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Confession time; - I have done nothing creative for the past year.
This obviously sucks, and frankly I feel poor about it, but at the same time I am a lazy motherfucker and it's easier to fuck about online / irl rather than do anything about it. Used to be I'd spend at least ten hours a week trying to better myself when it came to writing, but these days I doubt I've spent more then ten hours during the whole fucking year doing anything even remotely productive.
It's not good.
I think I pretty much broke myself rewriting my shit novel for two years straight, all the time kidding myself about what a monstrous task I was undertaking. Finally, it set in that I was looking at another two years at least of rewrites before I would be anywhere even close to finishing and, having stupidly spent all that time writing the same fucking thing over and over and over again, I had actually forgotten how to look at a blank page and come up with something new.
Dumb mistake, strangling myself like that, but whatever. Worse, now I look at what I'd been writing for all that time and have a paralyzed "Ugh, fuck that," reaction, close down the word processor and instead go to youtube to veg out.
Thing is, I really need to be working on something to make myself feel viable as a human being; this fucked up laziness, while being the easy option, is beginning to eat away at my self esteem and devaluate my my feelings of worth.
So, trying to figure out what the fuck to do about it. I'm asking how other people deal with being creatively burnt out / being a chronically lazy bastard and what the best road back to recovery is.
I think I good start might be to remove the internet entirely from my work computer, but I'm willing to try other less drastic solutions to the problem first.
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Well, I finally bit the bullet and did some work because fuck it, there is no point in complaining about shit if you're not willing do do something about it. I'll probably start posting this piece of shit novel on blogs once I find a way to format a chapter in such a way that it doesn't look like a solid wall of ass on the forums. Might motivate me to actually finish the bastarding thing.
Do things to make you less depressed, many of the things advised above are good. As for your computer, if you want to get creative you could either scedual a time every day you sit down and just do that thing you want to do, no web surfing, no doom, no doomworld, just you and your writing. If that doesn't work you could look at one of the most successful tactics for break drug addiction, get out of your familier enviroment. Go write at a coffee shop or just some kind of storeplace that allows lounging, is quiet and won't destract you. If you remove yourself from your natural habitat, you will remove yourself from your natural habits.(edit) oh, by the way, can't wait to start reading it, I was pondering about that the other day and was hoping to be able to read some of it.
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