Sephiroth

PS2, or any in general, fanboys are funney. this kid was maybe 13-15 and was bitching about doom3 not being on the PS2, he was saying that the PS2 was better than any computer.

i looked at hims and said "ahhh....no... most any computer will far out preform the PS2 or any console for that matter. as long as it has a decenet vid card." the kid got snooty with me and i said "look, the Ps2 is fun but there is no way it could every handle doom III, the xbox is even on the low end." the kid got upset and left, a few of us got a kick out of that cause we get stuff like that every day. the best one was a woman wanting to know if the GBA played DVD movies

for those who know nothing about animals... i give you... the worlds only.... venomous mammal
http://www.expasy.org/spotlight/articles/sptlt029.html


however i have heard that shrews and moles may also secreat a small amount of toxin in their saliva. however this animal really injects it into you, in an rather odd way.

all i know is it can kill my dog any day. however i hear they hurt like a real bitch and often a nerve block is needed to treat the intense pain caused by the venom

well it happened agian. watching a friend's snake for the winter and it gets loose in the house.
this one is much smaller than the redtail that got out. and unlike the redtail it isn't 5 feet away.

however both my dad and I could hear the animal moving in the night. so now i have a good idea where it is. when i get off work tonight is when i will look

When i think of my past it becomes difficult. It is often hazy and unclear. often times because relatives lie to cover up the past or because they didn't know what was going on. Also an inceident 5 years ago took alot of recent memmories. However one thing in my mind does stand out. I know how i felt and i understood many things.

What has made me think about this is some community work i have been doing. I never thought of my self as a person that would like kids or that kids would even like. I tend not to deal with stress very well and often become deffensive. however how i react often depends on the person. I am more prone to become violent if the agitator is older, around 30's, and more so if it is a woman. Also a man who is older and bigger. oddly i am not distrustful towards women. considering those who hurt me the most were women.

three weeks ago I gave a 3rd grade class a presentation. Usally our groups are mixed crowds of children and adults. to add to the mix it was at a religious school. so i had to rewrite my work with both in mind. most of the originals deal with breeding and evolution. However the children were intelligent, but still asked questions i expected. Also the school was small. which made it easy to get in an out. and for once the animals behaved, mainly the skink.

The way the children reacted was a dark reminder of who i was. I am sure there are some there who share my pain. In those days there was only one thing i was trying to do, stay alive and get out. My family life hit the fan at that age. my mother left and my father brought in a new girl. At first we liked her and began to trust her. Until she became abusive. Unlike other children i didn't think i was the cause and i stood up. the abuse lasted for another 4 years. after the first 2 i came to a dark conclusion "the bitch must die!" it is possible i even considered suicide if i failed to kill her. certianly failing such a thing would be bad. The plan was simple. slit her throat in the night after she passed out from drinking. I knew killing was wrong, but i knew it was either her or me. I later, that year, stabbed her in a knife fight. she was drunk and dropped her knife. a mistake i made sure she would not forget. I stuck the short knife into her upper leg. She then punched me and hobbled away. I was 10 years old at the time, maybe 11. She later got a nasty infection from the wound.

what makes me think about such things is the letters from the children. There is no darkness. They are happy and the children sound like they were excited to see the animals. I am sure many of them have no idea how cruel the world can be. Oddly, and touching, is the fact they liked having me there. Mainly because a part of me is very distrustful and my view is that all people are going to act the same way toawrds me. I know reality is different and depends on the person, but it still surprises me how trusting people can be. in contrast my writings were cryptic and dark. I recently went over some of mine from that age. I often spoke of a monster who would brings a violent death to those who slept. Sometimes i was more direct and wrote about a dream were i had been shot. Teachers often dismissed this because i was from a different culture or because all boys dream about monsters and guns. These would usally be mixed in with standard childish things and my interest in electronics and machienes. I may not remember much but i do know i did have times of peace and happiness.

I have learned alot about my self in the last 4 years. I have learned that i missed out on many important life lessons and that i learned many that should never have to be learned. I also learned how close i was to continuing the cycle of my faimily. I also see why children should be taken more seriously.

