Single Status Update
As of late I haven't been churning as many maps out as I used to. There's several people I said I was going to make a birthday map for and I hadn't gotten around to it. I haven't forgotten about you all and will get to it at some point.
I've been having a lot going on at this point. Nothing really bad, just fillers of my time. I've been working full time, I'm training to become manager, I go to school 3 days a week and am already falling behind on homework. I'm also struggling to sever ties with some people and spend more time with others. I'm still stuck in some situations where I can't tell if they are relationships or not and am indecisive on how I want to handle each one.
But anyway, the point is that I can't seem to make as much time for mapping as I used to. I haven't decided to quit mapping. In fact, much the opposite. I WANT to keep mapping. I love mapping and I love being able to document my changes in style and my improvements over time. (It's one of the few things that I have a historical timeline of) I also like to assume that you guys love playing Doom maps as much as I do so I WANT to continue contributing to the Doom community. I'm hoping in the near future I will be able to have some free time to continue doing what I love. During some moments of freetime I've still managed to create some unfinished layouts and such so maybe some day I'll be able to utilize it in my mapping.
I just wanted to keep you guys informed about what i've got going on and how it's been interfering with my consistent mapping pace over the last few months. I don't intend to ever 'leave' being as though I'm so attached to this game. I'll probably continue mapping until I die. At the moment I'm a little overwhelmed with stuff and I seem to be putting off mapping (among other things like a reasonable sleep schedule and having more than one meal a day) because of it. I dunno how long I can take it and hopefully in the near future I'll have some time to breathe so I can make maps again.
Try not to stress over it too much. Mapping is great and I will probably be doing it for years to come as well. Sometimes real life starts taking up some of that mapping time; that's just the way it goes. In the past I wasn't very good at managing my time and it came back to bite me in the ass later on (mapping was part of it...but mostly I just have no focus when it comes to school or responsibilities :P). What I've come to learn is that you have to view your time away from your hobbies and passions as a good thing. I find that when I have other things to take care of that eat into my time for mapping or what have you, I tend to enjoy it that much more once I finally get back to it. This is especially true if your stressed out over it. If your stressed over not having the time to map or thinking about it because real life is taking up your time, chances are your not going to enjoy mapping as much anyways. That's been my experience at least.
If you enjoy doing something enough, there will always be time for it :)
This didn't all happen at once, I've been coping with it for a few months. It sucks. I don't really have these brilliant map ideas because mapping isn't on my mind as much anymore what with all the 'distractions.' I'm hoping in the near future I'll be in a position where I can buckle down and make maps without being constantly pressed for time again.