129thVisplane
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how much worse can my life get????? im an unloved untouchable fucked up little wage slave retail goblin, my dead dog didnt live to see another of his birthdays, my most hated thing is getting a prequel, im so deep in the black hole of depression that my friends dont even want to talk to me anymore and now everyone on here hates me because of a stupid fucking browser extension that i forgot i even had. im already this close to crawling into the back storage cardboard compactor and the snark really isnt helping leave me the fuck alone my life is agonizing enough just forget that i ever said anything forget i ever existed
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Completely random thing to say but also, your pfp is cute.
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Sorry to hear things are going so badly for you, I hope you're able to bounce back. Sometimes life is hard for sure.
As far as the browser thing goes (I think I saw it before, I guess the message has now been modded away): without meaning to sound like I'm belittling you or laughing at you, I think it's great and kind of hilarious in a way. Like you hate something so much you're going to go out of your way to change it's name so you don't have to read it? Hell yeah, that's how the internet should be. I can't personally think I'd ever get that upset over a game but that doesn't mean your feelings about it are invalid.
Anyhow I hope you are able to manage and take care of yourself, feel free to message me if you ever need to. As someone else who's had persistent depression and who knows many other people with similar things, I know it's hard to get out of your own head sometimes.
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I can relate to battling depression and am sorry to hear that you're going through rough times rn. Not being able to escape that feeling either at work or at home in one's personal life makes it that much harder to break free from the negativity, and as you said it has a habit of perpetuating itself by driving others away. I'll echo plums here, if you ever need an ear feel free to send a msg, but also know there are many out there that do think positively about you, even if we're mostly just strangers online, I'm sure there are also those in your personal life that feel the same.
I hope you can find yourself to a better place ❤️
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Doom: The Dark Ages has been announced (DOOM 6)
129thVisplane replied to Terrcraft's topic in Doom: The Dark Ages
trailer looks alright enough but i most likely won't play the game myself, not just because DE pulled a DNF on my mental state for a couple years, but also because i bet it would run at 5 entire frames per minute on my rig. my poor 2017 gpu had a hard enough time running DE itself any higher than 10fps, it will burst into flame just thinking about running a 2025 triple-A game lol. i'll probably just watch a streamer or youtuber play it, if even that. [presses switch] one six-hundred-sixty-sixth of the puzzle has been solved in the blood swamps (disclaimer: i love hexen this is just a silly jab at it) -
PyddTex! (PYDT Compilation [and maybe archival restoration?])
129thVisplane replied to JustAthel's topic in Resources
i bring u: a pk3 of all my embed-eaten pydt contributions that i could find (and a few extras that i found in my mess of projects along the way). i used long texturenames in the pk3, so for wad purposes they'll need to be renamed/cut down. sorry about that, i just find long texturenames easier to deal with, source engine modding had me spoiled </3 i actually ended up recreating the 32-tall bricks and brick mixes because i couldn't find those. didn't find my SKSNAKE variants that the spreadsheet mentions either, but they Might be the SNAKE01-09 entries in the pyddtex wad. maybe. sincerest apologies if someone else actually did those, i barely remember what i did yesterday let alone a texture i did in 2018 lmao lemme know if there's anything else missing that i had made and i'll try to either track it down or recreate it c: ETA: ^ yesss i completely forgot about the shawn transitions that i did. i don't believe i have those on me either, so @Michael Jensen if you could post those (and the GSTONEs for posterity's sake, while i did end up remaking them, it would be nice to have the originals) that would be excellent thank you <3 -
PyddTex! (PYDT Compilation [and maybe archival restoration?])
129thVisplane replied to JustAthel's topic in Resources
fwiw most of the missing stuff by me I should have somewhere, I gotta head to work rn but when I get home I'll see if I can dig out my entries from the depths of my harddrives and discord logs. c: -
help how do i close garrett's modification (i use it to test/chill in my source maps, pose models for art references, and make silly shitpost renders)
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catch me bangin to this banger i mean what
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very much same here, St. Anger carried me through some Very Dark moments as both an angry depressed teenager and an angry depressed adult. honestly it's not even a guilty pleasure for me because i don't feel guilty about enjoying it. it's definitely a "listen only when i'm absolutely down" kind of thing for me though. also i enjoy both the st. anger snare and dave mustaine's vocals, what does that say about me
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late night roadtrip vibes only
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im glad at least someone appreciates the fruits of my unhinged duke obsession phase LMAO <3 even if 99% of the shit i draw also includes miss meowmeow over there. such is life, i fall for a character, i invent a shameless self insert oc (or in this case, resurrect one from the forgotten depths of time), i proceed to draw nothing but the two for a couple weeks/months/years, i make it everyone else's problem too have another memepost that i just drew the art part of, the rest is game content:
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edgelordry and shitpostery, all flavored with duke nukem and/or karri stormson, is the name of the game lately when it comes to my art. idk why i tapped so hard into my art drive recently but i did. i hope the pictures embed right bc they didnt auto embed i had to pull the bbcode move and idk if that works anymore. it worked in the preview. anyway, the edgelordry: the shitpostery: assorted unfinished/unrefined sketchposting:
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the kings of ms-dos platformers kick butt together. unparalleled speed vs unparalleled explosions but they both go to space and blast enemies away with laserguns to bangin' music (this started as a crusty referenceless sketch made in like 20 minutes on a break at work on a scrap piece of corrugated cardboard. also i might still shade this but for now it's flat)
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we interrupt your regularly scheduled broadcast of unashamed dukage with 4 AM Vent Artwork Fueled Entirely By Amaranthe and Recent, Regrettable Incidents (featuring Mal'kyr who very nearly got wiped from the maltiverse but i decided to keep her around and make her suffer. sorry mal'kyr ur my new depression vessel)
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my time machine got destroyed and im stuck in summer of 2010 with a Massive crush on duke nukem helppppp
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this wasnt originally meant to be a half life duke, just a generic scientist duke made as a joke for a certain post-nuclear-apocalypse scifi setting, buuuut i guess nihilanth's gettin his alien baby ass kicked
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Sector Trees & Mid Texture-Based Trees in Doom
129thVisplane replied to stephyesterday's topic in Doom General Discussion
shameless self promotion of the janky tree that grows out of the initial hell portal in Trouble Over the Rainbow: the same wad also contains a dark forest that, however, is too dark to take any good screenshots of but trust me