silentzorah

2000 to 2008. And then that was that. Without going into too much detail, goth girlfriend.

Not having vertical aim and not being able to turn off autoaim. Yeah, I know. This pretty much limits my source port usage to maybe three? I played it the old way with autoaim for years, but I like being able to aim my shots, and, most importantly, miss. I like knowing if I missed a shot, it's because I suck ass and not the game screwing with me.

"Yo Shawn, played through Bloodfalls. Don't forget to set the UV flag on the BFG."

Distortion Guitar. I mean... It's like 90% of my discography.

Me nowadays.

Tweaking things that don't ordinarily make things go splat so that they do go splat. Sure, knocking down zombies with a shotgun at point blank range is fun, but not quite on the level of blowing the damn thing to bits at the same range.

I didn't mind the texture filtering until I got a larger monitor. Now I can't stomach it and turned it off.

Atari 5200. I liked it. Granted, it was the first console I ever owned, but still. The games on there were a lot closer to their arcade counterparts, and it had Star Raiders. That game was so cool.

Whether or not I'm working, I bake a strawberry cake the night before, cook up some apple turnovers for breakfast and order Coletta's pizza (local joint). It's a real hole in the wall but it's the kind of hole in the wall that makes the best shit. Then I usually work in some range time somewhere between shifts. Not always a possibility but that's what days off are for. Oh, and I pretty much do this all alone, away from family and the like. They know I'm not a people person so they leave me alone (thank fucking lord).

When I used to map, I would listen to science documentaries on black holes and quantum physics. It was nice.

Burntside Lake, MN. June 2022

If we're counting Doom95, that. If not, Boom.

Scruffy. Always scruffy.

I'm not good at danmaku either.

I commissioned a friend to draw a character I've been drawing for years. She's kind of like my mascot. Full piece:

He's balanced. Davoth is another story, though. Yes, he's just a big marauder, but I can't stand how you have to wait for the one specific melee attack, and not the other one that looks similar but his eyes don't glow.

A couple minutes. I like to take my time and enjoy it. Music's great.

UV Fast, yes. UV, no. Maybe before a key grab, but that's about it.

I gotta admit, it's catchy.

No. There are these floating flaming horned skull things, though. Couple of shotgun shells takes care of those.

Doom definitely bothered me at an early age, but I was young and impressionable. Nowadays, yeah, it's kinda goofy and campy. Granted, there's a whole 20+ year spread between then and today, and I've seen a lot of horrifying things since then. Lived experience definitely changes your outlook on things, that's for sure. Quake didn't bother me. Like, at all.

From what I understand, they said it would be funny to shoot nails at him in an interview.

I don't remember the movement being so icy. Maybe I'm just out of practice, it's been years since I played.