I am a different person now. I don't fear for my life and i am more trusting. however i do bear the old wounds and lessons of those days. I have a stricter point of view towards drugs and abuse. I am very criticle of other family memmbers aswell and have all but broken off contact with my dad's side of the family.

in a law that may have passed, which banns exotic pets, has a slight hole.

chameleons are not in the bann some how

here is apic of one of my 2 setups
http://www.mvras.org/images/chamleon.jpg


however i need not worry if the ban did pass the city has no intention to inforce it, hell cant even afford to have the needed amount on ploice officers. they only did it to get special intrest crack-pot groups off their backs.

needless to say that animal has a far better life than it would most likly have in the wild and it is captive breed. the cage is a 100 gallon all screen mesh cage, it doesnt look 100 gallon but it is much deeper. also has 2 lights, looks like one. the front one simply provides normal white light, the back is a HIDL type light for the full spectrum lighting. a jug and dripping system can be slightly seen. this is done every day to give the humid tropical enviroment. this is the type of setup needed by chameleons, they cant live in glass aquariums

once agian am i rebuilding the classic game PC. this time i have found some of my better parts.
anyways specs time
Intel Pentium pro 200Mhz 256k cache
96MB system RAM
4MB sis video with 3dfx voodoo 2 12MB 3d accelrator. plan on buying another voodoo 2 and runing SLI.
4GB maxtor hard drive, 5400RPM
soundblaster AWE64, a great card for older games.

i have some concerns about the pentium pro CPU. i have heard it runs kinda bad in 16bit mode. also i think it lacks the MMX ability.

however my p133 system ran very well and had similar specs. minus the voodoo2. i was saddened to have never gotten one. until now.

now for the games list
GL quake
half-life
quake2
tombradier 1 & 2
doom, duh
keen 4, 5 & 6
wolf3d


have any of you guys ever used a pentium pro for such a task? i just used it because the base system was already built and i did not feel like digging thru trying to find a good working pentium board.

is it really that god damn cool to rev your motorcycle in front of your house for fucking 15 minutes, every day at 3:00PM?
NO! first off no one is impressed! everyone who lives here is eaither at work then, at school or doesn't give a shit.
dont get me wrong i love motorcycles and such but when i am sleeping... ahh no. i guess he is just trying to make his penis 6 inches longer, after all he finaly left his wife cause she cheated on him 6 times. legaly he should have tossed her out considering he made 90% of the income, and owned 80% of eveything in the house.

but no, he has to live on this street and rev his cycle every free moment he has. i had asked him not to do it, and yes he has stoped to a degree. I usallyget home just before he does and go to bed until 6 or i am in bed waiting to get up at 4:00 to work the night shift.

had a toe nail removed today, and that shit hurts. well the numbing of it hurt worse than the removal. just like peeling a orange only its your toe.

any of you guys have this done?

atleast they gave me good pain killers

my cousin brought back her makeshift computer. mainboard seems dead, mainly a riser card. which i had replaced before. in the mean time i let here barrow a system of mine

a pentium 166 MMX
50MB RAM
6GB hard drive
S3 graphics
and an AC97 sound card
it is also AT standard so she has to use a serial mouse and an AT keyboard.

anyways what is funny is when she got home she wanted to play with her web cam, ha i told here. this thing is only for basic email. it has NO USB. on top of that it is only windows 95, last version.

i dont even know if it can handle Mp3

well the date for my transfer has come... and gone. the SOB's are just dicking with me as far as i can tell. i started asking about being switched to sales or tech in late june. i finaly got word that i WOULD be moved on or by 9/1 from a manager. personaly i dont care which.
one reason is it would give me more choice in hours for school. second it would be work i enjoy doing and do well. my manger told me they need a replacement first, ok should have taken care of that a month or so ago. also i should have more of a choice than say some random person off the street. unless that guy has more certifications or some degree, in which case i would not mind, i should get the job i asked for.
this has screwed me out of going back to school this quater. and as far as i know they have no plans on moving me. they most likely want me there for christmas which will be a no go.
if they want to play the screwing game i will get them back. if i hear nothing by months end i will either sign on with the military or look for another job. then put in my 2 weeks, which would screw them when large shipments started arriving.

could it be racism? I am am albanian, who the fuck knows. all i know is they have been lying to me for the last 3 months about this. either tell me the truth or do what i asked.

its pretty shitty when they say you got a job and you start planning for school and then you find out they have done nothing, and then they give the job to some random person who knows nothing about the job. come on i have been with the company for over a year.

well a woman wants me to call her to see how her computer is doing. she leaves a number. so i dial that number to get "you must dial a 1 or a 0 before dialing this number" the i try both, well i get "dial the area code" message. I assume her area code is 937 because she lives like a mile from here. i dial the full number to get "this number has been disconnected" on my caller id it just shows the 7 digit number. so the is bassicly no way to contact her. So maybe next time she will give me the full fucking number.... or pay her damn bills.

well tried all local area codes and none worked, so fuck her. she should have had the common sence to tell me the correct phone number.

