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  1. I have a Patreon now. Support me!

     

    I’m going to become a regular content creator and try to do twice-weekly streams during which I compose music for various projects. A rolling payment of just a few dollars a month will get you access to my Discord channel and lots of cool content as I make it.

     

    Hope to see you there!

  2. https://ko-fi.com/jamespaddockmusic

     

    Money's a big stress for me at the moment, so if you wanna treat me to the odd coffee every now and then, it'd be immensely appreciated. Much love, Doomworld.


  3. It's really happening.

    1. Pinchy

      Pinchy

      ';,,;'

    2. antares031

      antares031

      I do believe that this is not an april fool's joke. :D

    3. Apaul27

      Apaul27

      This is now for real, now waiting for Episode 3, and more "Wool Ball" games from MSPaintR0cks (aka WhatDatoast). :3

  4. @Baratus and I entered into the Global Game Jam (GGJ) ’18 with a game of our own that we managed to put together in about 48 hours. It’s a short puzzle-platformer made on the GZDoom engine with harsh abstract visuals, called nu//void (pronounced “null-void”).

     

    https://globalgamejam.org/2018/games/nuvoid

    Download link at the very bottom.

     

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    You have only one “weapon” – click your mouse to switch the lights "on" and "off" with a snap of your fingers. This will invert the colors black and white in the game world, exposing hidden doors, switches and platforms that you will need to find to progress.

     

    Find your way through the labyrinth, and collect the three artefacts, before making your way to the exit door.

     

    Oh yeah, and keep an eye (and ear) out – for the phantom.

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    2. Jimmy

      Jimmy

      Why? It's uh... already a thing that... exists on its own?

    3. DooM_RO

      DooM_RO

      It was just an idea. Doom already had secret Wolf3D levels in it.

       

      Anyway, I really liked the idea! The platforming could use a bit of work though. The part where you have to turn on/off midflight was awkward.

       

      I hope you make a full game out of this.

    4. Jimmy

      Jimmy

      Quote

      It was just an idea. Doom already had secret Wolf3D levels in it.

       

      Sure, but this game has a vastly different set of core mechanics - it's not run around and shoot things, it's carefully using your only weapon to change the geometry, unlock secrets, etc. It'd be really out of place in Square.

       

      The simplistic visuals aren't necessarily part of it because we deliberately chose to go for another "cartoony" aesthetic like Square's, it's just that we had less than about 2 days to put the whole thing together, so we kind of had to resort to using simple solid colors (that said, other games we saw made for this jam had some very lovingly crafted art assets which were very impressive for a development time of less than 2 days).

       

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      I hope you make a full game out of this.

       

      Undecided as to whether there'll be more. Ben will need to be on board with that as well. I'm sure there could be more, given proper time to flesh out the central concept a bit - but honestly I'm happy with this being the full game.

  5. Sorry in advance for this post, friends... shit's heavy. Feel free to skip.

     

    Spoiler

     

    My custom title is looking more inappropriate by the day. I just can't cope right now. What's the point of anything anymore.

     

    Since she left us, I've just been dithering around helplessly like a zombie, unable to find joy in almost anything. I go to bed with a heart that feels ready to collapse, and wake up with a bottomless pit in my stomach that food doesn't fill. Recently I thought I was rounding a corner, but a 2.5 hour conversation with my dad just now proved that I have absolutely no battle plan here, in any respect. The fault is entirely mine.

     

    There are so many more problems in my life rearing their heads right now than just the grief I'm going through. Having outlined them here, these are problems that for the most part still persist to this day - nearly a year after that post was made - and that's kind of just the starting point of it all.

     

    I've been terribly nonchalant about my lifestyle, and it is now biting me in the back hard. I know things could be much worse - don't even go there. I recognise that I've been privileged enough for my family to have helped me do nearly everything, but at this point they can't give much more. On my own, I'm a practically useless individual. No life skills whatsoever. If there's something worse than not having a family, it's having one but feeling completely fucking unable to help them in any capacity. And I've been casually cruising along, ignoring this for so long, that I've just hit an inevitable dead end - and now realise that I've forgotten how to drive. Any possible way out just seems deathly inaccessible.

    • I've been ambitiously creative my whole life, but now that attitude seems all but gone. Music doesn't come to me as easily anymore - I think that last 30in30 project I did bled me dry - and that was 2 fucking years ago, now. Plus the market is saturated and intimidating, if the last 4 years of uni have taught me anything - that and the local music scene sucks over here. (It really feels like there's no hope for me in Western Australia, tbh. I'm miles away from anything and everyone I care about and that includes Australians.)
    • Graphic design is something I guess I could do as a fallback but I don't have any professional tools and frankly cannot do anything photo-manipulation-oriented, which at a guess is where the real money is.
    • Game development - i.e. continuing to work painstakingly on Square E2 and E3 - would seem to be my only option, but it'll drive me further into a hermit-like lifestyle and over-reliance on my family for food and shelter. And I'm not really in the best state to be doing anything creative right now, anyway. And it won't pay me, or anyone else.
    • I actually still can't drive. Can't afford lessons right now, anyway.

