saying is covering something dark up and points of it do show.
My guess is this poor girl is mentaly wacked out of her skull. similar to another girl i know. This one tells me of violent nigthmares and rape dreams. when she called me she probably had such a dream.
I was like, but didnt say it to her, "why the fuck dont you talk to ur boyfriend/husband about it???" which makes me think that this guy doent even exsist, but i dont think she is that nutso.
ahh the fun life of good old seph, WTF is my luck to get all the crazy ass bitches. Christ! It sucks! and i aint gonna try and get some from a crazy cause u know what they do next. they come after u with a knife or panzerfaust or something. -
Anyone know how to get rid of that damned blue block in your personal blog?
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Tristan: done yet?
Tristan: wut is this fricken fight over neway?
Tristan: fine
Tristan: don't answer me
Melfice: I was in the bathroom....
Tristan: o ok
Melfice: w/e I don't care anymore just don't bring it up and it'll be forgotten.
Tristan: wtf is ur problem tonight? thas wut I wanna know
Melfice: 1.) I want to get out of town for atleast a day...badly. 2.) Coleman is playing Diablo again. 3.) I'm tired of fucking nin.com and its stupid smudge 4.) I'm pissed at Lance because we've been wanting to do a band for a while, and now on my last year in Nevada he decides he wants to do it, when we coulda done it last year when he was doing that stupid band with Tim instead. 5.) Alot of other shit
Tristan: ok...where does taking this all out on me come in?
Tristan: and tell me...is any of that as bad as me probably fucking up my life for good? I can't sleep now it worries me so much
Tristan: but u must be tired of a lot considerin ur too tired to fight back for once
Melfice: Well fucking live with it the rest of us do when we screw up. It's not like you ruined total fucking perfection or some shit. Life sucks, get a helmet
Tristan: ...
Melfice: Yeah, I'm in a very bad mood
Tristan: I never had perfection...all I had were my hopes an dreams an now I may not have that
Tristan: wut is there to live for?
Melfice: I said its not "like"
Melfice: that was a comparison
Melfice: Its called quit being one-tracke-minded and maybe you'd find something else to live for except for your one plan that you didn't seem to have a back-up plan for incase it screwed up.
Melfice: Meh
Tristan: it's called go to sleep b/c ur too bitchy to talk to ppl
Tristan: pretty sad when u hafta take it out on sumone that din't even fuckin know nething wz up til u played block god
Melfice: Heh, I have been asleep. I woke up about an hour ago, went to sleep around 6 pm
Melfice: You know I'm always trying to fuckin help people with their problems and shit, yet I'm sitting here fuckin lonely and I'm fucking gay and people can't understand why I'm pissed its because no one fuckin ever gives back to me while I go around giving all the time. I get tired of hearing everyone elses fucking problems when I go around helpin people out all the time and no one else gives me anything back for the trouble. I'm fuckin tire of people arguing with me when I've damn well probed my point, and
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Melfice: You know I'm always trying to fuckin help people with their problems and shit, yet I'm sitting here fuckin lonely and I'm fucking gay and people can't understand why I'm pissed its because no one fuckin ever gives back to me while I go around giving all the time.
Melfice: I get tired of hearing everyone elses fucking problems when I go around helpin people out all the time and no one else gives me anything back for the trouble. I'm fuckin tire of people arguing with me when I've damn well probed my point, and they're so damned full of themselves that they refuse to die and just lay there proven wrong
Tristan: being gay isn't an excuse
Tristan: an u know I listen to u
Tristan: u jus said the other night ur glad to be able to help me for a change
Melfice: Yeah, but you can't help me, can you?
Tristan: after all I've doen for u
Tristan: *done
Tristan: no...no one can
Tristan: u won't let them
Melfice: Yeah, you're an acception from people in general
Tristan: nor do u know how to let them
Melfice: No one can help me.
Tristan: well...if u dun even know wut's wrong w/ urself how can they?
Melfice: Because there aren't any fucking gay people besides me in our fucking school that is truly gay and they can't possibly understand, they're too fucking ignorant and dumb to beable to comprehend something that's that different from them
Tristan: what does being gay hafta do w/ nething?
Tristan: so wut...ur gay
Tristan: big deal
Tristan: I don't care
Melfice: BECAUSE I'M FUCKING ALONE YOU DUMBSHIT
Tristan: an u'll find sumone eventually
Melfice: God
Tristan: ur alone eh?
Tristan: alone
Tristan: glad to know I'm nothing
Melfice: Maybe I'm tired of it
Melfice: Are you gay?
Melfice: No
Tristan: do I hafta be gay for u to have sumone?
