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  1. So I've lived in Brooklyn for almost five years now, gotten a degree, met lots of people, shown lots of art, and completely lost my way as far as my mental image of myself goes.

    My grandmother, who is my only living family member, got in a really bad car accident about a year ago and Alzheimer's symptoms quickly manifested. She's on the other side of the country and I hardly have enough money to house myself no less fly across the country to see her. It's tough, but I'm adjusting to the changes.

    I feel pretty alone out here sometimes, even though I have a lot of friends and colleagues and the stuff I'm doing even feels like it matters. Sometimes I legitimately feel like I'm going crazy.

    I miss being involved with online communities a lot, I miss being involved with the old style of internet interactions a lot.

    So right this second I'm between houses and looking for a place to live, working as a freelance animator and designer and busting ass, showing at a few places coming up, playing a lot of music. It all feels great and I'm trying to enjoy it, having some temporary difficulty.

    Hope everyone is well, doom 4ever yadda yadda.

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    2. Khorus


      Been quite a while since I've seen your name around, good to hear what you're up to. If you ever need someone to re-arrange any music, give me a shout. :)

    3. Creaphis


      It sounds like you're well on track to achieving your goals. That's your problem. We tend to build up in our minds how much lasting satisfaction we'll get when we accomplish something. It's better to just let your goals drift on the distant horizon.

      Also, stick around Doomworld. You'll learn more valuable, practical life lessons, just like that one.

    4. SYS


      Value is sometimes self worth. I will now feed you with motivational tripe. Honestly, love your grandma in anyway that you can.

      You're resourceful. This is just a minor bump in the grander scheme of Bank. Even if I'm blowing smoke up your bum. Go forth and kick obstacles in their sometimes abstract face. Do it for the other option will not be so pleasant from what I can gather.

  2. So I'm a year older now and it's been an exciting one at that, let's go over some highlights.

    * Moved into brownstone apartment only to move out 6 months later when landlord initiates illegal construction, evicts other tenants, turns off heat, and severs lease. I am currently living a block away in a much nicer place.

    * Celebrated my anniversary with my lovely girlfriend.

    * Stalked and harassed by estranged mother via the internet.

    * Worked on secret project for video game "Doom"

    * Had animations and illustrations featured in gallery shows.

    * Cut off my wild mane of hair for the first time in 10 years.

    * Wore a collared shirt and no jeans for the last 8 months by choice.

    * Photographed and interviewed as fashion designer during NYC's fashion's night out, despite not being a fashion designer nor making first assertion that I was.

    * Plenty of other stuff I may remember eventually.

    So I'm on the hotseat folks, ask away.

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    2. Bank


      lupinx-Kassman said:

      I like the wads you listed, but people still are doing creative things with doom. You just aren't looking around I guess. (In case it is all of the tormentor-esque stuff you're thinking about, every year has always had its plethora of uninspired crud.)

      Where did I insinuate people weren't? I merely mentioned a time period where I thought they were breaking previously unheard of boundaries...

    3. Creaphis


      Bank, you've got some nerve listing your favourite wads on a Doom forum. We don't stand for that kind of thing around here.

  3. I love wearing a suit. It is just one of those things that as a man you get to do. Surprisingly a ton of men I talk to really hate putting on anything with a collar and I don't understand this. Suits look good and personally I always feel great wearing them. I'm never uncomfortable and never feel constrained, but that's just me. You also get a lot of freedom when you wear a suit, outside of very formal occasions you have a lot of choices in color, accessories, materials, etc. Also, I always notice a positive response from perfect strangers whenever I find myself wearing a suit, whether it's a compliment on the street or a friendlier clerk at a bodega.

    It might be that a lot of people's suits don't fit, or perhaps they don't fit the suits perfectly. I'm not the tallest so it's always hard for me to find pants where the legs aren't too long because everything comes in a 32 or 33 inseam and when you're 30 it's a pain. But wearing a suit is about being a man and the right attitude can make a big difference. 60 years ago everyone wore suits, it wasn't the law and there wasn't a dress code but people did it because they were expected to. We don't expect anything out of anyone any more and there's a lot of good about that but plenty of bad too--just look at the People of Walmart.

    Anyway folks I'm interested in hearing some doomworld opinions because it seems like every picture I've ever seen of any of you guys has been a black heavy metal t-shirt and a beard.

