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If you don't mind me asking, what the hell did you do to deserve this rank?

Here's a handy tip on how to disable PRBoom's demo progress bar!

Go to: Options > Setup > Status Bar / Hud > 2nd page > Show progress bar during demo playback = no

I've always had massive amounts of respect for the Doom community. Growing up, theres was never a game I loved more than Doom, and for years its been the only game I play. Having made maps myself as a means of giving back to the community that continually satisfies my appetite for more Doom, I have an enduring love for anyone who has done their part to keep this game relavent for so long.

Im very serious about this. Whether its conversations about mapping philosophy and gameplay, ogling at screenshots, participating in peoples projects or events, its all been very stimulating. I couldn't make this up. I have a deep and profound love for all of this. Ive literally wept thinking about Doomers who have passed away. It saddens me when I think of Doomers I've talked to who once shared the same burning flame of optimism for Doom as I have but moved on to do other things.

All the interesting talks, the hilarious shit shows, the jokes, the demos, the multiplayer, the collaborations, all of it has made everything in Doom so fulfilling to me. I've been late for work, bailed on plans, and have even fought with my wife to write detailed feedback for maps, host a podcast, help with peoples projects, anything i can do to help benefit other doomers. I don't believe I could possibly repay the community for how much good its done for me. I cant find other people who love this game like I do in my normal every day life. Theyre just not around. But they're here. Doom would just be this weird closet thing that I do alone and no one else understands. It would be this huge empty void in my life if this community weren't here.

I'm being completely up front when i tell you how much i appreciate all of you. Its ok when its not reciprocated. But on numerous occasions in the past few years Ive read more and more posts that suggest I'm really toxic for this place. Maybe its funny, i dont know. But its been feeling very real to me. People I've had great respect for consider me an enemy, people I've always thought to be friends have gone distant, and some people I've never talked to before already despise me. I don't know how many of you are serious when you make posts here that suggest that I'm not one to be trusted, but it really hurts. I don't like to be one to cry for help, but if you're not one of them, please send a message to my PM inbox. I really need it right about now.

(Whoa, oah, oah, ooaahhh)

Ain't  

loves me better

makes me happy

makes me feel this way

Ain't 

loves me better than you

We all know how much the lower unpegged on doors is almost an obligation but, should that flag be unchecked if the door track is a chain? Like, should the chains move alongside the door or should you still put Lower unpegged? Personally, I think it looks weird if you have the track moving alongside the door but, that's probably because I'm used to seeing/using doors that have the LU on way too much.

However, I have no problems with the chains moving when they are attached to a lowering floor (or maybe lift). 

What do you guys think?

Question: how can I make something not that linear but somehow enjoyable. 

So many people, especially around my age, have a problem with societal norms.  Funny...for hating norms, they sure are trying hard to have their lifestyles become accepted as a norm.

So many people, especially around my age, have a problem with societal norms.  Funny...for hating norms, they sure are trying hard to have their lifestyles become accepted as a norm.

So many people, especially around my age, have a problem with societal norms.  Funny...for hating norms, they sure are trying hard to have their lifestyles become accepted as a norm.

Behold this idiot, who has aged an entire year over the previous ten days.

Behold this idiot, who has aged an entire year over the previous ten days.

I've added a body of work to my profile now. Those are cool right?

 I need to work on more shit, haha

Well shit, I'm 18 years old today. I'm apparently an adult now. 

Things have been hectic the last few months as we all know, politics, life and just general things for everybody- myself included...Even if at the moment it's still the early stages...small steps you know?

Only recently have been able to be a little open about these kinds of things given the subject but thanks to others with support I've been able to at least be more comfortable...even if it's a bit at a time. This has all been kept away for years and years...so please forgive my nerves and anxious ramblings.

Basically I'm asking if it would be okay to refer to me as female from now?

For some it might be a surprise, and others maybe not so- and a few of you already know and have been awesome in helping me with said support I mentioned earlier- of course I've had it from others from a couple other places and other close friends online I've know and trusted for years...but this community is (mostly :P) awesome and I know you are very diverse and welcoming peoples!

I'm not here to poke with a stick each time or get offended if somebody forgets or gets it wrong at first- but this is more just to get this out there in the open. I'll try and answer anything if you're curious but again it's early days and there are going to be many barriers I still need to beat and overcome.

It's not fully in plan just yet...again so much I need to think about...so much to say and do...it's very difficult for me and I don't just want to, but I kind of NEED to get these kinds of things off my chest if I'm going to be serious about this.

Here is a picture of a giraffe because those are cool. Giraffes are cool you dig?


Thanks everybody and keep being amazing! <3
..it's past 6am and I need to sleep...really

I was trying to post a comment on YouTube today but kept getting some unknown error. Then I swapped "shitty ass" in that comment with "crap" and it finally got through. And that's bullshit.

