Single Status Update
Paragraphless blog post ahead.
Years ago I would be excited of playing Doom, toying with modding and even programming. I was a student back then and daily compulsory activity wasn't very demanding. Nowadays I have a fulltime programming job and one of the last things I want when I get home is sit more at the computer doing the same game stuff because they either seem too work-like or chores (modding, programming) or make me feel like I'm working for free (I think this is a negative thought) or not spending my little spare time very well (idly playing games instead of doing something more awesome, but STILL not work-like). I know what I'm supposed to do, which is going out (literally, or even to meet new people), which I do when given the opportunity, but I also want something that's mine, made by me, so I can show it off to people I meet, and that requires the dedication that I lost since I got a job which already makes me spend this kind of effort daily… but not for me, just for my money. Nowadays my mind is tainted that it takes a whole team to produce something substantial, and it's too bad I'm not really the networking type — I like doing stuff by myself, full-stack, without asking for help unless it becomes 'natural' to do so (e.g. my project has so many fans it becomes easy to ask for some help). I really need to get off this bad mindset: weren't Doom Builder and SLADE made by single persons? Well, SLADE did get help from Gez, but I like to think that it came naturally, without lots of pitching. They look mighty professional too. Do their authors feel miserable for spending so much time making them for free? I like to think they do NOT.
Just throwing this here, because it's the blogs forum.
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When you get a job, you have to take it seriously and commit to it. You won't have time for anything else... just ask my brother and sister-in-law.
I want to express my support with an upvote but I can't find the button.
We call it the "like" button in a another forum I visit, but that's another story...
When you get a job, you have to take it seriously and commit to it. You won't have time for anything else...
If only life were that easy. Instead I'm NOT expected to work in my free time*, so I need to be more creative.
* (EDIT): other than learning new stuff which might help me professionally, which is nice.