    I feel like I've got nothing left. Having practically no money, very high social anxiety, and a hesitancy to pursue anything that might be the slightest bit risky, there's a multitude of seemingly insurmountable obstacles in my way... and I know I'm the only one who can overcome them, but now, my best friend and pretty much only point of sanity in this world is fucking dead. If she's not around to enjoy life, and the quagmire of my problems is the only thing that I'm left facing, then quite frankly, what's the use.

     

    Before anyone suggests it, yes, I'm going to a therapist, on the 18th, but again, what's the use. I can't pretend to want to cling on anymore.

     

    I'm not suicidal, I'd never take my own life, but I honestly feel like disappearing. The world just seems so loveless and superficial now, and I can't stand the stupid mess that I've let pile up around me. Again, it's all my fault.

     

    Just take me back to the womb, already, I want to start over.

     

     

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    2. obake

      obake

      It often seems like life is cruelest to the best people.

       

      I reiterate what others have said: you bring joy to more people than you can imagine. Never give up on yourself or your dreams. Perhaps take a break from Doomworld, clear your head. When you come back, we will be there with open arms.

    3. Jimmy

      Jimmy

      Thank you, Doomworld.

       

      I would reply to each and every one of you here, especially those who have PM'd me in light of this status, but the words are very hard to find right now. I appreciate every single word typed, though. I don't know if I was ever quite aware of the sheer amount of love this community is able to reciprocate. I do love you guys. There's so much talent and cooperation and dedication to the craft here. The Doom community is clearly an amazing place and an invaluable pillar of support.

       

      Life sucks hard right now, and my next step is still extremely unclear to me. I have a great many things I want to get out of life that I've deprived myself of for too long, and honestly, I also want to escape Australia as soon as humanly possible - maybe go to Finland or somewhere like it, some place with an actually good economy and more-than-decent education. It'd be on my terms entirely, with no family there to want to do everything for me.

       

      I also want (and very much need) a good steady job. Any kind of stable income. I also want a girlfriend, and truthfully I really deeply want a family of my own - any kind of meaningful companionship will give me a reason to get up in the morning and make something of my damn self, something a special someone provided me for five long years. It's becoming less and less ignorable as time goes on, and particularly the last couple years have felt very lonely... maybe a partner at this point will help me power through this. Or maybe it'll reinforce my sheer dependency on other people. I truly don't know what the future wants for me. Maybe I won't get one. It... hardly seems worth pursuing one if she never got one... ;_;

       

      Before I get choked up again, let me thank you all again. I've got to somehow clamber out of this pit that I've dug myself into, and that could take me fucking years, but... so be it. With the reassurance of a whole community behind me, maybe it won't be so hard. But clearly I need some hardship or I simply won't grow. It helps to get through it while knowing I'm not completely alone, though. You guys truly are allies, like the friends I never really had. So much love, guys. ;_;

    4. 40oz

      40oz

      I've been humming music from Jenesis and Plutonia 2 in my head for days. I haven't even played it recently, it's just that good and makes me think about the good feelings when playing Doom.

       

      You may not realize you have an impact on all of us but you really do, even if it's subconcious and you don't actually get to see real evidence of it. If you gotta take a break for a little bit to focus on some real shit, thats what you gotta do. Give until it feels good, not until it hurts. People say that these really low bottoms need to exist because they make the greatness in life feel so much more significant. It's really bad now but when it gets better it's gonna be fuckin awesome. If you need some Jimmy time to cope with this, by all means, take it! We'll be here when you get back and we'll still think the best of you.

  6. Merry Christmas, all. Hug your sweethearts tight and love that they're there.

     

    Sweetheart, I love you ;_;

    1. minigunner

      minigunner

      Jimmy, we’re all family in this. We all have each other. I wish you a merry Christmas!

  7. Be sure to grab Skulldash: Expanded Edition once it drops (in 5 hours' time as of this status)! I have a community-tier map in it.

     

    It's a lot of fun to play (and to map for), and for nine years and a few months in the making, it's got the sheer amount of content you'd expect. Dragonfly's development streams on Twitch have demonstrated to me just how thorough and devoted he's been to getting it done and dusted for the agreed-upon deadline. A lot of heart and soul is in this project and it looks incredibly professional to boot (just look at that website!).

