BigDickBzzrak
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People around you usually start dying in your 20s . I'm ~15 years older and know at least a dozen people, both related and acquaintances, that are now dead. All over the last 15 years almost exactly.
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Hi so life's alright
I'm incredibly lazy, like right now I should get to my genetics "homework", idk how to call it, assignment is too strong of a word
I sleep a lot and cannot function properly unless I get literally 11 hours of sleep, a quite recent development since 8 used to be more than enough
I've completed Half-Life 2 in the past few days, first new game I played in months if not years, I liked it a lot!
Gaining new friends slowly but surely, it ain't hard folks!! Helps to pretend you're a bit more of a dummy than you actually are. I mean as a foreigner here I am already a bit of a dummy in the locals' eyes by default.
Really low on $$$ until I man up and find a job. I plan to do that after this semester so that I don't get too caught up during exams.
Until then yeah I guess forced vegetarianism, and I'm already skinny as heck. Turns out my body spends over 3k calories per day. I can not afford to eat that much.
Is this really that adult life people talk about? Sometimes I can't really wrap my head around the fact that I'm a person with my own will now. Like I can do what I want, for real. I mean unless we count buying stuff right now. Weird stuff, really weird stuff, even weirder when you consider that everyone probably went through this
Btw looking at my 11 warning points on the left sidebar brings me back to the good old days when i still gave a shit about the internet, thanks @Linguica it's appreciated from this distance! I wish I still got that excited about stuff that don't even exist in reality. FFS I was 14 when I registered here, now I'm close to goddamn 19 years old what the FUCK, those two are barely even the same person anymore
LMAO I even still have 4x more profile views than new people with 4x bigger postcounts, this place really became boring without me I see!
How are you all doing?
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How are you BuzzRack?
11 hours to function? That’s harsh man, any idea why? This is why I’m glad I live in COMMUNIST Australia, I can go to the dr and have shit like that checked out without selling my house. Hopefully that’s possible in your area of Europastan.
Its good to make friends ofc but be weary of the ones you have to “dumb down” to hang around, it gets draining after a while, when you’re OLD AND GREY ON 30’S EDGE you’ll be tired of it. Or maybe not idk lol just saying how it went for me. All of the friends I keep nowadays are able to talk about things beyond the surface level BS and it’s much better
Sometimes I can't really wrap my head around the fact that I'm a person with my own will now
U need to let will go, forced captivity is frowned upon in several counties.
imagine waiting til ur an old ass 14 year old to join the community lol
Good to hear from you, man. I hope you land a job soon and start making some money, then it actually will be that adult life thing you’ve been told so much about. Also you really shouldn’t need 11 hours, memes aside that’s still a shitload. It could be down to development though, I recently read that people in their teens and early 20’s crave sleep because of the energy that gets put towards growth/development. Something along those lines, anyway.
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Life's still good, started uni and all, how about you all?
Kinda lonely tho since I don't have that many friends here yet, but hopefully it'll be alright
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Lmao people still go onto my profile, why?
Also I'm doing fine in case you are wondering, I hope the same applies to you all
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Hey guys, accidentally logged on again
Anyway i'm probably not gonna hang around here anymore because this place has been inhaling Richard recently
In case you wanna talk to me (understandable considering how badass I am) hit me up on Discord where I do log in semi-regularly
Xeep-Eep#7414
Xeep-eep is also my username on doomer boards which i used as a cheap camouflage against getting banned on here, but now as i don't care at all, might as well say it
Feels nice to actually be done with this chapter in my life after 3 years, thanks for everything
Farewell and keep on Doomin', blastoise over and out
P.S.
Spoilerthese are my last map scraps. if you feel like making a full map out of these, feel free to do so. I feel like they deserve being finished as I was definitely onto something when making them.
cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/370849727413092355/536980701652713483/bzzraks_legacy.zipP.P.S.
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Tried Hawaiian pizza about a week ago. It's nice.
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Haha yeah, people tend to over exaggerate things from time to time. Like I said, I think the combination is weird, but if someone gives me one of those for free I'll happily eat it :P
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Hi, so I slept 10 hours last night but I still feel kinda tired, like my body isn't tired but my brain is. Like I'm acting super dumb and super slow, as I usually do when I'm sleepy. (when I'm not, I'm just plain dumb and slow AS YOU MIGHT HAVE GUESSED)
My sleep schedule is normally kinda insufficient but fairly consistent and I put effort into keeping it that way. (2230 plus minus half an hour till 0645, last night I went to sleep at 2105 though)
I don't have insomnia or anything, I usually fall asleep immediately after going to bed.
What to do, should I sleep more? Less??? Drink more water or something? Fall asleep to rain sounds?????? What do you recommend?
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So apparently the weebs have come up with an extension to the "Spooktober" thing and apparently it's a challenge where you have to draw a different gore-related anime art every day?????
Damn weebs should be exterminated.
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Ok I'll stop now
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I think drawing gore and looking at it can be a good therapeutic experience sometimes. I've noticed for example that animal corpses found on the street used to disturb me, but now they almost give me a peaceful feeling. By getting closer to the darker sides of this world and gradually accepting them as a natural part of it I find myself worrying less about trifle things, and even about tragedies. It's just easier to live if you expose yourself to unpleasant things instead of hiding from them in fear.
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What's with this new name? :D
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What are your think are the worst aspects that can be in a doom level?
BigDickBzzrak replied to Gabenslair's topic in WADs & Mods
Why am I enjoying this a lot Just out of curiosity and with no malicious intent, have you ever actually played a Terry wad? I'm not talking the troll shit that deletes your homework or the shit that Aquarius199 plays in packs of 8, but the actually meaningful stuff that required a lot of effort and was put together by a devoted team of people? E.g. UAC Military Nightmare or B4NM. Some ideas in wads like that can be absolutely genius. Unless you're some sort of Doom nazi that requires that all wads have 3 new palettes, 1400 unique textures on each level, perfect setpiece encounter pacing and 37000 sidedefs per map while remaining Boom-compatible, you could totally enjoy stuff like that.