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    2. 40oz


      Suits are pretty awesome but I hate dress shoes with a fucking passion. Let me wear sneakers and I could wear a suit all day. Tuxedoes are pretty damn cool I wore a real tuxedo that I rented for senior prom and they really do make you "feel like a million bucks"

    3. Bank


      DuckReconMajor said:

      I like wearing suits.

      I also like going to the store in pajamas.

      I'm also disappointed that that your little "Suits Look Good" thing weren't links. You can never have too many Bank pictures.

      See My Vest

      I'm originally from the west coast as well and it's true that no one really wears a suit, here in New York City I certainly see them a lot more but I also see more drag queens, homeless people, club kids, and other various white Rastafarian rollerskaters. My hair is tied back and Yes, I need the glasses to see.

    4. brinks


      Bank said:

      Made from real gorilla chest?

  4. This morning I awoke to find that all of my gmail accounts had had their passwords and recovery emails changed. I scrambled to regain control of my remaining address and other credentials. I've been able to recover one email address but the others are still MIA.

    For you gmail users: this is a bitch

    My email address was being used as a Nigerian prince style scam with my actual name on it, I don't know how many people have received the email but my broker called me this morning to make sure everything was alright.

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    2. Sharessa


      Bank said:

      Right now for the first time in a long while I'm using pen and paper.

      I need to start doing that again. Right now I'm only using variations on two passwords for everything because that's all I can remember. Back in the day I wrote everything down on a sheet of paper I kept in my desk, and probably used at least a half dozen more passwords and their variations.

    3. Super Jamie

      Super Jamie

      Danarchy said:

      Right now I'm only using variations on two passwords for everything because that's all I can remember.

      This is me. That being said they are alphanumeric with capitals, not dictionary words either. I think I'm pretty safe but I do go through them all and change a letter to a number or vice versa every few years.

    4. GreyGhost


      Remembering passwords will be a thing of the past - once our masters have us microchipped.

  5. I have never known my mother personally. When I was born my parents were not married and both had problems. My father was and is an alcoholic and my mother was addicted to cocaine--though luckily didn't do it while pregnant with me. It quickly became apparent in the first months of my life that my mother had no intention or capability to raise me so my father applied for custody and was granted it. I went to live with my grandmother and father in Phoenix, AZ where I grew up.

    I can't say I had a bad childhood because even though money was little and tension was high my grandmother is the most loving parent I could have ever asked for. My father was a good man who made stupid decisions and never did anything with his life. He was still in college when I was growing up (at the time he was over 40) and had been doing so since the first time around changing his major every time he was near graduation so he could milk more money from the federal government. My father was incarcerated when I was ten when he killed a man drunk driving and has been in prison since. I don't make contact with him, though he writes my grandmother and asks about me.

    About a year ago my mother tried to get in contact with me through a facebook friend request of all things which I quickly declined once I recognized the name. It was the first time she'd ever tried to contact me and it was already one too many. I was hoping that it would end there but it didn't.

    I'm living in New York and I get a call from my grandmother about a letter she received. It was from my mother and she dictated it to me over the phone. It was a rambling message about how much she thought about me every day and how I was kidnapped from her by my father and his mother, about how meeting her would be the adventure of a lifetime (actual words) and plenty of other fluff. It included addresses and phone numbers to contact her.

    I have no desire of meeting my mother, my entire life could have gone by without ever having heard from her and I would have been happier. That's impossible now because she's already interloped in my life and so now I'm really at an impasse. Part of me wants to call her up and tell her to leave me and my family alone but I'm afraid that will just make her more unrelenting. Another part of me wants to just let it go and do nothing, but that's what I did last time and now here I am with more interference. There's even a tiny sliver of me that wants to hear what she has to say.

    She was never a mother to me, she's certainly not family to me, and she's not the one who raised me nor the one I love. It's another roadbump in my recently hectic life and I have absolutely no idea how to address it.

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    2. myk


      Bank said:
      I think that it's just a case of a person who grew up with their parents being unable to imagine another way. I doubt I'm really as ignorant as [...] apparently some of the individuals here believe [...].

      I didn't spot anyone calling you ignorant, but it's just advice from people who've seen other things and stand on a different shore, talking to this, prodding to see if there's something more in it:

      There's even a tiny sliver of me that wants to hear what she has to say.