     

    I'm Jimmy and I hereby wholeheartedly endorse this project. 👍

    1. Jimmy

      Jimmy

      Oops shoulda highlighted the guy. @Dragonfly

  8. "In Star Trek they have the... xenomorph, don't they? Which is like the T-1000, it transforms into different things"

    - my dad, at 3am

    1. Eris Falling

      Eris Falling

      That's right up there with these kind of images, heh

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    2. valkiriforce

      valkiriforce

      Is Metroid's gun part of his arm?

    3. Eris Falling

      Eris Falling

      Metroid doesn't have a gun, he only eats mushrooms that let him throw fireballs.. You're thinking of Sonic, who uses his his gun to freeze the ghosts that chase after him.

  9. These two little guys showed up at the house today.

     

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    Thanks @glenzinho! :D

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    2. Doomkid

      Doomkid

      DUDE. Rev action figure =  Yes please

    3. Eris Falling

      Eris Falling

      heh, there's a two-eyed caco photobombing the last picture :) Cool stuff!

      (also scarlett 2i2 spotted o/)

    4. Josuke

      Josuke

      Is that a K120 keyboard I see? I have a K120 too!

  10. I put The Molehill up on the Downloads page!

     

     

  11. I gave a presentation on Mick Gordon this week at uni. Check out the slides if you're interested!

    1. AverageWalrus24
    2. Jimmy

      Jimmy

      Oh shoot, how did this fall under my radar? Haha, thanks. :D

    3. AverageWalrus24
  12.  

    :D

    1. Nine Inch Heels

      Nine Inch Heels

      Really cute. Barrels have never been more emotional.

    2. Devalaous

      Devalaous

      According to this, all Doom barrels hate Doomguy. Was he a convicted barrel abuser?

  13. I was getting too many notifications so if you're still on my follow list then you're a cool cat.

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    2. Dragonfly

      Dragonfly

      It's for this reason I'm not actually following anyone yet. Guess I'm not a cool cat though! :P

    3. HavoX

      HavoX

      My cat thanks you. Now give her some cat food, she's hungry. :P

    4. rf`

      rf`

      The coolest of cats.

  14. Mapping on A Boy And His Barrel seems to have resumed. Here's a map I'm still working on, done in the vein of E3.

     

    1. rf`

      rf`

      That's actually pretty clever.

  15.  

    1. bioshockfan90

      bioshockfan90

      Hey, I like that channel! Good stuff.

    2. Altazimuth

      Altazimuth

      Eep, a reminder of work I should be doing.

  16. Release my interview or I'm remixing Skittles and Bits

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    2. Alter

      Alter

      I want Skittles and Bits to be recomposed in Minor.

    3. Jimmy

      Jimmy

      It already is in a minor key. :V

    4. bioshockfan90
  17. >You are only allowed to give 25 likes per day. You cannot give any more likes today.

     

    >:(

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    2. Linguica

      Linguica

      The number can be changed OBVIOUSLY but I'm wary about just making it infinite right out of the gate in case some person decides to notification-bomb the whole forum by "like"ing every single piece of content.

    3. Pavera

      Pavera

      I'd say keep it limited. Give those likes some sort of value.

    4. Josuke

      Josuke

      25 is a good number. You only need 4 of it for a super big number, which is cool.

  18. I FINALY FOUND HOW TO MAKE THESE I'M SO GLAD

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    2. Josuke
    3. Viscra Maelstrom

      Viscra Maelstrom

      i'm still trying to find out how it works. it just redirects me to my profile page whenever i click on the "What's on your mind?" tab.

    4. Viscra Maelstrom

      Viscra Maelstrom

      oh wait there it is. that's kind of counter-intuitive.







  19. This is a mint-Flake cheesecake with an Oreo base.

    I really ate way too much of this

    if this keeps up I will not live another 25 years

    What are your favorite cakes Doomworld?

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    🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂
    🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂

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    2. Viscra Maelstrom

      Viscra Maelstrom

      Swedish Princess Cake is still my favorite when it comes to cake. its most defining characteristic is its layer of green marzipan, which can sometimes vary in different colors, and sometimes has a marzipan rose in the center.

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      you can find numerous recipes of it if you search for Swedish princess cake (the "Swedish" bit is important; otherwise you'd get results that are more in-tune to what you'd think a "princess cake" would look like.) i dunno if bakeries in other countries carry them around regularly.

    3. Fonze

      Fonze

      Jimmy said:

      I posted this thread at midnight Nov 30. That cake was actually made and eaten the day before, which means your well wishes are far from belated. :D Thanks everyone!

      http://i.imgur.com/4gFqAdp.jpg

      Still the literal best thing ever.

      That picture clears up a lot of questions I had with the OP's pic. Jimmy, did you mix the crust mix in with the cheesecake? Heh, still looks good tho.

    4. Aquanet

      Aquanet

      Anything with cream cheese frosting and multiple layers. Yes, carrot cake, yes.