I was trying to post a comment on YouTube today but kept getting some unknown error. Then I swapped "shitty ass" in that comment with "crap" and it finally got through. And that's bullshit.

That's right, a whole thread about the deadly stache.

The other day I was among a group of coworkers who are all into rock music and not a single one of them knew anything about Zappa, not even a single song he had written. Not one. This kind of baffled me, but at the same time, he's pretty obscure these days and was always considered pretty far out even when he was alive. I figured I'd dump a bunch of great Zappa tunes in one easy spot.

Zappa wrote some of my all-time favorite pieces. There's a big chunk of his material that simply isn't for me as it's too unconventional/'out there', but it's really quite astonishing that one dude could write in such a myriad of styles and genres. Given his enthusiasm for finding new sounds and pushing the boundaries, I suppose it shouldn't be all that surprising.

Below is a condensed list of Zappa songs I really like. The first few are my absolute favorites, and everything that follows is just a mix of stuff I can put on at any time and love listening to.

Keep in mind, humor was always one of Zappa's focal points when writing music, not just in terms of lyrics, but in terms of instrumental sounds as well. The sounds can range anywhere from rock to jazz to classical to just goofy as hell, but I love them all. At the end of the day, humor really is just one small aspect of it all. Listen to a few for yourself and see what you think:

Uncle Remus
Apostrophe'
Transylvania Boogie
Watermelon in Easter Hay
I Am The Slime
50/50
Road Ladies
G-Spot Tornado
We Are Not Alone
Dumb All Over
Heavenly Bank Account
Dirty Love
Muffin Man
Your Mouth
Bobby Brown Goes Down
Joe's Garage
Keep It Greasey
Why Does it Hurt When I Pee?
A Token of My Extreme
Harder Than Your Husband
The Meek Shall Inherit Nothing
Stick Together
Camarillo Brillo
Beauty Knows No Pain
We're Turning Again
Night School
Promiscuous
Jesus Thinks You're a Jerk
Dancin' Fool
Don't Eat The Yellow Snow
Tinsel Town Rebellion
Be In My Video
I'm So Happy I Could Cry
I'm Not Satisfied
Why Don'tcha Do Me Right?
Would You Go All The Way?
Eat That Question
Bolero (Cover)
Whippin' Post (Cover)


I could listen to a playlist of those songs almost endlessly. Of course, if you don't want my hand-picked favorites and just want to dive into some Zappa albums, I would recommend Joe's Garage, Overnite Sensation, Chunga's Revenge, Apostrophe', Freak Out!, Broadway the Hard Way, Does Humor Belong in Music?, and Sheik Yerbouti. When listened to in one sitting, Zappa's albums tend to tell a really funny, interesting or even sad story, so if that sounds appealing, maybe one of these will be up your alley.

Aside from his music, Zappa was a guy who I really respect. He valued the constitution and actively fought to defend freedom of speech, the kind of guy who would defend your right to say what you want even if he wholeheartedly disagreed with you. His albums and songs were regularly restricted from radio play and many record stores refused to stock his albums, back when they were new releases. He received constant backlash for the content of his albums, and it's extra hilarious given how tame it all is by modern standards.

Anyway, that's the end of my rant, I hope some of you get some entertainment out of it.

I was just watching one of the recent Tropes vs. Women in Video Games documentaries on YouTube (Women as Reward) and I was shocked at how many games assume that you are a heterosexual male and that you want titillation in your video games. In one of them, you advance in the game by browsing through copies of Playboy. All I can say is that I'm glad that my favourite game, Doom, doesn't have any of that (literal) wankery.

How are you, gentlemen!

I am having some relationship issues, so naturally, instead of talking them through with my girlfriend, I'm going on the Doomworld forum!

I've been seeing a girl for about six weeks. I really like her. She's got a kind heart, she's extremely loving and she is much more into me than anyone I've ever been out with. But it's getting a bit much. As an aspie, I am not really used to having close romantic relationships and I need a bit of space to process everything that happens when we are together. (This is not the same as the "I need space" excuse people use to end a relationship.)

In a good way, she has turned my life into a bit of a carnival, life is never dull when she's around, she is funny and quirky, it's just that she lives quite a long way from me, life can be a bit TOO exciting when she gets involved, she wants to see me a lot and she calls me several times a day. Sometimes I can't get things done because we're on the phone - she rang as I was taking my trousers down for a dump today. Our conversations can be LONG, eg 90 minutes or more, and I'm often doing something when she calls. I nearly shat myself today.

She has inspired me to get writing again and stick at it; she is going to brush up on Doom mapping to help me get my Panophobia maps done; in short, she is everything I've ever dreamed of in a woman, I just don't always feel I can hack the pace.

So is it me being selfish or a ponce? Or should I find a way to tell her I need some processing time? But how can I tell her this without upsetting her or making her think I want to split up?

EDIT: Sorry, I meant to post this in Blogs to start with.