Meathead> Yeah, I'm that guy that does the Meathead Perspective on the site: You missed the point entirely
Tristan: NO
Melfice: Well maybe I want more than just a friend
Tristan: y is that such a big deal? u have much more to life than high school
Tristan: u'll prolly meet sumone ur first year of college
Tristan: there is more to life than a love relationship...friends r important too
Tristan: don't forget ur friends
Tristan: u seem to a lot of the time
Melfice: Yeah well I've been alone for 5 fucking years and counting. YOu know, you have it easy, because you already have someone, you can't possibly understand what its like to be in my position. I may have friends, and that's good, but the matter of the fact is is that I'm not going to beable to go any farther than that with any of them
Tristan: I jus...dun get u chris...I'm not sure u get urself...but if u do...fill me in...
Tristan: an o yes...I have it easy...not much easier than u
Melfice:: Your problem is that you can't get me, you can't understand me as hard as you may try. You never will beable to understand me until you've been in my shoes (god that's such a cleshe)
Tristan: I fucked up there too
Melfice: *cleche even
Tristan: sure...I may have the love of my life
Tristan: but wut good does it do me?
Dr. Tristan Claypool DVM: b/c of it I'll be 26 w/ 3 kids an hardly ne money
Tristan: I'll be ur regular bum
Tristan: love is nice...but it's not nice so early in life
Melfice: Yeah, you also had a ton of others to choose from if you needed. What do I have? No one, maybe people inside an internet chatroom that I'll never meet
Tristan: I may not change it for nething...but still
Tristan: a ton of others?
Tristan: puhlease
Tristan: I'm as picky as a guy gay
Tristan: an I still din't get everything I wan
Tristan: *gay guy
Meathead> Yeah, I'm that guy that does the Meathead Perspective on the site: I can't even afford to be picky! Why? Because there's not one person, so I can't even NOT be picky! I can't do anything
Melfice: See you missed the point of what I said though. The point was is that there's alot of girls out there, you're a guy, if you weren't so damned picky, you coulda had a number of different girls, while here I am, I'm gay, I'm a guy, there aren't any other gay or even bi guys around, I got no one. That's the point
Tristan: I'd be happy
Tristan: do u have an e on ur las name or not?
Tristan: I've never spent me time spellin it
Melfice: there is an e
Tristan: jus makin sure
Tristan: b4 I sent u this
Tristan: not sure if I should
Tristan: I should prolly delete it from my site
Tristan: I wrote it earlier b4 u got on
Tristan: here is an excerpt from my site:
Tristan: I'd also like to thank Chris Wolfe for all he has taught me about being different. I know I'll never be able to see it his way, but atleast I know with his help I've been given a different view at life.
Tristan: does it give u credit where it is due?
Tristan: shit
Tristan: I forgot a part
Tristan: k
Tristan: fixed it
Tristan: I'd also like to thank Chris Wolfe for all he has taught me about being different. He was always a good friend to me and I hope we can stay friends through it all. I know I'll never be able to see it his way, but atleast I know with his help I've been given a different view at life.
Tristan: it's a small part
Tristan: but a good one I think
Melfice: ...yeah...it does...
Tristan: but
Tristan: I can get rid of it if u wish
Melfice: No, leave it
Tristan: I'll let u think about that for a while
Melfice: It'll leave people wondering, anyone who thinks I'm gay will probably find that as something to use to say that its true, but I honestly don't care
Tristan: they can wonder all they want
Tristan: but they can't change the truth
Melfice: yeah
Melfice: heh, fuck it. I always like to keep people wondering anyway
Tristan: lol
Tristan: u've kept me wondering
Tristan: so ur doin ur job
Melfice: lol, tonight musta been a good example
Tristan: yes
Tristan: (Link: http://thunderorb.tripod.com/aboutme2.html)http://thunderorb.tripod.com/aboutme2.html
Tristan: here is the page if u wanna read it
Melfice: "fiance, Jessica. She has been there through it all. She neve " left the r off of never lol
Tristan: I already fixed it
Melfice: d'oh
Tristan: lol
Tristan: so
Tristan: wut r u thinking?
Melfice: hmm
Melfice: Right now I'm thinking about nothing in particular. Hmm...actually I'm thinking I wish I could hurry up and get my hair cut
Tristan: lol
Tristan: nice
Tristan: a mood swing perhaps?
Melfice: I don't know, I wouldn't call it that.
Tristan: wut would u call it?
Melfice: Dunno, but I hate the word mood-swing. Just sounds stupid
Tristan: lol
Tristan: change of feelings?