      The rejected wedding cakes that sometimes get delivered to my work.

      The Super Triple Double Choco Decadent cake they have at chain restaurants.

  20. 29th March 2006. A Wednesday.

    I signed on to my first internet forum - skulltag.com - and posted some shitty monster recolors, suggesting they should be in Skulltag's additional monster roster, because I was a n00b like that. Like this:



    Nothing special of course, but strangely it's still on the R667 Beastiary.

    Ten years later...

    Well, probably most significantly, I'm in another continent entirely. Have been for 4 and a bit years now.

    Achievement-wise I've probably not done bad... I've composed nigh-on 500 tracks for the community, I've mapped a bunch, including a megawad (though I'm getting close to a second) and have so far released one third of the full game project I started even way before joining this community. I was honored to receive Cacowards for both those major projects, and I've managed to involve myself in more than a few high-tier community projects too... also, exactly as it was ten years ago, I still have a kabillion personal projects in the pipeline. :D

    (Oh yeah, and ten years later, SLADE can do a much better batch-recolor job than I did with PSP5 at recoloring that cyberdemon, frame by frame. (For some reason I'm still using PSP5, though. Old habits and such.))

    ...

    I can't believe how fast a decade has gone, honestly. But I have to say that despite my rocky beginnings, I'm pretty pleased with my work for the community. I actually value those Cacowards pretty high up on my list of life achievements... which seems dumb of me to say - given that pleasing a bunch of people in one single corner of the vast, unforgiving realm of the World Wide Web ain't that hot - and given that I never actually drew up a list of life accomplishments. Nah. Gez and Eris kinda did that for me.

    But seriously, being part of the online Doom community has definitely been a life-molding experience. My sense of doing good work for a community at large has been heightened. I've been conditioned to think and review the work of myself (and others) very critically, maintaining high standards in terms of design and music alike. I have also overcome intense social anxiety thanks to the outlets of forums, IRC, instant messaging, and more recently Twitch chats. So I do owe a lot to this community.

    Thanks for 10 years, y'all. *raises toast glass full of tea*

    Here's to another... bunch.

    This habit is probably not dying hard - not even with a vengeance.

    (this was not meant to be a long post, help)

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    2. GreyGhost

      GreyGhost

      Let us know when it's up, I'd like to revisit those forums.

    3. Tango

      Tango

      Marcaek said:

      hey tango might as well mention that a complete backup of the st archive was obtained and a zan admin is working on getting it up somewhere


      holy moly that is amazing, I would love to see that!

    4. stewboy

      stewboy

      My first memory of you Jimmy is working with you on plutonia 2! I felt like everyone on the team (you included!) was a big shot and I was just the small fry that someone had dragged in to throw in a couple of things, and I was very nervous around everyone. (I also didn't have a huge amount of experience in writing music for Doom back then!)
      So I'm glad you kind of took me on board a bit and trusted me :P
      By the way, since I am so sloppy with keeping my email inbox maintained, I still have the old plutonia 2 development emails from late 2008/early 2009 from the yahoogroups thing.



  21. To be honest I'm probably at the point where the yearly incrementation of this number means so little that I feel no older on these occasions, despite the everpresent sense of time's inexorable forward passage, and the lingering dread of my life force ebbing away molecule by molecule every day.

    Yay mortality! :D Let's eat cake and stuff.

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    2. Jaxxoon R

      Jaxxoon R

      I wish you luck in becoming a lich and preserving your lifeforce in a random thing.

      Oh and happy late birthday, too.

    3. RestlessRodent

      RestlessRodent

      You kids are so young, I remember when I was 24.

      Happy birthday, you can actually write yourself a Happy Birthday song now without getting sued to hell.

    4. Hellbent

      Hellbent

      Happy birthday. Still 12 years before you hit your prime so enjoy your miserable youth while you still can! (Easier said than done, I know).

  22. I'm adding a bunch of my stuff to Bandcamp.
    https://jamespaddock.bandcamp.com/

    All music on this page is (c) me, all rights reserved.

    On that page there is a "Best Of" collection that features 32 of what I consider to be my best ever works from 2008 to last year.



    More albums are to come, including the third BTSX album, TNT2, The Adventures of Square, and hopefully Supplice.

    With these downloads, you can more easily: add the tunes easily to your music player of choice, listen on the go if you add them to your mobile device of choice, and I fully allow burning them to CD for listening in your kitchen or car or whatever. (So long as you don't be a dicklord and redistribute them. I will find where you sleep.)

    Enjoy! :)

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    2. Clonehunter

      Clonehunter

      Happy XXIII Birthday Jimmy!

    3. Eris Falling
    4. Avoozl

      Avoozl

      When I saw the title I thought of the XIII game oddly. Anyways happy birthday.

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