anyone know any trick to find out the area code

my pet skink of 6 weeks is now dead, ok for those younger views, "he just aint fresh anymore"

ok ok there is a bit of freshness there, but he has been affected by the doom status effect and i dont have any esuna or remedy's to use, and i dont got any pheonix down either. so basicly he is screwed

never done it until this weekend.

basicly it is taking a laptop, or PDA and listening for wireless networks.

i did this going up and coming back from my grandparents home. too bad i dont have a gps.

things i learned
about 75% of these networks were not encrypted.
channels 6 and 11 are the most popular.
83% of them used default SSID's
netgear was the most popular, fallowed by linksys, cisco and PCX500. D-link and microsoft were rare.
the most popular speed was 11mbps and 22mbps. very few 54g and no detected 108g connections.
one guy had his address as the SSID
one guy must really like M.C. Hammer. with the SSID of "hammertime"

well, late night google searchs can give u some odd results, my odd i mean "what the fuck is that?" results
i would post the link but... i am not sure it is porn. it is a cartoon of a hippo on a floor eating and the hippo has 6 saggy tits. just plane wierd.

i found this doing an image search for "pyramid head" i needed an image of the baddy from silent hill 2

in the case of my father this is true. either out of pure stupidity or brain damaged caused by years of drug abuse the guy still thinks my brtoher has a job. more importantly he belived he worked for a construction company for 6 months.

however i know the reality. my brother worked at a construction company a grand total of only a few days. hired may 25th and fired june 8th, tools returned june 11th. my brother sold possesions to get by. includeing his gamecube, games, CD's, car parts and otehr things.

i know this info because i am good friends with the family.

frankly i am tired of it. mainly because this leech gets away with it and gets what he wants. granted i was given a car, but he was given a new car. i bought all my stuff, i pay rent and i pay for my internet, my insurance, soon my medical and everything else. I locked him off all the computers. I didn't really mind but now it is getting worse. the dumbfuck has gotten hired and fired 3 times this month. also he has taken to betting and street racing for money.

I know one thing. i don't forgive such ignorance. If his life is in danger, he gets killed or is put in jail i will NOT care, nor come to his aid. he wants to continue in my father's foot steps, fuck him.

hey if anyone wants a useless fat 19 year old kid who is only good for slave labor in a death camp let me know!

remember that whole deal with the 10 commandments being removed in some southern state?
well personaly i could care less but find it funny that people bitch anyways, both sides.
"has the government abandoned god?" was one quote, listed on AOL.
well duh, and it cant be even in league with god, or zues, allaha, denaude-kess, shiva or any others. there is this thing called seperation of church and state, duh.
otherwise we would have ourselves a nice tali-ban like government (but oh wait, because it is CHRISTIAN it is alright.) yes i have heard that.

anyways what where your thoughts on that and other similar incident.


other things that crack me up are the "book lists"
these are books rated offensive by fundalmentalist groups.
books in ton ten are usally like "harry potter" and various pokemon and other childrens books.
what about new satan worship books, mien kampf, and books writen by the group call 'the church of christians' (a neo-nazi group with ties to domestic terrorism) infact i have seen them even recomend books from the church of christians(i hope its just cause they are ignorant of what that group is about).

so what do u feel about religipon in government.

flame away i guess

when i worked at a 1 hour photo lab there where many rules as to pictures and such.
basics where

sexual pictures can not be printed if they involve animals and people, more than 4 people, or children. beastalia is illegal in many of the towns here. however anything else went

photos depicting crimes or violence may be subject to investigation.

needless to say i never saw anything like that. though yes many many nude women.


however at best buy we now also have similar rules. and with more regulairty are we catching people with illegal material. i know of 3 times people have been caught with childporn.

rules we have there about file types and such. though we are not looking for this stuff, if we find it we must act.
all viruses are to be removed or drive will be formatted and BIOS cleared
pornography with people/animals, children or REAL violence may be subjected to investigation. furry porn is deleted, heh.
MP3's for P2P programs will be deleted, offten times as this is a source of a virus.


anyways it is just comical that people, say with child porn, would take a computer into best buy to have it repaired. though we dont look for these things they are found when we test files for viruses and spyware. i dont know if the Mp3 things is official or not, but the techs do it (usally because it is a source of viruses)

i do know of one incident where a man had stashed drugs and money inside his computer. he later took it to best buy and had forgoten to remove the stuff, he walked out in hand cuffs. another time a half full clipp of 9mm ammo was found jammed into a VCR. I know at another store there was a unloaded pistol in a laptop bag, the woman had forgotten to take it out

well the good news is that i FINALY started my new job. so this means more choice in hours and a job i will enjoy doing more.