Melfice: Na, too scientific. I'll come up with something :P
Tristan: lol
Meathead> Yeah, I'm that guy that does the Meathead Perspective on the site: Hmm, Disturbed. thats about right! I'm a disturbed person
Tristan: I coulda told u that
Melfice: rofl
Tristan: anyone ever told u u laugh like an old people?
Tristan: lol
Melfice: It doesn't think. It doesn't feel. It doesn't laugh or cry. All it does from dusk till dawn is make the preppies die.
Dr. Tristan Claypool DVM: I've only seen u an the older ppl I talk to use rofl
Tristan: I use it occasionally
Tristan: but I already knew I'm old
Melfice: Heh, actually I made it a thing to use rofl here lately because I've used lmao so much in the last week
Tristan: I use lmfao sumtimes
Melfice: next week it'll probably be lmfao
Tristan: week after it'll be rofc
Tristan: rolling on floor crying
Melfice: o_O
Melfice: heh
Tristan: or maybe lshpirdml
Melfice: ...
Tristan: laughing so hard piss is running down my leg
Melfice: uh...no
Tristan: lol
Tristan: 've seen ppl use it
Tristan: *I've
Melfice: well...I have no intentions of doing so, heh
Tristan: good
Tristan: it scares me'
Tristan: so...how do u think the site is comin along?
Tristan: I lil slowly perhaps considerin I barely work on it
Tristan: cept late night
Melfice: :P
Melfice: decently
Tristan: find out how to indent yet?
Melfice: nope
Tristan: I'm bored
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Tristan: how bout u?
Melfice: Yeah, I'm kinda bored
Tristan: r u gonna keep in touch w/ my after hs?
Tristan: *me
Melfice: Yeah, more than likely.
Melfice: I probably will with all of my friends some how or another
Melfice: One thing that's been bothering me lately is I've been tugging myself in two directions. At one point I still really care about Coleman but on the other side I've been trying to make myself not care at all and treat him as a friend. Neither side lasts long before I switch back to the other, meh, I'm confusing myself and making myself an emmotional wreck
Tristan: I'd say don't worry bout it
Tristan: I mean
Tristan: I know that souns stupid
Tristan: but really
Tristan: jus dun think bout it
Melfice: Well, its like, he's been really busy lately, and hasn't been around much at all. For about two weeks after I told him the way I felt about him I kept worrying that it'd ruin our friendship, regardless if he said it didn't change anything between us. I finally just came forward and asked him, and he said that he meant that and that he's just been busy working lately, especially since he's working a freakin nightshift right now. My thing is I'm trying to stop myself from caring too deeply about him before I finally do do something to screw our friendship up
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I was reading a discussion thread on the "movie" Gigli, and was inclined to make the following comments:
Take 40% of all women the same age as these supermodels, put them through the same makeup, professional-greasing, airbrushing techniques, and you people will be saying the exact same things {Oogling about how sexy they are} about every one of them. Guaranteed.
There's nothing special or different about these celebrities, other than the fact that they're celebrities and have been given a lot of airtime!
Pretty faces like Jennifer Lopez probably account for 10-15% of the world's population. I don't see what the big deal is. I think it's totally irrational to pretend that there's anything special about these female celebrities, when it's only because they've been arbitrarily selected to bo put through beautification techniques, and placed on a pedestal. -
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Well, I just came back from walking to Subway for lunch/dinner. When I was almost there, I passed some late teens/early 20s guys (3 I think). While passing by, one of the guys called towards me "Hey GiJoe, I want some gas" which was probably referring because I was wearing urban camo shorts. While almost out of one of the guy's voice distance, they kept calling me for some reason. I said to myself "What the fuck..." and when I heard the same guy try and piss me off with verbal insults or something , I turned around and gave them the finger and proceeded to Subway after they all were out of speaking/yelling range. They were waiting on a red light so they couldn't follow and bother me.
I had myself a footlong sweet onion chicken teriyaki on italian herbs and cheese bread along with a 20 ounce cup of Dr. Pepper and a small bag of harvest chedder flavored Sun Chips while at Subway. All this costed me $7.49 out of the $8 I had with me.
On the way back and almost home, something green and crumbled up on the concrete caught my attention. It was a $20 bill, so strangly I said "woot woot" lowly for excitement or something. I got home and told my mother I found 20 bucks on the ground. I put the $20 in my glass money jar in my desk, then proceeded to write this blog. -
Many of you may hve read my previous post about my computer crashing. I have been posting on a $5/30 minute computer cafe comp. But today is my last day in the town where I'm on vacation, so I may not post for a while, depending on how long it takes to get a new computer. However, it could very well be a few days-weeks, and I will sign back on when I'm able.
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