    3. bytor


      bytor said:

      What is that "tiny sliver" of you saying?

      Do not let resentments cause 'thinking errors' and influence your decisions on any given subject but especially on one of this magnitude.

      If anything hear her out as a fellow human being (albeit with problems) and then take it from there.

      I see you letting resentment influence you. Granted I'm not there and blah but...What is that tiny...Bank...saying?

      Just be careful and maintain composure no matter what. And hang in there.

      You're at the 'root' of something that has had major impact to your life. So much good can come out of it.

    4. Super Jamie

      Super Jamie

      Stop talking him into it. His mum's obviously an annoying nutter. The further he keeps away from her the better.

  6. Well, finally got out on my own (and a roommate) here in Brooklyn. We got a really nice and affordable brownstone close to my university.

    As we did in our dorm room, we've made a staunch promise to pay for essentially nothing except mattresses. Everything else we've found on the street such as: Amplifiers, couches, beds, armchairs, record players, TVs, stoves, washing machines, computers, keyboards, toaster ovens, microwaves, lamps, cds, tapes, about 15 large speakers, underfloor subs, pots, pans, silverware, glasses, art, and of course I once found three bags of artisan bread right after a bakery closed shop for that night.

    So if any NYC doomers wanna chill after April 15th I got a happenin pad.

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    2. Shaikoten



      Man I wish I had the option of doing curb pickups, I'm too rural though. What we do have are awesome flea markets though. Sadly it's not free junk diving, but it's junk diving nonetheless, and usually pretty close to free.

      Did you guys get any decent audio equipment?

    3. Bank


      Shaikoten said:

      Did you guys get any decent audio equipment?

      Yeah, right now we're sitting on 2 technics amps, two other panasonic amps from the 70s, 2 subs, a 5 disk cd changer, several record players one direct drive, 3 massive 5 tweeter block speakers, and about 10 big tower speakers. The rest are fairly shitty.

      All kinds of wood paneling up in this bitch too.

    4. Use


      I'd come over, but I'm afraid you may be flakey. (pick a side, jrk!)

  7. Today is my birthday and I started it off by waking up piss drunk, stumbling into the bathroom, drinking two glasses of water and immediately converting them into clear, painful acidic vomit.

    I think it is going to be a good year.

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    2. printz


      Danarchy said:

      and their response is usually just "wat". Some people have no culture.

      Didn't you take into consideration that they were making a pun?

    3. ArmouredBlood


      Danarchy said:

      You'd be surprised. I'm always making Beatles/Who/Floyd/Stones/etc. references around friends and coworkers and their response is usually just "wat". Some people have no culture.

      I generally know who they are but I'm more a funky fusion of metal/rock/jazz/classical listener than dedicated to any one genre, so backgrounds of bands is not something I specialize in.

      Then again I'm a bio major with no job who's also a RPG/arcade FPS gamer and also played in the marching, concert, and jaz bands in high school, so I'm not exactly a good example of society at large.

    4. Snakes


      Danarchy said:

      You'd be surprised. I'm always making Beatles/Who/Floyd/Stones/etc. references around friends and coworkers and their response is usually just "wat". Some people have no culture.

      Alternatively, there are people who are only cultured enough to know those 4 bands and Led Zeppelin. This is actually probably more annoying because they think that this is all that music is, was, and ever should be.

      My friend's gf is of this group, and thinks that John Lennon was the greatest philosopher of all time... at which point my response is usually just "wat".

  8. I don't know what it is about myself but I have a great deal of difficulty getting over people. I was involved with someone for only a week or two, and I've been down for over two months. I've tried everything to get over them, I know it's unhealthy to dwell on these things, I know that I didn't do anything wrong, but still deep in myself I miss her so much.

    I often have difficulty connecting with people, and when I do and the connection is severed I have a lot of trouble fixing myself and not being sad. At the time we were together she had a boyfriend that she neglected to tell me about until later, we decided to break it off on good terms and I was fine until she came back for me. Then when she eventually left me because "it wasn't right" I could barely handle it. Now she's single but won't give me another chance. I tried hating her but it didn't work because I don't and it didn't make me feel better. I am really tired of being sad all the time. Every time I see her my heart drops.

    I know that this is all bad. I know I should be over her. I know I don't even have a chance any more. I don't know why I'm still upset. How can you love someone that you were with such a short time?