but after work it became a somewhat bad day. first i discovered i am to work tuesday night. i gave them instructions that i am unable to work on the evening of the third tuesday of the month. to add to the stress car needs more work. the front right wheel is fucked up. I think it is the bearings, which i dout is cheap. this sets me back agian. now i will not be able to go to school this winter. nor can i afford to sell the car

well some ass hat broke into my car and decided to steal my Prize CD's. however nothing else was taken as far as i know. This is one of a few recent car break in on my street, first thought was the people at my brother's party last night. however after speaking with the officer and knowing these people have have put them to the back.

my next list of suspects is the "bad ass" down the street, my brother's friends little brother (has a record of car theft) and a person buming it across the street.

One clue i have is... half a belt. A belt i almost instantly recognise however i can fit a the person with it. one reason i remember the belt is because last time i saw it in use, it has beaten and half a tear in it. well it oviously tore all the way in my car. so i am gonna talk to my suspects today, and if i feel like it bust some heads.

I reported the crime. however they neighbors said if i find out who and get the stuff back, there is a reward. or failing that bring the prick to them so we can hold a smack down.

i will warn everyone, NEVER buy a main board from PC CHips! they are complete junk. i just got my second, DOA board. Seriously, WTF is up with them? the first i got 2 months ago for a new system, it arived DOA and so did its replacement. finally got a check refund and i made them pay for the damn shipping. the second i got last week for a repair job, it is DOA! all are PC chips made boards. for now on i am sticking to MSI and ASUS who i have never had any problems with.

so if u need a new main board stay away from PC chips and aviod the head ache of many DOA boards. This time i want a check refund. i ordered it from a local shop so i will have them trade me for a different brand if i can.

killing rats for snake food can be messy. even worse for a skink.

keep in mind if you love rats or own pet rats, dont read!





i mean i do have to feed these animals and live food is good for them.




i "brain" the live rat so that the animal smells the fresh blood. this is usally a quick, but violent end for the rat.
in this case a baby rat. and rather than cutting it in half i stabed it with a sharp knife. the entrance wound went down threw the back and exited just below the rib cage on the left side. the kife only penetrated the left side.

i figured on instant death, normaly to kill rat pups or pinkies i stab them. however i am amzed by the fact that 1/2 half an hour later the animal is alive and well. acts like a normal rat. though it sounds a bit cruel i am letting it live. i must hit hit the money spot and missed the heart and all major artieries. more amzing is this is an animal smaller than a mouse, about 2.5 inches. the entrance wound is a little over 1/4 inch and exit is 1/8. mishapps happen but never like this.

live prey is messy, but it is cool to watch a snake or lizard eat a rat pinkie or pup.

having worked at best buy for slightly over a year i am moving on to another department. to their tech service. reason is better hours and a job i would enjoy doing. not that i really have any major bitches about my current position, except on truck nights.

no more putting up heavy boxes, refrigerators, TV's and stuff like that.

well i love versions 3.1X to windows2000 (minus winME)
a neighbor was having issues with boot on her new system. so i checked it out. well it boots up normal and runs for about a minute until in shutsdown, and repeats. it gives and error about RPC, and by the nature i am asuming this has something to do with activation in XP. she has had the system 1 month to this day. So i check out the microsoft site and it tells me to use the activation in system tools, guess what. NOT INSTALLED!!!! christ! this is total bullshit. know one at dell told this poor woman that she had to activate windowsXP.

anyway i tried booting into safe mode, wouldn't let me. tired shuting off RPC, wouldnt let me.
so how do i kill this damn program so i can do what i need.

are there any programs out there that can kill this thing and remove it.

heh

strangly this is not the first such incident. i saw a short clip on the news about it the other day.

http://www.orlandosentinel.com/news/local/orl-bk-tigger040204,0,396560.story?coll=orl-home-headlines
anyway it is about a man accused of 'molesting' a girl and her mother at disney land.

i tell you disney is evil, evil

next time aviod the disney mascots, i know i do

mvras.org

i am about half way done bebugging that mess. for now on i guess i will do it all in a text editor.

i used a graphical program, looked real nice and was layed out all correct. however it would not keep setting. so i kept having to go into the code and set it to stay, example the MVRAS logo box would not stay centered until i put that into to code, that is also why all the link boxes are wierd like that.

Also halfway thru i realized i needed to setup the image locations. so had to go back and do that. i am gonna take a break before finishing. so look at it and laught.

the only thing the graphical thing was good for was backgound colors.