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    2. Ralphis


      Bank, man up, stop being insecure and reach down and feel your nuts. If you were with this girl for a long time or something, maybe I'd understand where you're coming from but for every month you went out, you're allotted one day of grief. So, you've surpassed your allowed quarter to half day of grieving.

      Be a man, stop giving a shit about some trick , and exercise some swagger

    3. Maes


      I'll make a honest attempt at giving some useful, friendly advice here: feeling too emotionally dependant on/bad about one particular person that rejected you/you can't reach/you can't get intimate with etc. usually is the mark of the "loser" or "low status male", and a sign you've been out of "the game" for too long.

      I know this sounds like cheap PUA stuff but please, read on:

      It's OK to feel that way if you're very young and haven't had any emotional (not sexual) experiences, but if it's recurrent there's probably a bigger problem somewhere around. If human contacts (especially with people you can feel romantically attracted to) are few and far between, it's normal that you'll regard the first such person you encounter as cast gold and turn her into your standard/ideal/goddess, but the problem is that this is pretty much one-sided: the other person often doesn't give a shit/can't know what's going on inside you and the effect that she has on you.

      Seriously... to get over her you must get involved with something else or preferably, someone else. Hobbies and other solo activities can help, but if there's a greater emotional gap in your life they can only hold it back/mark it for so long (depending on how thick-skinned you are) before you collapse on yourself.

      Getting to know other people (preferably not at complete sausage fests), even if they don't have that potent effect The One has on you helps more than you think to take your mind away from her. Just throw yourself at the first random-ass party you can spot without caring if you fit in/you're out of your league/know none and try forcing a conversation, preferably with women.

      It's easy to imagine, hard to initiate, easy to pull through once initiated. Who knows, you may come out with a net gain instead of self-consuming like you're doing now.

      It's not going to be easy. Depending on how "soft" you are, you may be depressed for months before you get out of that reverie, or, if you grew too thick a skin, a couple of days and some introspection will do (heh, ask me how I know). There's no skipping the tribolation if you did get emotionally involved, though. It may be short, but it'll be there.

      Now, seriously, go.

    4. Bank


      I dig the advice both Ralphis and Maes. The truth is i'm not some shy nerd or something I'm a popular attractive guy who parties and has plenty of good friends. That's why I'm so damn confused on why I'm letting this eat me up for so long. If it's anything though, I have felt better just in the last couple days since posting this and getting some responses.

  9. I own an Iomega Prestige 1.5 TB external that I needed to format to FAT32 in order to use with the Mac computers here. All simple stuff, I backed up the files on a friend's drive and used the suggested CompuApps SwissKnife software to format, simple enough. I selected FAT32 and the drive and all that and something happened and now I have a FAT32 formatted drive with 393 GB of space. I'm usually pretty tech-savvy but this is a little bizarre and I'm not sure how to approach it, any help would be appreciated. I'm using XP.

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    2. Bank


      I've tried the two suggestions, and I'm still stuck with a 393 GB drive as opposed to a 1.5 TB one, fat32 or otherwise. That's more what I'm concerned about at the moment, any ideas?

    3. Maes


      What's your XP Service Pack level? It also may be necessary to use a particular tool from the enclosure's manufacturer or removing the drive from the enclosure altogether and connect it to a motherboard in order to format it.

      Also check out if there are any size-limiting jumpers on the HD itself, or if the particular enclosure/chipset combo has a known history of pulling such shit: sometimes those cheapo USB-to-SATA or whatever controllers used on such enclosures (is it USB BTW? Firewire? eSata?) crap out on initialization and may do funny stuff all the way down to just stop working for no apparent reason.

      I've once lost the contents of a 300 GB IDE hard disk because a (motherboards') IDE controller recognized it as 127 GB and there was no way to "convince" it otherwise.

      Edit: Unless it's you again, this bloke on the Seagate forums seems to have the same issue as you.

    4. Planky


      There are limitations in Windows that prevent you from formatting large FAT32 partitions - however, there are plenty of third party tools that allow you to do it (Windows can still read them, just not format them).

      I recommend using the HP USB Disk Storage Format Tool. I use it frequently to create bootable flash drives and it has no problems creating large FAT32 partitions. GPartEd can also do it, assuming it can load appropriate drivers for the USB interface.

      I've also used Partition Magic to do it in the past, asides from giving you a warning about the limits, seems to work fine. Not free though.

  10. A friend gave me his Sega Genesis as a going-away present and I'm just giddy playing around with it, but I need some more good games. Any suggestions? I'm a big fan of the side-scroller.

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    2. Mancubus II

      Mancubus II

      Vectorman has been mentioned, I recommend that. Earthworm Jim is always a bit of sidescrolling fun.

      Also get the classics, will help you to sell it later potentially.

    3. alexz721


      Dr. Robotnik's Mean Bean Machine!

    4. DooMAD


      I don't think anyone's mentioned Spiderman Vs Venom: Maximum Carnage yet. Excellent side scrolling beat-em-up.

      brinks said:

      Gunstar Heroes

      Yay, one of my favourites.

      Technician said:

      ToeJam & Earl

      Also good. I can never remember if it was 1 or 2 that I preferred. I think it was Panic on Funkotron or something like that.

      Bucket said:

      Comix Zone

      Brilliant game, but it's either very difficult, or I just wasn't very good at it.

  11. I am an American citizen, and I've been offended more and more over the past five years than I've ever been in my life. Our government, so to speak, has gone down the shithole.

    The United States government was founded on the premise of serving the citizens, therefore, the citizens are abovethe government. This ideal has been degraded and degraded over the years, to the point where the government rules every part of our lives.

    Recently it has been brought to my attention that the government is able to invade our privacy and blame it on us. How? The website for Homeland Security has plenty of "facts", but to cater to younger viewers, they've placed cartoons and kid-friendly images in a section of their own. It has recently been found out that cookies placed on young viewers drives allow the government to view and see everything that they do.

    On any other site, this would be a punishable invasion of privacy, but not the government. Because the government has acquired an excuse for all of their foolishness (IE, We're protecting you), they've achieved an almost unpunishable state.

    Laws were written so that all, including the government, follow a guide on how this country runs. The Government has forgotten this, and I believe I have a way to fix it.

    The Citizens organize, as well as all who feel oppressed, and offer the government an ultimatum. Three choices, Either fix the problem, walk out of office, or die.

    And that's how I think this country should be run.

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    2. Remilia Scarlet

      Remilia Scarlet

      BBG said:

      Uh, yeah, ok. Just because YOU don't wanna live...

      Who said I didn't want to live?

      What I meant, and failed to actually get across, is that human society needs a slap upside the head. Though a revolution would be nice, too. It's something I've wanted to see for a few years, now.

    3. Linguica


      Log off, that "cookies" shit makes me nervous!

    4. Ralphis


      Fuck. You're right dude! The American government is really fucking us over with these absurd spying cookies. I guess this is the end of America.

      I guess that's the way the cookie crumbles.

      Also you're an idiot

  12. Well, here's my day, let the bitching commence.

    6:00 Wake up
    6:30 Dress in wrong clothes, have to change, otherwise the coppers will get me!
    7:30 Step outside, meet up with some Nazi Friends
    8:00 Arrive at Wellinghaumer's School for Young Dictators
    8:30 Go to band practice, play trumpet, vomit, rinse and repeat
    9:00 Arrive at Trig class, stumach flu kicks in
    9:30 Go to nurse's office, bitch, complain that I have a stumach flu and southern accent, alarmed, Nurse sends me home
    10:30 Arrive at home, commence lazing
    11:00 Listen to Led Zeppelin for an hour straight
    12:00 Play oddworld while listening to Jacko's Thriller
    1:00 Continue lazing for 2 hours
    3:00 Wake up in a daze, with Hitler's blood on my hands, then wake up
    3:30 Watch a little TV, play a little Homeworld
    4:00 Go to piano lessons
    4:30 Go to JC penny for polo-shirt sale
    5:00 Go home with 4 polo-shirts and a purple dress shirt(I'm that in tone with my sexuality) all for a stunning 50 bucks.
    6:30 Browse forums
    7:00 Bitch about day to complete strangers.

    There she is so far, I never got to finish that homeworld game...

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    2. Bank


      Indeed, it seems that both of us stated our opinions vaugely, so, we discussed it, and did agree. It turned out pretty well!

    3. Jayextee


      Comiclez said:

      we discussed it, and did agree. It turned out pretty well!

      Holy crap, an actual working example of communism working! :D

    4. Bank